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i don’t want to be mean but some people need to know what to say before they speak. i know you folks are misinformed but look it up. what i study shall not be brought up during work, especially when the boss is around. that is termination talk. i know you probably got mad when i wouldn’t explain myself, but what i do is my business. my religion has nothing to do with it, i told you as much as i wanted to so you could think about it and if you are interested you will look it up online.

on another not the semester is coming near a halt. i don’t know what i should do but i do know how to get there. as crazy as that sounds. i feel like just curling up in a dark room to see what happens. i have worked hard but what i really want is to work full time with what i have learned. i like working, i do not slack, i press on even though i am there fo a short period of time. i know what i was put on this earth to do. yes i figured it out mom and dad all by myself. there is one thing i am waiting for and i wish you would say it.

i have had to many things blow through my brain today. i wanted to relax and after work my parents wanted me to get them the third toy story, it was sad but really good. made me think a lot more after the movie. started looking for my journal and i found something, i had forgotten about it but not sure how to go at it. i wrote the few ideas down, if they work, they work! if they don’t then i will modify them until they do work. it is time to sleep, hope all had a good day. may you have a good night and sweet dreams.

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everything was good, i was okay with the family, we were all laughing and what not while eating turkey. once we were done i sat down on the couch, watching my little brother pack his clothes and waiting to say goodbye because he had to work for black friday and he lives far away. while he was almost done we got a phone call, i could hear someone talking on the phone saying okay we will be there right away. i knew it wasn’t anybody from my family because we were all accounted for. it turns out it was a distant family member and they were in town and they were lost. automatically i was thrown in the pool to go get them and take them where ever they needed to go. every year it is te same thing! i want to relax and someone always has to ruin it. call me mean or whatever but i was home to relax. something i have been wanting to do for a very long time but no! i had to do other things then relax. i don’t think i ever can remember a time when we have had no interruptions and been able to celebrate this thankful day in peace. i am not angry just a little annoyed that this always happens. but i am over it and going to sleep. i hope all had a wonderful thanksgiving holiday break. good night and happy dreaming.

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thanks for ruining my thanksgiving. this was a day for me to relax, not to be a tour guide or a hotel. i love how i am automatically volunteered to follow through with something without being consulted and i am expected to be happy about it. yeah thanks so much.

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has got to have been one of my worst days ever. let’s just say it wasn’t my day and everything went the opposite direction then normal. first off, i slept in from class, i went to work and had a half day which was sprung on me, kind of wanted to work to distract myself from the things to come. after work i realized i was running really low and the next gas station wasn’t until many exits away, finally when i was able to reach the gas station my car began pulling left, once that happens i know i am getting a flat tire. as i got out sure enough it was low. as i was finishing up i had forgotten to do something and had an embarrassing moment i will never be able to live down, i laugh now but at that time was ridiculed by a stranger. after that i had to run to the store and it was crowded like no other. i guess i was just mad and aggravated from the gas station i took it out on some people driving. i just wanted to get home and forget about the day. on the drive home it was the longest drive in the world because of everyone trying to see what happened at an accident that was up ahead. i finally got home about two hours later. once i got home i was finally able to relax. did a few things to take my mind off of things. then it was sleepy time. hope all had a better day. good night and sweet dreams.

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what a quick day today was. everything from waking up early to even getting ready and heading to school. staying after to finish a test and heading to work. even at work they asked me what was wrong with me because i looked like a speed demon. i was hitting everything and knocking it out with unbearable speeds. it was as if i had eyes in every direction and a hundred arms. it was awesome. i have never finished work so fast before. and ti top it off i asked for more work to do. who asks for more work?! well i did and i was looked at as a person who was insane. with many little things to do i was able to knock those out. stayed a little after work talking to some coworkers. i was only able to hear a short brief of their life stories because i had to run to the stores. friday came up faster then i was expecting it. i am heading to the camp grounds tomorrow after work. no technology. which means a back draft of my post for that day. my first one ever. i will just be me and nature for a day to relax. relaxing is all i am doing oh and of course writing and documenting everything. from what i have looked up some adventure are in my midst. i am excited. as i write this right now i am sipping on some tea and getting drowsy. it is looking like a way early night for me. i am officially done with my tea and soon to be done writing. i love you. i love you. i love you. i am grateful to have each and everyone of you in my life, no matter the circumstances. i know you may never hear it from my mouth but i mean it with all of my heart. thank you. well folks, i hope y’all had a great day. it is time for some sleep. good night and sweet dreams.

dance O_o

woah, had a super busy day. first i was woken up at three in the morning because it was really cold, grabbed the bigger blanket and went straight to sleep before i knew it i was dreaming. it was pretty amazing, it is the nearly the second time i have had it, from what i have been told the more it repeats it is likely to happen. if it happens i won’t let the moment pass me by. after that i woke up expecting an easy day. it is friday and almost a candy holiday. i was really cold that for the first time in a while i pulled out carol; my favorite fur hoodie, i went to school and finally my professor decides to give us some news; he said it would be good news and then dropped the test bomb on us today, it is on monday, so much for me trying to have a relaxing weekend. he went through the last chapter very quickly and by the time i began to realize i was missing some notes my arm started to cramp up. i think it the cold and when i got hit in my forearm a long time ago but luckily what ever i missed was recorded on my phone. i hope i can hear it. after that i headed into work, i was also expecting something off since it already happened before. sure enough, i was handed about fifty letters or more to write and make a envelope for and mail out. they said what ever i didn’t finish i could come in on saturday and finish or save until monday. i decided to get through them all. i even skipped lunch to try and get as much done as possible. finally brought a grilled chicken sandwich and scarfed it down for a quarter lunch and went back to work. i had to stay after hours with another coworker who was finishing up some other work. finally finished about an hour later then usual. turned in all the letters to the mail room and filled a a small basket. headed home and traffic was still heavy and made my way home. i wanted so bad to sleep but with the little energy i had stayed awake. i changed into something more comfortable and just laid on the couch. went to the store and got me a grilled turkey sub, i jammed it up with all the vegetables and more with some mustard and a jug of water. i was so full, the water did most of the trick. i think i need a break from everything. i am going to take that camping trip next week. jut for a day or two. going to see if i can retrieve my tent back and off i go. it is settled. i am already for bed and it is early, i am feeling like an old timer. stay safe out there. good night and sweet dreams.

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well i almost blacked out today. i think it was because i may have been dehydrated, been running around the whole day. i was finally able to relax when i almost came tumbling down while walking. from what i have read, the reason for a black out is because of low blood supply to the brain. i sat down and put my head between my legs to make the blood flow even and get to the brain. it took me a while but i had almost chugged down a gallon of water; also just to be safe for future blackouts. i have always seen people blackout but has never happened to me until today. it was quite scary, everything felt hot around me, i lost hearing in both ears, began seeing colored spots and felt a pressure on my whole upper body. but at least now i know how to prevent this or even how to try to help if it happens to another. today was very inspirational more then productive, but today went okay, how was your day folks?

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well, like today showed me, it is never to late to keep on learning. i got really inspired and i keep getting anxious about school starting around the corner, well next monday or a week from today. i am still in a mix of things trying to get everything figured out. waiting on a few phone calls. everything now seems that it is piling up and getting more stressful. i know i know i need time to relax but i like the pressure because i am more inspired when there is a task ahead of me, to most it sounds like procrastination but to me, that is when i make magic. in many past project i have created magic and have crammed got a passing grade. but now everything i am doing doesn’t involve a grade but a time table to get everything turned in. stay tuned to see what happens tomorrow. lol

sorry friends i have been busy O_o

been working super hard and been dedicating most of my time to school work. finished with 3 chapters of definitions earlier and decided to take a run in the park to clear my brain, even just for a little bit but while on my run I had tumbler with me and could only complete about 3/4 of the mile because I couldn’t run with him, he was too fast or too slow at times and decided to head home. had some fish for dinner and tried to relaxed. took some time and sat outside to enjoy the elements. was watching the stars and the moon come to life during the twilight moment of the day. it is pretty amazing how life around is, which is why I started looking into buddhism.

“oneness of life and light, entrusting in your great compassion, may you shed the foolishness in myself, transforming me into a conduit of love. may I be a medicine for the sick and weary, nursing their afflictions until they are cured; may I become food and drink, during time of famine, may I protect the helpless and the poor, may I be a lamp, for those who need your light, may I be a bed for those who need rest, and guide all seekers to the other shore. may all find happiness through my actions, and let no one suffer because of me. whether they love or hate me, whether they hurt or wrong me, may they all realize true entrusting, through other power, and realize supreme nirvana.” – Namo Amida Buddha

I am beging to see a lot of things that come from this type of view, some which I am liking. it is still new to me, looks like new views may be coming soon.

to seeing new things O_o

I know you want me to be successful in life, I am trying my hardest, I hope you can see it. I went to help and we bonded and bonded greatly at that, I learned a lot, I know your trying to help me out best that you can. sometimes it sounds as if your disappointed. I know you gave US everything you possibly could have hoped for. I am not a failure, I just can’t see the challenge up ahead. no one can really. I have been kick and re-kicked way too much. times are changing and I am rising up to the occasion. when have you ever seen me read a book? never until theses past month, I can’t be compared to others, I am still LEARNING. it gets tiresome sometimes. you get tired  physically where I get tired mentally. there total opposites. push me harder then you ever have before because within sometime soon I will be running thing, my hopes and my dreams. I have to take it slow and steady for now, I know jobs are everywhere but the thing is, I am 23 years old and almost a 1/4 of my life has past, the easy stuff has past and now its time to fight and survive out there to get a career where I don’t have to bother with someone else’s doing. I am no longer a puppet for them. it’s DONE. time to learn and move FORWARD.

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work was good, took a little longer then expected. I was trying to cool down when all of a sudden IT start, not sure if it was meant to on purpose or accident but it started. I am super tired of this, you really need to quick you shit, it stupid and childish & how the FUCK am I suppose to get you something when I your locked up in your room in the back. really?! c’mon. the only way to get away is [THIS]. not sure why this annoys me so much, but your a grown fucking man. it may be time to start acting like one. has it ever occurred that not everyone is wanting to play . being home should be time to relax. key word: RELAX. ugh! you cant even let me watch ONE hour of tv, two of three tv’s are showing the same thing. sometimes you can be annoying and I dont know where everyone is 24/7, WTF do I look like, a GPS or something. >O\

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