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today has been a wake up call above all other things. all happened during work. what i did was nothing compared to what i have done before, i was able to sit in with a few families and saw how things could possibly take a turn for the worse. i could relate to some of the things going on but some of the other things i couldn’t relate too. i was sort of shocked of what was told to me by strangers i have never met before. everyone beat around the bush and said i looked liked a trustworthy person and that’s why they were able to talk to someone like me. with the confidentiality agreement i had signed i was to report any harmful actions to one self or others. luckily what i was told wasn’t life threatening, it was mostly just a cry to be heard. some of the stories were a little tough to hear but it got me thinking that if i can possibly fix my problems i would be open to help others who are going through some of the little things i was and have been struggling with. i got to talking and listening to one case, wow did i feel bad for the kid, the parent wasn’t making an attempt but the child wanted to better themselves and the parent was just being ignorant that it made the child feel embarrassed to say the least. i did all in my power that i could today and felt like i made a difference in their lives and possibly the parents. as i got home i just wanted to rest but knew i couldn’t. stuff had to get done. as i ended up being done my parents were over and started cooking. i like having family dinners. i really do enjoy them, we are a lively crowd of crazy people, in my thoughts; well maybe as others see us too. lol. who knows?! i am getting to tired to keep writing. stay safe. good night and sweet dreams.

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‘be the change you want to see in the world’ – Live Strong

i saw this today and could be something to live by. today was a good day, besides the thunderstorm from last night that i slept through and woke up once because of tumbler getting scared and startled me and was later waken up by my alarm, went for a run in the rain and felt energized when i finished; it was as if i was shocked with lightning. got ready for school and took off early, even though i was early the teacher was late, me and the class all had to wait for the professor. he was late and because of that had a short class, after school was over i had to run a few errands before being able to go home and start on my homework. i was called in for a first interview and it was quick, pick up some paper work to fill out and bring back for second interview tomorrow, i don’t want to say where it will be because i am afraid to jinx myself, has happend to me several times already; don’t want to risk it. went back home to pick up a list of groceries and money to buy to make for lunch and dinner. after dinner began filling out the paperwork needed for tomorrow. realized i didn’t know what to wear and found some quick casual clothes and began ironing them, just finished and now heading for bed, just wanted to keep everyone posted. even though the people i have let down i am slowly making it up to them. sorry. i am getting a little more nervous but hopefully with this pain killer i will be knocked out for a few hours. let’s see what’s in store for me tomorrow.

slightly nervous O_o

the more and more i try to see it, it only gets wider. i kept telling myself; wake up! wake up! wake up! but it was as if my body couldn’t move, i could feel everything but nothing. what i saw was something and what the other person was looking at was behind me. i felt a sharp pain coming from my lower back, it was intense but i couldn’t move, turn, run or even speak. in a strange way, it is true what they say about dreams and what i have seen, read and learned. they are fascinating and interesting to me; well to everyone really! even when i don’t know the meaning behind them. looking back at other remembered dreams i have had, i am taking them apart piece by piece and slowly analyzing them from what i have learned and the the findings are astonishing. even statistic wise too. to say the least i am stumped on what even to say. with an educated guess; i think no one really does know what is going on in ones head but oneself. why we see the thing we see or imagine is beyond me but scientist are possibly soon to discover it, if i don’t first (about myself of course). bwahahahaha. with all this i have possibly been presented with an opportunity some may discover one day. wow!

dreaming O_o

define perspective? perspective is better known as a different position or a way of regarding situations or topics etc or the appearance of things relative to one another as determined by their distance from the viewer. i was asked something today that hasn’t been asked in a while now, i don’t know what the world has in store for me on this. i have and only know what is of today and several days past, my perspective has slightly change but has remained the same too, slight touches here and there but nothing drastic. i don’t know if i should do this, i dont know if i need it, even if it is in front of me i dont know if i should as i have before. no one can teach this language, it is learned by doing. it think. i never got anything right on the test and if i did i was mentioned that i got it correct, but i do not know of the others problems. in conclusion should i accept what is and what is not or do i change that situation and make my version of what is to what i _ _ _ _ _ _ ?! (left it blank to fill in the best possible answer)

to figuring it it out little by little O_o

being in the middle is kind of getting old, i am always in the middle of EVERYTHING!!! i am the one everyone calls or text to get something done, kind of like the middle-man, i do not have the answer to everything, the best advice i can give is talk to the source, instead of trying to go through me to get an answer try to get it yourself. i have left myself fall in this helpful mood, but i need some time to myself too, i haven’t done anything exciting for myself in a while, almost a month in a half, not because i can’t but because i am trying to focus on my studies and am getting it done, little by little, but i am trying, i got 100% on one of my quizes today and was very excited i had to go public with it, i am not dumb and stupid like some people choose to believe i am, if i apply myself and break my head to do so, i am positive i can succeed, not to many people can say that in all of my family. i have to do what i must to get this, i want this, well, i need this really. i have come to a point where it is “ME” time! i am not saying go out and let loose but just be in a bubble for a little bit until i complete these studies. i love learning, but i need to do this the right way. the only way to be exact. i am sorry. very deeply sorry, but i can not do this for to much longer. my out is when i am done! in conclusion i am only one person, i have one brain, two hands, two feet, two legs, etc. i too need some help with things sometimes but i am too caught up in others that i hope if i ever need help, anyone can do the same as i do for y’all. but for now just need a little time to get things right. to correct way!

sorrylove you O_o