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this has got to have been one of the saddest days i witnessed. i say sad because we got word this morning that a close relative on my moms side passed away because of aids, we were up in the morning trying to figure out arrangement for my mom to head down south of the border to meet up with the rest of the families. me and my older brother were on the verge of actually driving down there and dropping them off at the border and buy them bus tickets for my mom and my dad to reach the small town. it hurt me to see my mom down and unable to process and think clearly. luckily there was a friend of the family heading down there because of what had happened and were asked if they could take them. they accepted and we rushed our parents into town and they were able to make it safely there. i was able to spend some one on one time with my brother and tumbler. but then after that time was over he had to go back to his home. even though he left a few hours ago i miss the guy, after he left i jumped on the old computer and began finding old playlist i made back when we go the computer; a little more then a decade ago. i am getting tired and have a list of things to do since no one will be here and have to take care of everything while everyone is away. i hope all had a great day. good night and sweet dreams.

O_o

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it is 5 am and today is the anniversary of the passing of my moms aunt.

rip O_o

today was sort of random, did my run in the morning; beat my previous times in the completion of it. something i have never been able to do accomplish, but this morning i did! got ready for school, finished and headed home, met up with my mom for lunch and ran a few errands with her. came home and started with my homework and dinner. well done with my readings and ready for bed; early too and it’s now time to sleep. hope all had a good day. stay safe and have a wonderful night. =)

O_o

today has been kind of an ache. well was up really early to take out the dog and stepped outside and it was pouring cats and dogs; figuratively speaking. step out in the rain and let the dog do his business, he was anxious to get inside because of the rain, for me it was a wake up call for me; the rain woke me up. lol. as i got ready for class i had asked the professor that i would be leaving early because of an appointment i had. he let me leave early. it was still bad outside; weather wise and tried to arrive on time; i did! checked in and waited two minutes before they came and got me. spent a few hours getting x-rays and getting a checked up to make sure everything was good. sure enough all was good. the only bad thing was that one of my wisdom teeth is laying on it’s side and will have to be surgically removed. =O\ but i need them out because of the headaches i get from them making their way in. when the consult was finished i headed home, called my mom and when i arrived she had a bowl of her homemade chicken soup ready for me. it was awesome! had to run a few errands after that before taking off to my old house out of town. staying a few days and needed a break and since i was having a four day weekend, i thought it would be good to see all my old friends who where coming into town and who i hadn’t see in a really long time. hope they have a safe trip, see you folks soon. heading there now.

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today was one of those day, just had to get through it as much as i could. spent the day with my mom running errands to help out my sick uncle. got the stuff he needed and when i got home my humanities book arrived, started reading and i accidentally fell asleep; but the thing is i wasn’t even tired. i woke up and started back up reading and then a little later joined the family for dinner. it looks like an early night to get some rest, tomorrow is a new day and more things to do. let’s see how my dreams go too. be safe out there folks. have a good night.

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today was strange, woke up to a crazy dream, was able to see in thermal imaging. as if i had bionic eyes. it was weird and also strange. as the day carried on my mom got a phone call, it was my dad. she could hear something was wrong in his voice right away. i have that gift too, being observant helps too. i was outside trying to tire out tumbler so he could sleep better at night. when i came inside my mom told me what happened, i fed tumbler really fast and jumped in the car and drove to the rescue. i know i have no medical skills or a phd, but i know how to take care of the issue at hand (pun intended.) after thirty years not one time has this happened. normally in a situation like this their woud be panic, and forgot to mention my mother was with me. she gets queazy about the situation when blood is involved. i am perfectly okay with it and have no negative reaction to the sign of blood. i did everything i could to stay alert, assertive and collected, even though i was scared out of my life to find out what happened, i had to imagine what happen and play it in my head as if it were showed on a video. everything is fine for now, on the way there and while helping, i kept seeing worse case scenarios. i know not all of them could happen, but i had to slow down my heart rate so my dad wouldn’t see the scared look in my eye. the injuries weren’t severe but they were still their. i was able to do what i had to do to my dads hand before or maybe possible later injury. i could be quite a healer under pressure, i have seen some people crack, it isn’t a good thing. i am just glad everything is okay, not sure what will happen tomorrow, i have to help out my dad, it will be tough but he can handle pain, it may have been the adrenaline but he stayed calm through it all, even when i had press, move, rotate the injured area. it seems that so far these past two days have been about something important, i now see that. what we discussed yesterday came true; in it’s own way. i hope you get well soon. it was hard to take the strange felling in my throat and make it go away. sort of felt like someone was trying to strangle me, i had to push my way through but got to the other side.

get well soon O_o

well my parents just arrived, wished my pops a happy birthday, he is now three decades older then me, it is crazy to think he still looks young for his age despite the peper hair, in his line of work i know how hard it is, if anyone thinks there job is hard, i beg to differ, i would put my salary on it. i can guarantee that NO ONE can last a day in his shoes. that is a promise. he is my hero and i have always seen him like that, even when i found my report of the greatest hero ever; i listed him. i know he wants the best for all of us, everyone does. i am breaking my head trying to show my dad i can over come anything but right now i feel like i am going to explode, i stopped myself from having a headache by telling myself i had no time to deal with it and it went away shortly after getting back to my studies. what i thought was going to be easy really isn’t, this is the toughest thing i have ever done, try to manage two classes on my own time. even with all the time in the world i am afraid i am slipping from the good into the bad, i am not trying to sabotage myself because i love to learn, i just need a little time to be able to figure it all out, but the thing is i don’t have the time that i would need. my brain feels fried but i want to keep moving forward and on top of all that my parents just let me know that my uncle is really sick, he is in mexico and they were there visiting him again, when it’s not one thing it’s always another. can or will this family ever get a break. i guess me trying isn’t good enough, i guess i will have to do everything to pull through on this one, i am seriously thinking of just rolling into a ball and letting go. i don’t know what to do anymore. in conclusion do i fight for what is right or just accept what is?

to needing it O_o

woke up today knowing a little about myself and started to do some things that made me step into another pair of shoes that rarely happens. I know we can be a bit of a handfull sometimes but we don’t do it on purpose. since we were not taught, we have never been in this situation before. my out looks on life are simple, they give me a challenge. it’s not that I am selfish but it sometimes seems to me when I look at the big picture that the world has to revolve around me. when in reality it doesn’t. i see now what you go through on a good long time basis to realize today how much I appreciate everything you have done for all of us. I think everyday as I grow and grow I am learning what you mean you mean by “you have been there done that.” I know we are not all perfect, but there are things you don’t know, not because we choose not to tell you; I think it is because you will not see us the same way as what you know today. I am sorry for you having to lose the thing that matters most to us. but it is not the end and we can still be taught new things and better things to show we listen and care what you have to say. “everything will be okay in the end, if it’s not okay, then it’s not then end.” I learned a lot today. Thank You and have a safe trip back because I am not sure what were to happen if something unpleasant happens.

to maturing and growing O_o