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today has been mostly about dealing with the news of yesterday, i will not be at ease until my parents return, they have already been through one scare on their last trip out of the state, i would be there with them, i just don’t have a passport, i know i should have gotten it but i have held it off for too long. since today was not as cheerful i decided to listen to music all day, i still had my new years project to work on. i found several undiscovered songs and wish to use them. i fell asleep listen to music and woke up to take off my headphones and here the thunder outside, tumbler was scared and kept getting up because the floor would shake. time to get some more sleep, good night and dream freely.

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i was able to post a few pictures of of the party. what i didn’t want to say yesterday was i thought i would never release emotions like i did on the drive back home. i was super grateful for the opportunity that was presented to me. i was sad that i was leaving it all behind and having to get back to the real world. i took some advice from a friend who recommended some classes online and have started listening to the classes. it was a logic class and everything they were mentioning i had already learned in philosophy class. i am going to get to learning and filling my brain with knowledge because i miss school and am excited to go back. catch you later.

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this has got to have been one of the saddest days i witnessed. i say sad because we got word this morning that a close relative on my moms side passed away because of aids, we were up in the morning trying to figure out arrangement for my mom to head down south of the border to meet up with the rest of the families. me and my older brother were on the verge of actually driving down there and dropping them off at the border and buy them bus tickets for my mom and my dad to reach the small town. it hurt me to see my mom down and unable to process and think clearly. luckily there was a friend of the family heading down there because of what had happened and were asked if they could take them. they accepted and we rushed our parents into town and they were able to make it safely there. i was able to spend some one on one time with my brother and tumbler. but then after that time was over he had to go back to his home. even though he left a few hours ago i miss the guy, after he left i jumped on the old computer and began finding old playlist i made back when we go the computer; a little more then a decade ago. i am getting tired and have a list of things to do since no one will be here and have to take care of everything while everyone is away. i hope all had a great day. good night and sweet dreams.

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today was my lazy sunday, woke up at all kinds of time and kept falling back asleep. i did get my rest in but it was a slow kind of day with nothing to do but clean and pick up while listening to my ipod. throughout the day my jaw and filling were bothering me, i had a weird feeling, very difficult to explain and i wouldn’t know where or how to begin. it is already late and have to take care of some stuff for tomorrow. i hope all had a great day. time for me to sleep. good night and sweet dreams.

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i am writing in this way too early. it is nine at night and i am already falling asleep. i partially blame the medicine that i was taking. i produced and edited two songs today, took me just about all day. i had lost track of time on the most recent one for a tribute to tron: legacy the movie. the other song airplanes is still my favorite song and i figured why not. they came out good, different from what you would normally hear but good. i hope all are doing well. stay safe out there kiddos. time for me and my happy feeling medicine to sleep. good night and sweet dreams. take care.

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today was really random today, i woke up and it was cool in the house, after getting ready for work i opened the door to find fog everywhere. i couldn’t even see across the street to the other houses thats how bad it was. while i was driving i had to be extra careful since i could only see a few car lengths in front of me. it took me a little longer then usual since everyone on the road slowed down. i had made it to work safely and checked in. while we were there getting the paperwork ready for the day, it began geting beter outside. i had heard on the news the night before that it was going to be hot and then cold again at night. i got through work without any problems. what was exciting was that the week i had asked for off was given to me so that i could deal with all my school stuff and finals.

on my way back home they had closed a six-lane highway to one-lane to do work on a saturday afternoon. there was no problem the whole week with it and just out of the blue they decided they had to stop everyone and work. i was in no rush but knew what i had coming. i have a few more reports i have to turn in and they are all due next friday. i have less then a week to get them typed out and printed and sent to my professors. while i was working i was getting a headache from not eating because i had forgotten my snack before dinner time. i was going to make turkey burgers on the grill. i haven’t been able to cook in a while because of my time being busy with work or school and decided to take a break from typing.

prepared and got everything ready while the pit was being started. they came out really good. after cleaning up i jumped back on the computer to type and finish my reports. just in case i fall asleep early, i hope everyone had a good day and be safe out there. good night and sweet dreams.

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today i was woken up early by my dreams. it was like what happens on inception, a dream within a dream, i was walking through a mall and with a co-worker and telling him different things when out of the blue i hear my name called i turn and turn to try to find where that voice was coming from. i was getting anxious and then kept walking and talking, moments later i could see a figure of  some sort pixelating in front of me; while this is happening my co-worker is still talking and walking; what i saw i didn’t know because i began thinking in my head to wake up. before that an arm tried grabbing me and then at that moment it was as if i could see myself waking up but it was still a dream. then in the distant could hear tumbler barking and it got louder to where i did actuall wake up for real.

after that it was early and i was able to make me a healthy breakfast and throw on a pot of coffee, sure enough i downed two cups before leaving to school and took a third with me. went to school took my test and realized some of the questions i didn’t know must of been the ones i missed class because i overslept. it is to early to tell but i don’t know how i did and wont find out until my final on next friday. after that i made it home to grab my stuff for work and headed to work.

when i arrived i greeted all co-workers and couldn’t remember for the life of me what my co-worker in my dream was telling. he was running around everywhere and i never got a chance to converse with the guy and i got busy working the whole day. i was curious and was trying to see how i was doing so far and started talking with the supervisor and he said i was doing good but to slow down on working so much, i was taking work from the others because i am asking for more work. lol. i was taken to lunch by some of the guys at work, i think the talk i had with them they finally trust me. returned and got straight to work. i think i was more distracted today by everyone then i ever have. i’m the youngest one there, it wasn’t too long ago that i was in the shoes of the kids that come and go. i had finished my last set of paper work on the deadline a few minutes before leaving. once i left for home that was that.

i arrived home and arrived early so i changed really fast and headed to the park to go running with my dog, again. since i arrived early to the park it was still some daylight out, i did my thing and it was too early to go home i decided to go another mile or so and then return home. it turned out just perfect. i was able to run a bit more in a short period of time. then returned home.

after arriving home got my sandwich out and ate before starting back up on my work i have to catch up on. it is a lot and i just woke up from a half hour nap i took. i have to get to work early tomorrow and will be going to sleep after getting ready for bed. i hope all had a good day and a safe night. good night and sweet dreams.

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i was able to get a few things done today, not all i wanted but i did wake up sort of late. when my room is cold i tend to hibernate a bit longer then usual. when i knew what time it really was i got up and threw on a pot of coffee to start my day and went to work. and worked i did. papers, reports, time sheets, calculations, cleaning, laundry and what ever else i missed writing. it has been a a rolling kind of day, everything just rolled into place and when one was done and rolled onto the next thing. i think i just about went through every favorite song that i liked, so many brought memories; great ones at that; others kind of got me in the mood to pump my fist in the air silently. i just got to wait for what tomorrow brings. it is time for me to get some rest. i hope all had a good day. be safe. good night, sleep well and sweet dreams to you.

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what a quick day today was. everything from waking up early to even getting ready and heading to school. staying after to finish a test and heading to work. even at work they asked me what was wrong with me because i looked like a speed demon. i was hitting everything and knocking it out with unbearable speeds. it was as if i had eyes in every direction and a hundred arms. it was awesome. i have never finished work so fast before. and ti top it off i asked for more work to do. who asks for more work?! well i did and i was looked at as a person who was insane. with many little things to do i was able to knock those out. stayed a little after work talking to some coworkers. i was only able to hear a short brief of their life stories because i had to run to the stores. friday came up faster then i was expecting it. i am heading to the camp grounds tomorrow after work. no technology. which means a back draft of my post for that day. my first one ever. i will just be me and nature for a day to relax. relaxing is all i am doing oh and of course writing and documenting everything. from what i have looked up some adventure are in my midst. i am excited. as i write this right now i am sipping on some tea and getting drowsy. it is looking like a way early night for me. i am officially done with my tea and soon to be done writing. i love you. i love you. i love you. i am grateful to have each and everyone of you in my life, no matter the circumstances. i know you may never hear it from my mouth but i mean it with all of my heart. thank you. well folks, i hope y’all had a great day. it is time for some sleep. good night and sweet dreams.

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today i was consumed; consumed and piled with work to do. i am exhausted, i had a good rest but i feel like i got slammed by a train. i know can fully understand people who work two jobs. it is a killer on your feet and a rush trying to get to one place to the next and not to mention trying to go to school at the same time, i can see how people also get burned out. i was labeled worthless today by an assistant at work, she claims she was just playing around because i am getting to know a few of the other workers and that is what she has labeled them. the cool thing is is that i decide to move up from a part time worker i have eleven of twelve recommendation letters, workers told me as long as i keep up the good work they would let me know when a full time position opens up because i would be a great addition to the team. it is very reassuring to hear. put a smile on my face. they see me as a way too serious person but i am breaking that habit of mine. i got another long day tomorrow. will have to take it as it is thrown at me. hope all had a better day : ) but for me it is time to sleep. good night and sweet dreams.

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today when i woke up from a wonderful dream i thought i had heard a noise. i washed my face and headed out the back door at my parents house. i had to go because my brother wanted to see a movie and i tagged along and when it finished i joined him to my parents with nothing but the clothes on me and my handy dandy iphone. after stepping outside i heard a clank. i asked myself; what is that noise?! it turns out it was three kittens. i was only able to get a hold of one while the others scrambled. it was funny because the other two ran one way and the one i caught ran into a box and it looked like he was disappointed from being caught. lol. it got me thinking while i held it in my hands; “wow! i have a small living organism in my hands right now.” for that moment i realized it was safe in my hands then from the world beyond my hands. if need be; i was able to protect a life. it also reminded me of what i used to do with you, i tried to protect you secretively. just so if something were to go wrong i always played out the senario out in my head for everything. i am just paranoid about life sometimes.

“life. it is so precious.”

i was also remembered of this test i took recently for a job to help lives. i was asked a question about my life, i answered as truthfully as i could. i did and i am in. as the day went on the day involved more lives to enter in my view. for the first time in many months we were all together. in a way that brought a smile to my face and the almost feeling of having something in my eye. ever since i was told, i have been more appreciative of all life. now with my current position i am able to help those who just need a little push in the right direction. i show what good can come. i think i found my niche. everyone has their own story to tell and it is interesting to listen. i know there are days where i need to talk but from a philosophical point i just need someone to hear me out and i would take what ever is told to me in consideration. even though i have been shut out from somethings i still have a lot to learn. given the opportunity i will continue to help others. i was asked why that makes me happy this weekend and my response to my brother was i like seeing people happy, if i can make one change and that person carries it on to another then i have just started a chain. if i were to help a hundred people and more then half carried it on that is still okay with me because i would know i made the attempt to help when no one else ever would. he was stunned by my answer; speechless to be exact.

after joining my visiting parents to the store, i saw a bunch of camping gear and now trying to plan a camping trip. it has been over two years now since i have been. it is now that time to reconnect with nature. i hope i can get it before turkey day or before winter is here. it is getting late now and have a busy day tomorrow. i hope all had a great day. good night and sweet dreams.

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what a day today has been! got up for school, was slightly lazy getting ready and cost me some time. made it to school on time right when my professor did too. learned a lot of new stuff, stuff i didn’t even know from way back in the day. lol. after school went strait to work. got out and was kind of tired of seeing books but i had to stay off the computer and get to work. doing my homework, that is. got my readings done, took some notes and listened to my recordings of class in case i didn’t miss anything. ;o] i am here now trying to type this out quickly just in case i fall asleep early; which all signs are pointing to yes. i feel exhausted and tired; i guess that’s how life really is. might as well start getting used to it because i am no where near being done. hope all had a good day, i am fine now, i think. have a wonderful night and sweet dreams.

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