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Fire & Rain. Promises, they are so wasted on myself.

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today has been mostly about dealing with the news of yesterday, i will not be at ease until my parents return, they have already been through one scare on their last trip out of the state, i would be there with them, i just don’t have a passport, i know i should have gotten it but i have held it off for too long. since today was not as cheerful i decided to listen to music all day, i still had my new years project to work on. i found several undiscovered songs and wish to use them. i fell asleep listen to music and woke up to take off my headphones and here the thunder outside, tumbler was scared and kept getting up because the floor would shake. time to get some more sleep, good night and dream freely.

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i just overloaded my self with too much to do today. ever since i woke up i had something to do, i did wake up later then usual that’s besides the point. i was woken up to tumbler laying across my feet, he was trying to wake me up but not trying to be subtle about it, he had business to take care of too. i opened my computer and logged into my email and found a few dozen unchecked emails, some were reminders and some were un-important, the one that mattered the most was about me returning my textbook from where i rented it from. i rushed and washed up and got ready to head off in town to tak care of it. i made it just in time and got my tracking number to trace if they have received it or not in time. i made a quick stop to the store and piked up a few items and got home to make dinner. hours later i was inspired to try to finish my project. after looking through over thousands of songs i gave myself a headache and overloaded my brain with small text. i got what i needed and have some work to do tomorrow. its late and i am about to shower and go to sleep. i will catch up soon. good night and sweet dreams. =)

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papers. papers. papers. so much trees being used up today. have stayed away from my computer all day until a few hours ago. today was just handed a boat load of work and on top of that i already have work to do for school. i decided to stay home and head to work early. they had told me to brace myself. i really thought they were joking. i was wrong. when someone sounds sincere they mostly are telling the truth. i was told what ever i didn’t finish to come in tomorrow to finish up. i didn’t want to decline the offer because i think it was a test to see how far i can be pushed, i did let them know even though it was a holiday i still had class to go to in the morning. i will be there after school to finish up. as the day came to an end i knew what was ahead. well not really because i got a feeling to read. read i did. it had been a while since looking at a few things, once you are blocked there is not much you can do but wonder. i tried wishing for certain things but when that failed me i started wishing for things to happen. in a way they were granted. i am very happy they did. i think that now that you are back in my life i can stop worrying about how you are and can ask you instead of imagining the worst. i am taking this leap to reach out in baby steps. i don’t want to ruin or rub the world in the wrong way. when you really left me it felt like the whole world did too. even my best friend stopped talking with me. no one was talking to me and i was going to school with no ambition to continue but i stuck with it because i have paid for classes out of my pocket and need them to graduate. but i can graciously say that today has gotten so much better. i think i just needed someone to spill some stuff too and before i texted you my best friend called me, but recently got in touch with me a few days before i went camping and has slightly refrained from being distant. i have seen too many papers for a day that i am taking a break from writing my reports and going to bed. it is tmie for bed and you have made my day from crappy to way way way better. i do wish i could say something but i wont. thanks. have a great night and very much sweet dreams. missed you so.

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done with dinner, a while ago of course. i remembered after getting from work what today was. it is a mexican family tradition to honor the people who have passed away. i know the people who were closest in my life who i knew or even didn’t know that well are in a better place. i am still reminded everyday when i see a passing about my incident and how i am grateful for surveying. but i see life in a new perspective and i see the beauty in death now. i learned along time ago what not to do, ever since that day the haunting scares me every now and then. it is something i want to forget but at the same time if i do it may be possible it will occur again. i would rather not mess with my life or another, ever! i know what pain and distrust i caused and i am barely trying to gain that trust back. even with a busy day i doze off for a minute or two and had the strangest vertigo feeling after that i was jumped into a dream or quite possibly a hallucination, i don’t know if it was a dream or a view into the future but i can totally write that movie. and i found a mark in a book that pretty much gave me an answer i was looking for. the idea is still fresh and is written down, now just trying to figure out how to make it a hard-copy. got  few thing i will be starting after i finish with all of my school work. going to start on one right after hoping i have enough time. i will be starting a draft this weekend on my first camping trip in two years. sun, rain or even snow can’t stop my ideas but it sure can influence what happens next. i am very excited for this. i have done nothing but go to school and work, i am finally going to take a break from all technology, well almost, the will be a camera for documentation but that is about all the technology that will be with me. i hope all had a good day, it is time to sleep to start tomorrow refreshed and ready to do what needs to get done. good night and sweet dreams.

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i have a few ideas with big corporations. what should i do? been talking with a few friends and i am getting a few different answers. i do need to make a decision and soon too. i hope it will work out. on the other hand today has been kind of strange. so many things to do and think of with just so little time. running around the city in the rain is no fun. my car hydroplaned several times on water and was not fun. was able to make it home safely but with the rain pouring down i decided it would be a great time to open my book and make some tea with that through on some jazz music along with that. it was quite relaxing, no one was home but the dog and me. but then i got really into reading that i lost track of time and realized that the football game was on and began watching it. well it it late and tomorrow is my make up day to finish and read all my homework and start getting ready to prepare for my test. have a good night and stay safe.

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well, what a day! woke up early to find that it was pouring rain outside. epic failure. had so much planned and because of the rain it slimmed down my chances of getting things done, in a sense that me driving was highly doubtful because from what i read it said something like this would happen. class was very cold, even with my jacket and no air conditioner on, my body felt as if i was slammed around in a car after being hit by a truck and not to mention i was soaked from walking in the rain. my quiz i was studying for went well, i think i missed one question, i couldn’t remember a political name that was given during class and on my notes for one of the question. even with all that studying the simplest thing could be forgotten really easily. hope it doesn’t happen on my next quiz coming up in two week and even on my test. spent the day with the radio (npr) on and listening to the storm pass by while studying and reading my book, what a way to relax and let some inner stuff drain away. the only thing i was missing were a few things…were too far to reach for. what can one do?! i can’t seem to  shake off these feelings i have been having, i feel sore and tired. i think the yoga class from yesterday did a toll on me, it had been a while since going to a class or just exercising at home. also have found some new music with the radio. i know few people like my work but some people believe i am just playing around with it to see what fits; in no way do i play around with music, i have made a few samples but that was just testing out my skills. i really listen to everything and place the music at my fingertips and ears because without them; i don’t think i could call myself a dj. some laugh that i am, most ridicule and it doesn’t bother me. laugh it up. we all wan’t our fifteen minutes of fame and most don’t have the same minutes as others. i will continue to “create something out of nothing!” today will be calling it an way early night, got a busy morning and will need the rest. hope all have a safe and good night. sweet dreams.

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today has been kind of an ache. well was up really early to take out the dog and stepped outside and it was pouring cats and dogs; figuratively speaking. step out in the rain and let the dog do his business, he was anxious to get inside because of the rain, for me it was a wake up call for me; the rain woke me up. lol. as i got ready for class i had asked the professor that i would be leaving early because of an appointment i had. he let me leave early. it was still bad outside; weather wise and tried to arrive on time; i did! checked in and waited two minutes before they came and got me. spent a few hours getting x-rays and getting a checked up to make sure everything was good. sure enough all was good. the only bad thing was that one of my wisdom teeth is laying on it’s side and will have to be surgically removed. =O\ but i need them out because of the headaches i get from them making their way in. when the consult was finished i headed home, called my mom and when i arrived she had a bowl of her homemade chicken soup ready for me. it was awesome! had to run a few errands after that before taking off to my old house out of town. staying a few days and needed a break and since i was having a four day weekend, i thought it would be good to see all my old friends who where coming into town and who i hadn’t see in a really long time. hope they have a safe trip, see you folks soon. heading there now.

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today was suppose to be a hard working day, got up; well tried too. something is wrong with my left foot, i took a blue pill last night and it made me follow the rabbit down the rabbit hole and it made me sleepy. i think the drugs that were administered made me paralyzed at night, i didn’t wake up at all, as if i was in a continuous dream. a strange one at that but anywho i couldn’t even walk when i heard tapping on the window. it was good ‘ol mr. rain. it was raining and from what i was suppose to do got delayed. going to make a second attempt tomorrow. hope i can do it on my damaged foot. i think i may have hyperextended it again, the first time was two winters ago when i made an attempt to quickly remove a boot i was trying on and couldn’t walk and the next time while i slept i got a charlie horse and this time i was in a way dazed that i think i may have pulled it while sleeping or from jogging up a hill quickly. i can deal with the pain, what i can’t deal with is not being able to walk correctly, i am waddling or wobbling everywhere. kind of reminds me of a penguin, not to mention i was dressed in black today and made the jokes come to easy for my parents. have tried everything to make the swelling go down but no luck. my parents said they would drive me to see a known chiropractor but he lives way far. going to keep wobbling on it and make the attempt to walk on it correctly. just popped in two red pills (pain killers) and we will see how bad it is tomorrow morning. hope everything is well. have a great night and a great day tomorrow.

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i have been obsessed with a song and keep listening to it over and over, if i go anywhere i hear it at least 1-5 times on the radio or more depending on how long i am driving for. the verse that jumps out at me the most is “can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now!” – B.o.B ft H. Williams because we all know that everyone could use at least one wish. today marked a eventful; if you want to call it that; day, woke up, got ready for class had my breakfast and headed off, even though it was raining, I wasn’t going to let the grey skys get me down. got to class and finished my exam, suprisingly all the formulas and steps to complete some problems came back to me while taking the exam. I was very proud of myself; for the first time in a long time. it feels really good when acomplishing a task. well after that was done headed home to find marked papers saying they had to be turned in today, grabbed them all and drove!
well my trip started from downtown and ended about 15-20 miles northbound, it was intense and not to mention the visibilty wasn’t so good because of the rain. once I finished with that I headed home, well I didn’t know what to do and was running around the city that it did a huge toll on me and I decided to nap. well, that nap really energized me once I woke up. began watching netflix and finished book one of avatar: the last airbender, it’s been said that that’s a cartoon that was out when I was younger but I never can recall. it is very good and am continuing book two and will eventually get through all four. now I want to go see the real movie because I am more informed on it. in conclusion i am learning new things everyday and even though i fried my brain i know it helped me grow, i have never applied myself and stuck with it, until now that you have shown me. i guess what i am trying to say is thank you and i don’t think i will ever stop thanking you.

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today has been an adventurous journey, and the journeys taken were something of a task, first one of the day was to get to school on time, suprisingly enough I have been able to get up on my own and make it to class on time, most who know me know that I can be late at times. when that happens I usually am sprinting to make it to class and breathe very heavily and it sounds as if I am breathing like if I was doing yoga. lol. well during class a lot of material was shown on the board, it is more formulas then before but I am not complaining because I k ow I can do this, I can just feel it in my fingertips and am prepping all I can for it. I will see how it goes from here.
the second voyage consisted of trying to hunt down an item that I have been looking for a little while, I was able to locate but still need one or two more to have a complete set.
the third voyage was the longest, I had to drive to austin again for my little bro to pick up an item he had purchased while he is in Houston on his mini vaction and independence day, while my older brother is away traveling the states and I am here trying to concentrate on my studies but had to do this because a favor asked will be returned. within all this my phone is blowing up like crazy, like a new phone call every 5-10 minutes for about 4 hours strait. the most I have ever used my phone and my call waiting. was able to get everything done that was asked in this town. I couldn’t leave because of the storm the was chasing me while driving up here arrived towards the end of all business. after all this I was slightly able to relax and write down my adventure for the on a notebook because what I thought would be a grab and go voyage turned out to be a mini vaction but am writting this now in a hurry because my phone will die soon, didn’t bring a charger or my laptop and am suffering. in conclusion I guess I needed a small break and this was it. things were crazy and hectic for me, how are things with you?

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taking a quick water break and blurb break to let you know that I have been super productive, and have completed a lot within these past couple of hours, it feels really good, well to be honest it is a feeling I have never felt before and do not really know how to explain it. but I will take a guess and say it feels like sweet sweet victory of the mini battles, the war has yet to be won. I am fighting everyday with my all. hope everything is okay with you, haven’t heard from you. have a good one.

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