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today has been mostly about dealing with the news of yesterday, i will not be at ease until my parents return, they have already been through one scare on their last trip out of the state, i would be there with them, i just don’t have a passport, i know i should have gotten it but i have held it off for too long. since today was not as cheerful i decided to listen to music all day, i still had my new years project to work on. i found several undiscovered songs and wish to use them. i fell asleep listen to music and woke up to take off my headphones and here the thunder outside, tumbler was scared and kept getting up because the floor would shake. time to get some more sleep, good night and dream freely.

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like woah! what a day i have had. woke up tried to make some oatmeal pancakes and coffee really fast. they came out really good and that jump started my day. school cool. after that went home like really fast to take out tumbler and grab my folder with my work documents. drove and when i arrived was greeted with a hello by the door guy. the funny thing is i always tell him to have a great rest of the day when i leave work, i guess he picked up on it. besides writing reports today i was able to sit in more intakes of the kids. i observed and i am hoping that really soon i can do my own intakes and be on my own. (hoping everyday.) as the day went on i was talking with some other workers and they asked me if i was participating in the pot-luck thanksgiving lunch this friday. told them sure. i am having my mom bake the family secret recipe bread for the get-together. as the day went on i stopped by the house to get a quick sandwich for dinner and headed off to school. i had to go to a school concert for one of my classes. it was actually not bad and stayed for the whole thing while also trying to write one of my reports and had an epic fail; my pen ran out of ink after writing three pages and was about to continue on to the fourth when the pen gave out. after that arrived home to heat up some chicken soup and tried not to burn my face off. i was able to write a few reports but am already ready for bed now and going to sleep. i hope all had a good day. good night, sleep well and sweet dreams.

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today when i woke up from a wonderful dream i thought i had heard a noise. i washed my face and headed out the back door at my parents house. i had to go because my brother wanted to see a movie and i tagged along and when it finished i joined him to my parents with nothing but the clothes on me and my handy dandy iphone. after stepping outside i heard a clank. i asked myself; what is that noise?! it turns out it was three kittens. i was only able to get a hold of one while the others scrambled. it was funny because the other two ran one way and the one i caught ran into a box and it looked like he was disappointed from being caught. lol. it got me thinking while i held it in my hands; “wow! i have a small living organism in my hands right now.” for that moment i realized it was safe in my hands then from the world beyond my hands. if need be; i was able to protect a life. it also reminded me of what i used to do with you, i tried to protect you secretively. just so if something were to go wrong i always played out the senario out in my head for everything. i am just paranoid about life sometimes.

“life. it is so precious.”

i was also remembered of this test i took recently for a job to help lives. i was asked a question about my life, i answered as truthfully as i could. i did and i am in. as the day went on the day involved more lives to enter in my view. for the first time in many months we were all together. in a way that brought a smile to my face and the almost feeling of having something in my eye. ever since i was told, i have been more appreciative of all life. now with my current position i am able to help those who just need a little push in the right direction. i show what good can come. i think i found my niche. everyone has their own story to tell and it is interesting to listen. i know there are days where i need to talk but from a philosophical point i just need someone to hear me out and i would take what ever is told to me in consideration. even though i have been shut out from somethings i still have a lot to learn. given the opportunity i will continue to help others. i was asked why that makes me happy this weekend and my response to my brother was i like seeing people happy, if i can make one change and that person carries it on to another then i have just started a chain. if i were to help a hundred people and more then half carried it on that is still okay with me because i would know i made the attempt to help when no one else ever would. he was stunned by my answer; speechless to be exact.

after joining my visiting parents to the store, i saw a bunch of camping gear and now trying to plan a camping trip. it has been over two years now since i have been. it is now that time to reconnect with nature. i hope i can get it before turkey day or before winter is here. it is getting late now and have a busy day tomorrow. i hope all had a great day. good night and sweet dreams.

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i wasn’t to badly hurt today, the burnt skin went away for the most part on my shoulders but i was still radiating heat from my nose, i looked like rudolph the red nose reindeer; not really but might as well have looked like him. lol  it’s been tough these past two days, but i have survived not including the burns, nicks, cut and bruises that will show up later. and on that note i just got word during dinner that we are going through the summer solstice already; the hottest days of summer. epic! in a way i have the burns to prove it. the day didn’t turn into a disaster like i thought it would, but i almost didn’t wake up early this morning :-\  i was just sore. i needed pickle juice to heal my muscle aches. but it was me, my dad and little brother working together. as the day went through; the radio was great to me, only had to change it once, well twice if you count going back to previous station. it was a great mixxx throughout the whole day, there were songs that i didn’t even understand what it was about, any-who, as the carried on i got to learn some family history, turns out i am one fourth indian, not sure what tribe but only time will tell. also, that my great grandfather had blue eyes and was from spain and that my dad has about six to eight different last names; just from my dads’ side of he family. i was secretly putting my first name in front of all of them and my last name now seemed to be the only one that had a great ring to it. hahahaha sorry dad. every song seem to hit the spot, even the remixes i heard, it was great! but in conclusion i survived, one more day or maybe two and then i get to fix more stuff. hooray! (sarcasm at it finest) but what can you do?!

survival of the fittest O_o

“listen to it sing … seasons may change; winter to spring … come what may …”