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today i was woken up early by my dreams. it was like what happens on inception, a dream within a dream, i was walking through a mall and with a co-worker and telling him different things when out of the blue i hear my name called i turn and turn to try to find where that voice was coming from. i was getting anxious and then kept walking and talking, moments later i could see a figure of  some sort pixelating in front of me; while this is happening my co-worker is still talking and walking; what i saw i didn’t know because i began thinking in my head to wake up. before that an arm tried grabbing me and then at that moment it was as if i could see myself waking up but it was still a dream. then in the distant could hear tumbler barking and it got louder to where i did actuall wake up for real.

after that it was early and i was able to make me a healthy breakfast and throw on a pot of coffee, sure enough i downed two cups before leaving to school and took a third with me. went to school took my test and realized some of the questions i didn’t know must of been the ones i missed class because i overslept. it is to early to tell but i don’t know how i did and wont find out until my final on next friday. after that i made it home to grab my stuff for work and headed to work.

when i arrived i greeted all co-workers and couldn’t remember for the life of me what my co-worker in my dream was telling. he was running around everywhere and i never got a chance to converse with the guy and i got busy working the whole day. i was curious and was trying to see how i was doing so far and started talking with the supervisor and he said i was doing good but to slow down on working so much, i was taking work from the others because i am asking for more work. lol. i was taken to lunch by some of the guys at work, i think the talk i had with them they finally trust me. returned and got straight to work. i think i was more distracted today by everyone then i ever have. i’m the youngest one there, it wasn’t too long ago that i was in the shoes of the kids that come and go. i had finished my last set of paper work on the deadline a few minutes before leaving. once i left for home that was that.

i arrived home and arrived early so i changed really fast and headed to the park to go running with my dog, again. since i arrived early to the park it was still some daylight out, i did my thing and it was too early to go home i decided to go another mile or so and then return home. it turned out just perfect. i was able to run a bit more in a short period of time. then returned home.

after arriving home got my sandwich out and ate before starting back up on my work i have to catch up on. it is a lot and i just woke up from a half hour nap i took. i have to get to work early tomorrow and will be going to sleep after getting ready for bed. i hope all had a good day and a safe night. good night and sweet dreams.

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i just got out of the shower with a refreshed feeling. i feel as is i have washed away a few weights of my shoulders and feel that what i wrote early had been picking at my finger tips to get out. i have normally stayed quiet about a lot of things, i think it is time for a change. it is time for me to be outspoken. getting tired of never having a voice or being heard. this ends now. i hope everyone had a good day but it is time for me to get some rest and hit the books again tomorrow. be safe. have a good night and sleep well with sweet dreams.

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took some initiative today no matter the circumstance with my foot, it needed to be done. just got back with my mom from austin. we went to take care of a few things while we were there, took a few hours but we got it done. i got to drive the big truck today. had my son (aka my dog, tumbler lol) in the back seat, he was crashed out the whole trip there and back. before we left i had to throw on my music, made me feel country. driving a big diesel truck feels great and heavy. we were lugging a tractor, i felt safer for me driving rather then my mom because i could maneuver the truck in ways that my mom doesn’t really know how. just about every song came on that i used to sing…, it feels good to release my voice in the vehicle again. with driving the truck it got me thinking, i still need to fix up my truck, a few things are missing in the engine before it can fully run. i love my shelby (my car) but i just don’t feel as safe as i should be. the truck is a rare classic truck and once she is done she will be branded with the name tiffany, she is a sea foam green color with black and silver accents; just seemed suitable. it is so old school that it has no power anything but a radio and if i am correct an a/c, which texas heat days should come in handy. all the work that we did today plus the heat took a toll on me. my back is sore, and my foot is getting slightly better too. i am just taking a wild guess and believe that yesterday was my off day. we all have them. still hope for the best. have a great night and great day tomorrow.

gone country O_o

today has been a strange day, on my drive back, i did something i hadn’t done in a long time and began to asking questions and out poured a conversation of life, its been said that we shouldn’t look at life in sayings! but in order for me to get ahead and learn is through text. whether it is from a song, speech, book, tv, movie, etc. that is how i speak what i can’t say out loud, but what i think. it is very difficult for me to speak up, i know i can speak in public and give a lecture or talk with friends, i feel as if i have lost my voice, like my words dont matter anymore, i try to give advice when listening but it is tried to be reversed to attempt to try to change me, i matured into the person i will be when i am older but will have more knowledge as i grow older, for as much as i know, i don’t know what is yet to come, no one does! we can only try to do with what cards are dealt to us. in conclusion i changed a long time ago, can you accept me for who i am or just turn me into a ghost?

to figuring it out O_o

today like many other past days I read my horoscope, it said “you need to do whatever it takes to avoid arguments with the family or in the home.” which i so tried to, people just do not listen, one in particular. I came home from school to emptiness besides my best friend, T. he knows what is up. he listens. he is my protector. he never talks back and we kick it and play when we feel like it. I had to go back to school to pick up some valuable information for later classes, I was hoping that at least one of two of my books had arrived when I would return but I returned to a nat. the kind of nat that buzzes around your ear and keps going and going and going, etc. it wasn’t that I wanted to be lazy but I kind of did, I just wanted some piece and quiet for as much as I could get. but NO!!! the nat came along, I was not interested in running errands that are right up the road, when the nat could take care of their own stuff. i am tired of being a messenger and errand boy that I will now refuse to do things that will take me away from my studies. I am TRYING to bust my tail to get ahead. I’m TRYING!!!!! i’m not the fu*king genie where it’s like *POOF* what do you need? *POOF* what do you need?*POOF* what do you need? we all need our space, I am not cranky, I slept well; early too. but this stops NOW!!!! you want something you go get it. for one; your taking me away from studying so you can kick back and relax, second you have money, a truck and a foot, mouth and hands to get what you want. no more favors for now. I have stuff I need to take care of as first priority. I wont go get it now, later, tonight, tomorrow, day after…

to maybe having an off day O_o