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i think i have a slight guess of what you may be saying. you did what you did because you had too. maybe you should forgive yourself but that is just me thinking out load. i don’t want what happened to make you want to crumble because of me. i know you well enough to know you are strong and you have proven to me that you are capable of doing extraordinary things, with help or without. i did all i could to make you see that and it showed. maybe i was just a stepping stone for you to see the full potential that you have in you. i do wish the best for you. i can’t dictate what my heart wants but can only decide to do this out of the kindness of my heart. good luck with everything.

in other related news, i received a phone call after work with a few questions that followed. it was one of the applications i put in along with my resume and was asked if it was current, i didn’t realize it was over a year an a half old that i hadn’t updated the thing. maybe now with an updated form of my last year, i can show what i have come to accomplish. i have been exhausted these past two days from only getting several hours of sleep, not the full requirement. i feel so old that instead of me taking a nap today, i actually fell asleep for about four hours. the crazy thing is i am still very tired and i am already ready for bed. it is very early and i do wish all a good night and happy dreams.

really tired O_o

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today was like any other day, sun blaring, birds chirping, no clouds, windy, and above all spending it with my dad. arrived at a doctors house near the mall, it was fun driving down a steep hill, so much momentum. lol the doctor had set up the job with my dad last week and finally told us what he wanted, we had to construct a custum patio overhang (roof) with skylights and tin sheets. it took us most of the day but we got it done. it turned out the homeowner was a doctor who worked for the department of infectious diseases here in town. he was a top research developer and chemist that he was on a team looking for a cure for breast cancer. i am familiar with that situation because of someone really close to me and my family. i saw the hell she had to go through but is a survivor and has been well. she does so much for us, it is quite amazing. i do hope they do find a cure one day for it, after seeing what she had to go through, it must be hard for all the other women and men out there that do have to go through it. to this day, i am a huge supporter for the fight of breast cancer and live strong campaign. hope you are too. after a while my dad asked him a few questions and i walked in to the conversation and the doctor said they maybe was a slight chance for a cure, maybe within the next few years. with today technological advances anything is possible. well to tired to write anymore, it is time for bed but have a good night and a better tomorrow.

LiveStrong O_o

not to many people know the real but what they do know is the unreal. their is trust, hope & power to endure. in a slight way i have been doing some research and/or ‘soul searching’ as most like to call it. i am so near, i can feel it, it is in my grasp all i have to do is grab life by the horns and GO! i began looking back at a few moments in my life and i have to say, well it’s to personal. i made a promise to myself many years ago, i slipped and never was able to get up from that trip. until just recently. i kept kicking myself in the ass everyday; but i never showed that because i had to be strong and not show weakness and thought to myself, why can’t i be here; now!?! maybe it was my conscious telling me something. i picked up on it very fast. but enough of that. i never thought i could smile like i have been for the past few moments. it feels really great. i am grateful and glad for it. i have another day tomorrow, i have to get this completed. it is either that or i will never man up to have a carrer. even though i still am unsure of the choice, but we will see. tomorrow is a new day with new challenges. thank you for caring and putting that smile on my face today, you don’t know how bad i needed this cheer up; it stretches from ear to ear, just in case you didn’t know. in conclusion it is time to get this done!

thanks O_o

today was perplexed, i was confused and forgot a lot of things today. not really sure why though. today wasn’t too shabby, stayed in bed for the morning, and when i got up decided to wash the car, only cleaned it half way the other day and today completely finished it all. it was way to hot to do anything, i stayed inside talking and playing with tumbler. started to do some light research, i am way too confused to make a strong solid decision. they say being indecisive leaves room for flexibility, it is slightly true, when i wasn’t able to go one route i was always able to find another to get to my destination. is that wrong?! i still got where i wanted to be but took longer then expected. but even with a decision like this i am looking at every factor, good and bad, right and wrong. from what i read it says not to make a decision yet because time will come where i will need to make the choice and will be the right one. as far as that tomorrow will be a indecisive day. i know what i have to do and it is a must to get my degree but what will i choose?!?! i am still not too sure yet. we will see. in conclusion let’s see what tomorrow brings, one day at a time. hope you are well, how was you week(end)?

to decision making O_o

“earth, air, fire and water are the four elements of life, each one can stand on it’s own and can also help one another or hurt one another, they are each a different state but all connected as one.” i just had an epiphany while being outside trying to help, i look up and reminded me of what we talked about, it came to mind old friend, buddy, ol’ pal, i can see and do things that may cloud your judgement but the things you say are not meant to knock me down but you don’t see it that way, when you speak you may find truth in the words by the way you perceive it. i on the other hand don’t see it that way, but we all need a little help sometimes looking at things from another point of view. whether what you think is right and wrong for you, is just that, it is for YOU and not me.

if you feel the things you say may hurt me, think again, nothing can bring me down, back then maybe, i used to be a push over, back then, now not so much but every now and then i do see a little of me falling into that state. we have been through and seen a lot. when i see you i can see past all the mess and can see the truth. we are one in the same; like a yin yang; you know my strengths and my weaknesses just i can read yours. things got a little sour during the conversation but we came to an understanding, what you want in life is totally up to you and your destiny to follow, not mine, and vise versa. i look at the big picture in everything and correct me if i am wrong but i think you just see what you want to see.

as i was standing outside trying to help i went into a different state of mind that i haven’t ever been, everything was so clear, like it just went *poof* but when i was interrupted it all went away. whether it is because of something, i can achieve greatness. you just have to let me, as i am about to let you. what ever may come of my new ideals, i don’t really know. i hope for the best for me as i do for all.

in conclusion, i don’t know how this will get to you but i am sending to you. how you take it is up to you. what you do with it is up to you. but as far as for me; here i go!

e.a.f.w.l. O_o

taking a quick break from doing my homework, today was suppose to be about getting stuff done, I am getting stuff that I needed to do now, it is a bit late but have to read and work. work. work. work. I now know that when you said you were tired, i can honestly say now that i know how you feel. it is tough and getting tougher everyday. i hope to have strength enough to get this done. in conclusion, i know it is tough and need every bit of inspiration.

to getting some inspiration O_o

woke up in excruciating stomach pains a few hours ago, as if someone had drilled a hole in my stomach and knotted all my insides up. got up and got some water and went back to sleep it off, I just woke up and it was about 2 o’clock and slowly the pain is still lingering, not sure what is wrong with me? has anyone had that feeling before? does anyone know what it is?? should I get a consult???

trying to be productive O_o