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today i was consumed; consumed and piled with work to do. i am exhausted, i had a good rest but i feel like i got slammed by a train. i know can fully understand people who work two jobs. it is a killer on your feet and a rush trying to get to one place to the next and not to mention trying to go to school at the same time, i can see how people also get burned out. i was labeled worthless today by an assistant at work, she claims she was just playing around because i am getting to know a few of the other workers and that is what she has labeled them. the cool thing is is that i decide to move up from a part time worker i have eleven of twelve recommendation letters, workers told me as long as i keep up the good work they would let me know when a full time position opens up because i would be a great addition to the team. it is very reassuring to hear. put a smile on my face. they see me as a way too serious person but i am breaking that habit of mine. i got another long day tomorrow. will have to take it as it is thrown at me. hope all had a better day : ) but for me it is time to sleep. good night and sweet dreams.

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today when i woke up from a wonderful dream i thought i had heard a noise. i washed my face and headed out the back door at my parents house. i had to go because my brother wanted to see a movie and i tagged along and when it finished i joined him to my parents with nothing but the clothes on me and my handy dandy iphone. after stepping outside i heard a clank. i asked myself; what is that noise?! it turns out it was three kittens. i was only able to get a hold of one while the others scrambled. it was funny because the other two ran one way and the one i caught ran into a box and it looked like he was disappointed from being caught. lol. it got me thinking while i held it in my hands; “wow! i have a small living organism in my hands right now.” for that moment i realized it was safe in my hands then from the world beyond my hands. if need be; i was able to protect a life. it also reminded me of what i used to do with you, i tried to protect you secretively. just so if something were to go wrong i always played out the senario out in my head for everything. i am just paranoid about life sometimes.

“life. it is so precious.”

i was also remembered of this test i took recently for a job to help lives. i was asked a question about my life, i answered as truthfully as i could. i did and i am in. as the day went on the day involved more lives to enter in my view. for the first time in many months we were all together. in a way that brought a smile to my face and the almost feeling of having something in my eye. ever since i was told, i have been more appreciative of all life. now with my current position i am able to help those who just need a little push in the right direction. i show what good can come. i think i found my niche. everyone has their own story to tell and it is interesting to listen. i know there are days where i need to talk but from a philosophical point i just need someone to hear me out and i would take what ever is told to me in consideration. even though i have been shut out from somethings i still have a lot to learn. given the opportunity i will continue to help others. i was asked why that makes me happy this weekend and my response to my brother was i like seeing people happy, if i can make one change and that person carries it on to another then i have just started a chain. if i were to help a hundred people and more then half carried it on that is still okay with me because i would know i made the attempt to help when no one else ever would. he was stunned by my answer; speechless to be exact.

after joining my visiting parents to the store, i saw a bunch of camping gear and now trying to plan a camping trip. it has been over two years now since i have been. it is now that time to reconnect with nature. i hope i can get it before turkey day or before winter is here. it is getting late now and have a busy day tomorrow. i hope all had a great day. good night and sweet dreams.

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today was my test day. i was woken up at six in the morning by tumbler who needed to do his business outside. come to discover that it was freezing outside, i was just in my sweats and shirtless and it didn’t hit me until i was down the stairs. ran back inside and put a jacket on. got ready for school as prepared as i was. i produced answers that i didn’t even know i could ever think of, the seventy-five multiple choice took longer then expected. i had to stay a little extra to finish up but the answers that i produced were on the written portion. there was six of them but with four answers to each one. finished that and went to work. work was work. until lunch, went to grab a bite to eat at an old restaurant that used to be by my old house and is now near my work. as much as my stomach craved fried food my brain said no. i got a grilled chicken burger and a water. it is getting difficult to find places near me that just don’t serve red meat. on my way out a coworker complimented me on my haircut. i had done a few things to it and don’t want to get into it, it was an awkward feeling. while home took my dog outside to find an old family friend next door. got to having some fun with the kids and tumbler while their mom was chatting it with my parents. am now here typing this out and about to get ready for bed. tomorrow is a long day too. i do wish all my friends a good night and sweet dreams. love you folks.

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not to many people know the real but what they do know is the unreal. their is trust, hope & power to endure. in a slight way i have been doing some research and/or ‘soul searching’ as most like to call it. i am so near, i can feel it, it is in my grasp all i have to do is grab life by the horns and GO! i began looking back at a few moments in my life and i have to say, well it’s to personal. i made a promise to myself many years ago, i slipped and never was able to get up from that trip. until just recently. i kept kicking myself in the ass everyday; but i never showed that because i had to be strong and not show weakness and thought to myself, why can’t i be here; now!?! maybe it was my conscious telling me something. i picked up on it very fast. but enough of that. i never thought i could smile like i have been for the past few moments. it feels really great. i am grateful and glad for it. i have another day tomorrow, i have to get this completed. it is either that or i will never man up to have a carrer. even though i still am unsure of the choice, but we will see. tomorrow is a new day with new challenges. thank you for caring and putting that smile on my face today, you don’t know how bad i needed this cheer up; it stretches from ear to ear, just in case you didn’t know. in conclusion it is time to get this done!

thanks O_o

i used the sky today as a blanket, so to speak. i slept in after pouring out yesterday. i had forgotten how it used to feel. if it isn’t one thing it is always another. this morning was the first time i had a break. i was woken up really early by tumbler and had to take him out to do his business and i went back to bed. i slept in for a little longer and finally got up. i got a phone call that i wasn’t expecting, in a way i was being stubborn, had to go give some payments and took off and after that stopped by a car dealership to ask a few questions. i didn’t get an answer i was looking for and went home to file through some paperwork to find the answer but got discouraged and left it alone. started to make some lunch and decided to eat healthy, after skipping breakfast; which isn’t so good for me, i went on to finish my to do list. returned back home and fell asleep on the couch for two hours by accident, since it wasn’t dinner time yet, was given the idea to go running, rounded up tumbler and his toy and took a drive. arrived at our usual spot and began, was able to complete my goal of four long laps. i was super beat when i got home. had my starch for the day, which consisted of a plain baked potato. hadn’t had one in a really long time. we stared up in the sky for a bit before we left, even though my best friend couldn’t talk, we had a blast. the day is coming to an end and it is almost time for bed. i love you too tumbler. wouldn’t trade you in for anything. in conclusion dog truly is mans’ best friend. doesn’t talk back, but listens, likes to play and is great company.

to mans’ best friend O_o

while on my busy adventure this morning, I received a text from a friend saying that they needed to tell me something and called me and dropped the BOMB on me!!!!!! we went way back, we met when I moved to Austin about 2 years ago and we became really good friends, helped me out through some things and helped them out too. she told me they were moving to Las Vegas with family because the dad got a good job opportunity up there and wanted to say farewell before they would be gone for a really long time and would not be able to return. the family is taking off and driving tomorrow morning to reach Vegas by Monday (Memorial Day). I quickly grabbed some clothes and threw it in a travel bag and mentioned to my folks and older brother that I was heading up here (Austin) to visit them, a bunch of friends that are going are closest of closest of friends, I was considered a good good friend because I couldn’t always be there. I know how difficult it can be to get through a few things like a loss in the family who was very dear and close. I considered her like a sister I never had and could talk too and trust them with pointers they gave me to help out with situations in life. it will be sad to see you go, but I am here now to say my goodbyes and farewells, I drove all this to see you go. the friendship will never be forgotten, just wished I would have known sooner to prep for the BOOM in the face when you told me. sad day. I wish you the best  and since you are moving don’t stop taking care of yourself like you always have.

your good good friend O_o

I see you in a dream, here you in my ear, I speak to you by my thought. I have accepted what I thought was a dream, I know you know I hurt, what hurts me more is to see you hurt. I know we will be okay one day. smile-a-day! “people disappear all the time but there never really gone, the good parts of them always stay put.” – TrueBlood. you intoxicate me with your presence.

eyes O_o

woke up this morning, today felt like a good day, feels like something AMAZING is coming. feels like today I know, im sure.

a rascal night O_o

“listen to it sing … seasons may change; winter to spring … come what may …”