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papers. papers. papers. so much trees being used up today. have stayed away from my computer all day until a few hours ago. today was just handed a boat load of work and on top of that i already have work to do for school. i decided to stay home and head to work early. they had told me to brace myself. i really thought they were joking. i was wrong. when someone sounds sincere they mostly are telling the truth. i was told what ever i didn’t finish to come in tomorrow to finish up. i didn’t want to decline the offer because i think it was a test to see how far i can be pushed, i did let them know even though it was a holiday i still had class to go to in the morning. i will be there after school to finish up. as the day came to an end i knew what was ahead. well not really because i got a feeling to read. read i did. it had been a while since looking at a few things, once you are blocked there is not much you can do but wonder. i tried wishing for certain things but when that failed me i started wishing for things to happen. in a way they were granted. i am very happy they did. i think that now that you are back in my life i can stop worrying about how you are and can ask you instead of imagining the worst. i am taking this leap to reach out in baby steps. i don’t want to ruin or rub the world in the wrong way. when you really left me it felt like the whole world did too. even my best friend stopped talking with me. no one was talking to me and i was going to school with no ambition to continue but i stuck with it because i have paid for classes out of my pocket and need them to graduate. but i can¬†graciously¬†say that today has gotten so much better. i think i just needed someone to spill some stuff too and before i texted you my best friend called me, but recently got in touch with me a few days before i went camping and has slightly refrained from being distant. i have seen too many papers for a day that i am taking a break from writing my reports and going to bed. it is tmie for bed and you have made my day from crappy to way way way better. i do wish i could say something but i wont. thanks. have a great night and very much sweet dreams. missed you so.

O_o

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i have been obsessed with a song and keep listening to it over and over, if i go anywhere i hear it at least 1-5 times on the radio or more depending on how long i am driving for. the verse that jumps out at me the most is “can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now!” – B.o.B ft H. Williams because we all know that everyone could use at least one wish. today marked a eventful; if you want to call it that; day, woke up, got ready for class had my breakfast and headed off, even though it was raining, I wasn’t going to let the grey skys get me down. got to class and finished my exam, suprisingly all the formulas and steps to complete some problems came back to me while taking the exam. I was very proud of myself; for the first time in a long time. it feels really good when acomplishing a task. well after that was done headed home to find marked papers saying they had to be turned in today, grabbed them all and drove!
well my trip started from downtown and ended about 15-20 miles northbound, it was intense and not to mention the visibilty wasn’t so good because of the rain. once I finished with that I headed home, well I didn’t know what to do and was running around the city that it did a huge toll on me and I decided to nap. well, that nap really energized me once I woke up. began watching netflix and finished book one of avatar: the last airbender, it’s been said that that’s a cartoon that was out when I was younger but I never can recall. it is very good and am continuing book two and will eventually get through all four. now I want to go see the real movie because I am more informed on it. in conclusion i am learning new things everyday and even though i fried my brain i know it helped me grow, i have never applied myself and stuck with it, until now that you have shown me. i guess what i am trying to say is thank you and i don’t think i will ever stop thanking you.

thinking of you O_o