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today was my “half birthday” only a few people know exactly what i am talking about but they’re not here with us to celebrate. i found out that i am eight thousand five hundred and eighty two days old. that is a long time! that is a different story but now onto what got my day going, i got to reading; reading something i probably shouldn’t have. and then it started! it started to make me think, the kind of thinking that you never forget and the thought just keeps swirling in your head and you can’t stop thinking about it. when they say read the fine print, read it! i made a fool of myself at the window the other day, until now it is hitting me that i need to read every document given to me, word for word and not skip over and signing it and just turning it in; like i would normally do. i was told many moons ago that when you sign a document it becomes a legal document and are responsible for it until it is put into a file. with that, it has taken me a day to read and reread this document before i sign and turn it in. i am a couple days away from the biggest day of my life to begin and the more it nears; the more anxious i am getting, whether i get in or not. continue to stay tuned to see what will happen. lol.

anxious O_o


today didn’t go as expected, i didn’t expect what actually happened. i have been taken responsibility for my words that come out of my mouth and will stick to what i say. no more holding back. it is time to do what i said i was going to do (you know), i have been wrecking my brain. even though opinions are out there i have to see both sides of everything now. time to buckle down and find my meaning in this life. got to take these small steps one at a time. “if at first you don’t succeed get up and try again.” i hope i can keep this promise as we discussed a while back. =o)

to a brain thinking O_o

today was suppose to be a day of working, what it turned out to be was a downer or bummer. my morning wasn’t so great, woke up at six thirty because of the pain killers wearing off; my foot was in a slight bit more of pain. my mom couldn’t see me suffer anymore and she decided we would head down to see the chiropractor but he wasn’t available due to family issues. then we went to see if my cousin knew anybody and had no luck there. as the day went on i rested on the couch, i knew what would be coming tomorrow and needed all the rest i could take. the pain i am in i can control, one wrong move and i pull the muscle and hurt myself, my parents are afraid if i don’t get this fixed now that it could come back later when i am older and haunt me and might possibly be worse. as if that wasn’t enough; i got an email reminder to pay my classes. if i didn’t i would lose them. well because i got a non passing grade during summer the school decided to deny my chance at getting aid. my tuition jumped to a whopping eight hundred dollars minus books. i had to drop out of a class in order to make a slight payment to even keep my classes. i am very bummed about that, but this isn’t getting me down that easily. i am a fighter and have always been. i want to rant out but what would be the point, it is my fault i could have gotten a better grade, formulas and steps are more difficult to follow sometimes for me. if i made this mistake it is time for me to take responsibility for my actions and put blame on me instead of the world. i do put myself down sometimes but i have to in order for me to learn not to do it again. i believe in myself as well as other see expectations in me too. i glad some people do believe. now it is my turn to appreciate everybody for that and show them there encouragement meant the world to me. i am very sorry if i have let anyone down, my time is now! i am seeing to much i don’t want to see. that is enough of my day, how was yours?

being responsible O_o