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why must you keep doing this too me? i told you many of time because of what you did to me, i never want to hear from you ever again. it’s unforgivable and i have no room for you in my life. say what you want but what you did trumps anything i could ever do to a person. in other words goodbye.

on a side note, today was very productive. i was running around and driving around everywhere. i got all i needed done. i started working on my project to forget what happened earlier. time to get back to work. catch you later.

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i am writing in this way too early. it is nine at night and i am already falling asleep. i partially blame the medicine that i was taking. i produced and edited two songs today, took me just about all day. i had lost track of time on the most recent one for a tribute to tron: legacy the movie. the other song airplanes is still my favorite song and i figured why not. they came out good, different from what you would normally hear but good. i hope all are doing well. stay safe out there kiddos. time for me and my happy feeling medicine to sleep. good night and sweet dreams. take care.

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today i was woken up early by my dreams. it was like what happens on inception, a dream within a dream, i was walking through a mall and with a co-worker and telling him different things when out of the blue i hear my name called i turn and turn to try to find where that voice was coming from. i was getting anxious and then kept walking and talking, moments later i could see a figure of  some sort pixelating in front of me; while this is happening my co-worker is still talking and walking; what i saw i didn’t know because i began thinking in my head to wake up. before that an arm tried grabbing me and then at that moment it was as if i could see myself waking up but it was still a dream. then in the distant could hear tumbler barking and it got louder to where i did actuall wake up for real.

after that it was early and i was able to make me a healthy breakfast and throw on a pot of coffee, sure enough i downed two cups before leaving to school and took a third with me. went to school took my test and realized some of the questions i didn’t know must of been the ones i missed class because i overslept. it is to early to tell but i don’t know how i did and wont find out until my final on next friday. after that i made it home to grab my stuff for work and headed to work.

when i arrived i greeted all co-workers and couldn’t remember for the life of me what my co-worker in my dream was telling. he was running around everywhere and i never got a chance to converse with the guy and i got busy working the whole day. i was curious and was trying to see how i was doing so far and started talking with the supervisor and he said i was doing good but to slow down on working so much, i was taking work from the others because i am asking for more work. lol. i was taken to lunch by some of the guys at work, i think the talk i had with them they finally trust me. returned and got straight to work. i think i was more distracted today by everyone then i ever have. i’m the youngest one there, it wasn’t too long ago that i was in the shoes of the kids that come and go. i had finished my last set of paper work on the deadline a few minutes before leaving. once i left for home that was that.

i arrived home and arrived early so i changed really fast and headed to the park to go running with my dog, again. since i arrived early to the park it was still some daylight out, i did my thing and it was too early to go home i decided to go another mile or so and then return home. it turned out just perfect. i was able to run a bit more in a short period of time. then returned home.

after arriving home got my sandwich out and ate before starting back up on my work i have to catch up on. it is a lot and i just woke up from a half hour nap i took. i have to get to work early tomorrow and will be going to sleep after getting ready for bed. i hope all had a good day and a safe night. good night and sweet dreams.

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i just got out of the shower with a refreshed feeling. i feel as is i have washed away a few weights of my shoulders and feel that what i wrote early had been picking at my finger tips to get out. i have normally stayed quiet about a lot of things, i think it is time for a change. it is time for me to be outspoken. getting tired of never having a voice or being heard. this ends now. i hope everyone had a good day but it is time for me to get some rest and hit the books again tomorrow. be safe. have a good night and sleep well with sweet dreams.

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today has been a wake up call above all other things. all happened during work. what i did was nothing compared to what i have done before, i was able to sit in with a few families and saw how things could possibly take a turn for the worse. i could relate to some of the things going on but some of the other things i couldn’t relate too. i was sort of shocked of what was told to me by strangers i have never met before. everyone beat around the bush and said i looked liked a trustworthy person and that’s why they were able to talk to someone like me. with the confidentiality agreement i had signed i was to report any harmful actions to one self or others. luckily what i was told wasn’t life threatening, it was mostly just a cry to be heard. some of the stories were a little tough to hear but it got me thinking that if i can possibly fix my problems i would be open to help others who are going through some of the little things i was and have been struggling with. i got to talking and listening to one case, wow did i feel bad for the kid, the parent wasn’t making an attempt but the child wanted to better themselves and the parent was just being ignorant that it made the child feel embarrassed to say the least. i did all in my power that i could today and felt like i made a difference in their lives and possibly the parents. as i got home i just wanted to rest but knew i couldn’t. stuff had to get done. as i ended up being done my parents were over and started cooking. i like having family dinners. i really do enjoy them, we are a lively crowd of crazy people, in my thoughts; well maybe as others see us too. lol. who knows?! i am getting to tired to keep writing. stay safe. good night and sweet dreams.

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i guess paper never lies. this mornings class was awesome, what i learned before from a friend really came in handy today. it was as if i could connect the dots and get everything correct. it was great. this is one of a few classes that have kept my intrest for a good time, there was some people behind me who kept talking, i didn’t want to be mean, but they really did need to shut their mouth. why be in a class that you don’t like and talk the whole way through it, drop and choose another class or at least sit somewhere where the professor doesn’t see you chatting it up. this is the first time in over a year that i have a good seat and i have to get stuck in front of the talking group. just my luck. had to run a few errands after school but it does get tiring driving everywhere sometimes. made it home in one piece and was able to get a healthy snack just in time before dinner was started, it is getting easier to eat the stuff i slowed down on, veggies. fast food is out of my system, soda is out, caffeine (if any), candy and desserts. it was a hard thing to do but so far it has gone well; for a month. have dropped a pound or two but it still is no where near what i want my ideal weight to be. i drink just about five to six liters of water everyday, even though i get cravings for food i have slowly been taught what i should eat and how, kind of like a personal eating plan; i really do hope it works. we will see at the end of september how it went. with all that under my belt i am starting back up to go run, play sports and be active. it helps so much. and feels great too. i am worn down already and it is early, everything is ready for tomorrow for school and now it is time to call it a night. good night. sweet dreams. sleep well.

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well i almost blacked out today. i think it was because i may have been dehydrated, been running around the whole day. i was finally able to relax when i almost came tumbling down while walking. from what i have read, the reason for a black out is because of low blood supply to the brain. i sat down and put my head between my legs to make the blood flow even and get to the brain. it took me a while but i had almost chugged down a gallon of water; also just to be safe for future blackouts. i have always seen people blackout but has never happened to me until today. it was quite scary, everything felt hot around me, i lost hearing in both ears, began seeing colored spots and felt a pressure on my whole upper body. but at least now i know how to prevent this or even how to try to help if it happens to another. today was very inspirational more then productive, but today went okay, how was your day folks?

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took some initiative today no matter the circumstance with my foot, it needed to be done. just got back with my mom from austin. we went to take care of a few things while we were there, took a few hours but we got it done. i got to drive the big truck today. had my son (aka my dog, tumbler lol) in the back seat, he was crashed out the whole trip there and back. before we left i had to throw on my music, made me feel country. driving a big diesel truck feels great and heavy. we were lugging a tractor, i felt safer for me driving rather then my mom because i could maneuver the truck in ways that my mom doesn’t really know how. just about every song came on that i used to sing…, it feels good to release my voice in the vehicle again. with driving the truck it got me thinking, i still need to fix up my truck, a few things are missing in the engine before it can fully run. i love my shelby (my car) but i just don’t feel as safe as i should be. the truck is a rare classic truck and once she is done she will be branded with the name tiffany, she is a sea foam green color with black and silver accents; just seemed suitable. it is so old school that it has no power anything but a radio and if i am correct an a/c, which texas heat days should come in handy. all the work that we did today plus the heat took a toll on me. my back is sore, and my foot is getting slightly better too. i am just taking a wild guess and believe that yesterday was my off day. we all have them. still hope for the best. have a great night and great day tomorrow.

gone country O_o

last night, well really this morning was crazy, fell asleep early last night without saying anything and woke up in the middle of the night with a crazy sound. sounded like bats fighting or something not so happy. wasn’t cats, dogs or birds because i know what that sounds like. it was around five in the morning when i heard it and of course tumbler heard it to and that proved that it wasn’t my imagination or dream. what sucked too was i was in the middle of a good dream but that’s another story for another day. well lately tumbler (my dog for those who read this and don’t know who that might be…lol) has been way over protective, i read a horoscope on dogs (don’t ask why) and it said he would be getting a stronger bond with his owner. it’s not the protection where you can’t get near us but when me and my brother or aunt play around he get in between us and tries to protect me by barking at them. i feel a great sense of security when he is with me for some reason, but those who know me know i am very paranoid about certain things, what ever the case may be, i know the problem but am trying to slowly overcome it. as the day continued i was left home alone while my brother was still sleeping and he heard a car approach, i didn’t because i was listen to music with my earphones and about thirty seconds later he heard the door open and began barking very loudly… he scared me half to death but it was just my cousin wanting to know some info on his car. with each day me and him are getting to exercise outside, even though it may be playing catch or just running wild; i feel beter, well my heart does, it doesn’t feel all slow and weak when it’s working like it did way back in the day, i figured out that even though i gave up fast food, i sneak a chicken sandwich about once a week when i have a huge craving, i do need my fatty acids too lol, but have not felt the urge to eat red meat, i think i can fully commit to becoming a vegetarian but as long as i still have my chicken and fish. maybe after many times i can get where i want to be. in conclusion here is to challenge number one for me and on to continuing step one and starting step two tomorrow.

to my being O_o