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Monthly Archives: November 2010

i just realized today that there is one month left in the year. there is a lot i have to catch up on. it is not a lot but what i am doing is bold. enough to be crazy. but here goes nothing. if it can be done it will come alive. i am anxious to see what is. i will be waiting too on my library certificate when i finish being the intern. today went well, better then other days. had to learn and broaden my horizon for the new things i was taught today. it was fairly easy but tried it three times to get it perfect. i am tired from almost knocking out my heart out of my chest when i went running earlier, it felt good to get out, feel the cold while running with tumbler. it had been a while. going to sleep already. got to see a professor about some paperwork for this semester and the next. i hope all had a good day. good night and sweet dreams.

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i don’t want to be mean but some people need to know what to say before they speak. i know you folks are misinformed but look it up. what i study shall not be brought up during work, especially when the boss is around. that is termination talk. i know you probably got mad when i wouldn’t explain myself, but what i do is my business. my religion has nothing to do with it, i told you as much as i wanted to so you could think about it and if you are interested you will look it up online.

on another not the semester is coming near a halt. i don’t know what i should do but i do know how to get there. as crazy as that sounds. i feel like just curling up in a dark room to see what happens. i have worked hard but what i really want is to work full time with what i have learned. i like working, i do not slack, i press on even though i am there fo a short period of time. i know what i was put on this earth to do. yes i figured it out mom and dad all by myself. there is one thing i am waiting for and i wish you would say it.

i have had to many things blow through my brain today. i wanted to relax and after work my parents wanted me to get them the third toy story, it was sad but really good. made me think a lot more after the movie. started looking for my journal and i found something, i had forgotten about it but not sure how to go at it. i wrote the few ideas down, if they work, they work! if they don’t then i will modify them until they do work. it is time to sleep, hope all had a good day. may you have a good night and sweet dreams.

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woke up around mid-day, had my brunch and two cups of coffee and went on my day. cleaned, laid down, read, wrote and ate until i headed off to the store with my family. while at the store i found two small statues of a bodhisattva. i have started some study of buddhism but i have to start slow because the end result is tough but a good outcome. found a few other things i need too but that will have to wait for later. i hope all had a good day, school and life starts back up tomorrow. you have a good night and sweet dreams.

O_o

i was working on a few things today and was inspired to work. before summer i was think of a few ideas of what to do for the new year. it was way early and had forgotten about it for a few months and am way behind schedule. i had planned to create an album for a new years party which could possibly be another appearance by me. if i can finish it i will have to pull a few strings to see if what they need is what i am creating or have created. i am still in the early stages of editing but i will dedicate more time into it after i finish with my school. it is coming to a near end and it is frightening me of how good i have been in class. i am out. hope all had a good day and see you soon. good night and sweet dreams.

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i have been asked what i want for christmas several times this whole week and my answer keeps to continue to be the same. what i really want can’t be bought. i don’t need anything because i have everything. this year i am not going to want anything. there are a few things i would like but for someone to get me them would probably break the bank, i don’t want that to happen, so i will wait till i can gather enough money to buy them on my own. something as small as a keychain would suffice for me. today was way better then yesterday, my parents had to go out of town again to see my uncle and drop stuff off. it kept me worried for the moment until i received a text saying everything went well and were safely on their way back home. once they did arrive i was happy again. i just stayed in watching weeds with my older brother and had my coffee in the afternoon because i didn’t have it in the morning. i am sleepy for some reason already and it is early. hope all have a safe night. good night and sweet dreams to you.

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everything was good, i was okay with the family, we were all laughing and what not while eating turkey. once we were done i sat down on the couch, watching my little brother pack his clothes and waiting to say goodbye because he had to work for black friday and he lives far away. while he was almost done we got a phone call, i could hear someone talking on the phone saying okay we will be there right away. i knew it wasn’t anybody from my family because we were all accounted for. it turns out it was a distant family member and they were in town and they were lost. automatically i was thrown in the pool to go get them and take them where ever they needed to go. every year it is te same thing! i want to relax and someone always has to ruin it. call me mean or whatever but i was home to relax. something i have been wanting to do for a very long time but no! i had to do other things then relax. i don’t think i ever can remember a time when we have had no interruptions and been able to celebrate this thankful day in peace. i am not angry just a little annoyed that this always happens. but i am over it and going to sleep. i hope all had a wonderful thanksgiving holiday break. good night and happy dreaming.

O_o

thanks for ruining my thanksgiving. this was a day for me to relax, not to be a tour guide or a hotel. i love how i am automatically volunteered to follow through with something without being consulted and i am expected to be happy about it. yeah thanks so much.

O_o

has got to have been one of my worst days ever. let’s just say it wasn’t my day and everything went the opposite direction then normal. first off, i slept in from class, i went to work and had a half day which was sprung on me, kind of wanted to work to distract myself from the things to come. after work i realized i was running really low and the next gas station wasn’t until many exits away, finally when i was able to reach the gas station my car began pulling left, once that happens i know i am getting a flat tire. as i got out sure enough it was low. as i was finishing up i had forgotten to do something and had an embarrassing moment i will never be able to live down, i laugh now but at that time was ridiculed by a stranger. after that i had to run to the store and it was crowded like no other. i guess i was just mad and aggravated from the gas station i took it out on some people driving. i just wanted to get home and forget about the day. on the drive home it was the longest drive in the world because of everyone trying to see what happened at an accident that was up ahead. i finally got home about two hours later. once i got home i was finally able to relax. did a few things to take my mind off of things. then it was sleepy time. hope all had a better day. good night and sweet dreams.

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have done all i can. have to wait and see what happens next. what a day, i am super tired and got lots to do tomorrow, i wish i didn’t but i do, last minute things to pick up before heading home. needing to go to sleep because if i don’t i am afraid i will not wake up on time in the morning. hope all had a good day and happy birthday to all my friends who had a birthday today. on that note, good night, sleep well and sweet dreams.

O_o

time to wrap it up now, i cut myself off cold turkey from the social world to get things done, it did help, today everything is riding on getting my project turned in tomorrow. i am just hoping for a good grade, above all i have never withdrawn from a class and i wonder if staying was a good thing, the only thing that worries me is getting everything turned in. had way better days then today, something was off today, not sure what it was but i am certain something was off. time to sleep. i will get back to the social world tomorrow. i do miss it but i had to get things done and needed to take drastic measures if not i would have not been able to stay focused. good night and sweet dreams.

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only have a few moment to write this but it has been a very busy day. lot of work. have stayed clear of the internet, had to turn off the wifi to work, i kept wanting to get distracted but by all means i prevailed. i was hit with epiphanies in the face today, literally. stuff is getting really heavy really fast. as if my mountains just blew up and are headed down the hill with an earth slide. you be safe out there, haven’t seen or talk to a few people that i would usually talk too. looks like every one is growing up and getting stuff done. miss you and love you(s). try to stay sane. school and work tomorrow. this is good night, sleep well and sweet dreams.

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what a day, i was totally surprised by my dream before waking up, it was good but not really sure what it meant or what was the message the other person was trying to tell me. party silently. as i awoke i was awake before the alarm had gone off, i got up and started getting ready for work, it was still early and made some pancakes and coffee, while i waited i tried getting ready, was a slow process. i finally was done cooking and got to eating, finished changing and headed out the door to the car. started up the car and drove, arrived to work and met up with all my co-workers for a slight meeting, got some useful information. got in my group and got to work, had to get after a kid for acting up today. wasn’t fun getting after them but had to be done, they were very disrespectful and if most people know me that does not fly with me. i give respect to have it returned back to me. finished there and headed home, i was suppose to do homework but took a nap instead and after a few minutes i was energized and my family arrived. decided to have a little fun with them and talk. we went on for a few hours and began making bar-b-q outside and the neighbors joined us; they are related but distantly. after being stuffed on chicken i went inside to grab tumbler and ran after something he thought he saw and broke his collar. had to make a quick run to the store and buy a new one. today was productive but more social. i tried writting and have finished up two more reports, still have three left and and to tired to write. hope all had a good day. good night, be safe, sleep well and sweet dreams.

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