sad

this has got to have been one of the saddest days i witnessed. i say sad because we got word this morning that a close relative on my moms side passed away because of aids, we were up in the morning trying to figure out arrangement for my mom to head down south of the border to meet up with the rest of the families. me and my older brother were on the verge of actually driving down there and dropping them off at the border and buy them bus tickets for my mom and my dad to reach the small town. it hurt me to see my mom down and unable to process and think clearly. luckily there was a friend of the family heading down there because of what had happened and were asked if they could take them. they accepted and we rushed our parents into town and they were able to make it safely there. i was able to spend some one on one time with my brother and tumbler. but then after that time was over he had to go back to his home. even though he left a few hours ago i miss the guy, after he left i jumped on the old computer and began finding old playlist i made back when we go the computer; a little more then a decade ago. i am getting tired and have a list of things to do since no one will be here and have to take care of everything while everyone is away. i hope all had a great day. good night and sweet dreams.

press

had to stop the press. today was a quiet day in a sense that i kept to myself. well not really but every situation and task i was put in i was sent to do alone. in a way it was nice but then at the same time i had no one to converse with. it wasn’t until after lunch. i was able to see my mom for lunch that everything just came as a wave of everyone wanting to talk with me. i have some crazy theories but i am sure they are true about good vibes. i had to stop my doing my homework to check my schedule. i have never done that but i now have my calendar filled up, continuing to be busy, it may even be that i might be heading out of town again for the sixth time. i have been gone every weekend. it is crazy. every time i go something has do done. have to wait until friday to confirm. well today will be a way early night, i am already falling asleep. hope all had a good day. good night and sweet dreams.

blackout

well i almost blacked out today. i think it was because i may have been dehydrated, been running around the whole day. i was finally able to relax when i almost came tumbling down while walking. from what i have read, the reason for a black out is because of low blood supply to the brain. i sat down and put my head between my legs to make the blood flow even and get to the brain. it took me a while but i had almost chugged down a gallon of water; also just to be safe for future blackouts. i have always seen people blackout but has never happened to me until today. it was quite scary, everything felt hot around me, i lost hearing in both ears, began seeing colored spots and felt a pressure on my whole upper body. but at least now i know how to prevent this or even how to try to help if it happens to another. today was very inspirational more then productive, but today went okay, how was your day folks?