wheels

The wheels are spinning and spinning. Where they spin I have not decided.

ideas

i have a few ideas with big corporations. what should i do? been talking with a few friends and i am getting a few different answers. i do need to make a decision and soon too. i hope it will work out. on the other hand today has been kind of strange. so many things to do and think of with just so little time. running around the city in the rain is no fun. my car hydroplaned several times on water and was not fun. was able to make it home safely but with the rain pouring down i decided it would be a great time to open my book and make some tea with that through on some jazz music along with that. it was quite relaxing, no one was home but the dog and me. but then i got really into reading that i lost track of time and realized that the football game was on and began watching it. well it it late and tomorrow is my make up day to finish and read all my homework and start getting ready to prepare for my test. have a good night and stay safe.

perplexity

today was perplexed, i was confused and forgot a lot of things today. not really sure why though. today wasn’t too shabby, stayed in bed for the morning, and when i got up decided to wash the car, only cleaned it half way the other day and today completely finished it all. it was way to hot to do anything, i stayed inside talking and playing with tumbler. started to do some light research, i am way too confused to make a strong solid decision. they say being indecisive leaves room for flexibility, it is slightly true, when i wasn’t able to go one route i was always able to find another to get to my destination. is that wrong?! i still got where i wanted to be but took longer then expected. but even with a decision like this i am looking at every factor, good and bad, right and wrong. from what i read it says not to make a decision yet because time will come where i will need to make the choice and will be the right one. as far as that tomorrow will be a indecisive day. i know what i have to do and it is a must to get my degree but what will i choose?!?! i am still not too sure yet. we will see. in conclusion let’s see what tomorrow brings, one day at a time. hope you are well, how was you week(end)?

to decision making

soundtrack

was busy running errands and working on homework that I began listening to a music and became inspired, one of the lines made the most sense to me was “i got some issues that nobody can see and all of these emotions are pouring out of me, i bring them to the light for you, it’s only right. this is the soundtrack to my life.” in this inspirational song i decided to take a break and go running in the park to make some room in my brain to continue and make sense of things, lots of things. now i am getting back to school, have been thinking and am possibly thinking of taking a Summer 2 spanish or history class that i still need to graduate instead of taking a 4 hour test and testing out of it where i still need a tad bit more help in. but i have a few more weeks to come up with a decision to test or class it, but will keep everyone posted on my judgement call. here i go again. on a side note also kept thinking that i don’t want to work while going to school because it will distract me from my studies. i have asked one person and he says too work. even though it is just an opinion, i would like anyone’s feed back if i should follow through with this or not, please, any advice will help? thanks. miss my friends.

to making a judgement call for my future

liquid courage

that was the most intriguing events I had ever seen, spoke out super loud. what I thought the moral of the show was about CHOICE. “yes or no? in or out? live or die? hero or coward? fight or give up? everyday are made up of choices.” during the show a few people were shot, with me knowing what I know about a situation like this, it is nothing compared to the real thing. it got me thinking, had I made the right choice in getting out at the right time to where I wouldn’t be put in that situation. I have seen too much and have been through too much to know what I want and that is to protect my life and others who care about my life. it is a scary and motionless thing to think about it. I know I am going for a “safer” path but I know everywhere we are we are not safe. I just try to be preventative and stay positive but I know my paranoia takes a big part of me.

paranod