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I have never woken up to something like that. The feeling was great & felt so real. =)

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what a day, woke up early to take the dog out and wait for the cable guy. the internet has been going out and so has the cable box and the appointment was today early in the morning to get it fixed. since the problem could not be fixed we got all boxes switched out. the guy took around an hour and i really had to get to my parents house. after i signed my soul away on the contract and the cable guy left, i got ready and headed to my parents house. we are going to have family over for christmas and i had to remove a few things from the room. i was there mostly all day with out a single bite to eat. i was too concentrated on getting everything fixed up and organized. on the drive home is when it hit me that i hadn’t eaten since the morning, i had a bowl of cereal. finally i had eaten and i woke up from a slight nap a little while ago. i still have more stuff to do tomorrow and i am cutting it really short. time for me to get some real sleep. i hope all had a good day. be safe. good night and sweet dreams.

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what an awakening dream, how true can it be? most dreams are brought on by waking life. but i couldn’t distinguish if it was a dream or a premonition; it was very real. i could touch, feel and smell. i didn’t quite understand what was happening i the background but once you know something you can’t un-know it and as far as the other dream. it was awesome, every moment of it. i really hope that one does come true.

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today has felt like a real simulation game. so many things to do in just so little time to do it in. wow i am way tired and i still have another two days like this. “duck. duck. duck. duck. goose.” lol.

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been watching a show and realized what this show involved and also made me realize that i have done this kind of work myself without even remembering until now. for some odd reason i have always liked statistics. there are many different algorithms to figure out some statistics and i have constructed some of my own in the past. with this at hand i feel as if i am ready to take school in a whole new different way. in a good way at that. with past classmates we were offered to hand over a copy of our project to the sociology department and would be used for future examples. not sure how many people have seen the work we created but i know something now that i didn’t realize back then. socializing help my work in so many aspects that i know with my future advancements i will follow what i had started and continue with the social experiments and socializing of what is to come, i have seen inspiration before and these ideas are up there with that. i hope to be successful and published one day. it could happen.

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I had some family things come up but I feel bad for not being there to celebrate your day. if it is any constilation i was working too on my celebration day. it is bad but like you said you didn’t want a repeat of last year. I know I have to make it up to you but why not wait and we can do something big on another day, we are both the same age, how hard can it be to find something we can do together? be safe out there.

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not to many people know the real but what they do know is the unreal. their is trust, hope & power to endure. in a slight way i have been doing some research and/or ‘soul searching’ as most like to call it. i am so near, i can feel it, it is in my grasp all i have to do is grab life by the horns and GO! i began looking back at a few moments in my life and i have to say, well it’s to personal. i made a promise to myself many years ago, i slipped and never was able to get up from that trip. until just recently. i kept kicking myself in the ass everyday; but i never showed that because i had to be strong and not show weakness and thought to myself, why can’t i be here; now!?! maybe it was my conscious telling me something. i picked up on it very fast. but enough of that. i never thought i could smile like i have been for the past few moments. it feels really great. i am grateful and glad for it. i have another day tomorrow, i have to get this completed. it is either that or i will never man up to have a carrer. even though i still am unsure of the choice, but we will see. tomorrow is a new day with new challenges. thank you for caring and putting that smile on my face today, you don’t know how bad i needed this cheer up; it stretches from ear to ear, just in case you didn’t know. in conclusion it is time to get this done!

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i just realized what today was.

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i was woken up by a know it all, wasn’t a great morning. had to rant but enough of that; it is over and done with. with some delay i was able to get just enough rest to recover but still have some pain. as the day progressed it did just that. we worked hard and it paid off, literally. out of the blue my friend asked me if i would join him to see a movie and said sure, even though i was dead tired; but it is rare this happens and when it does i know there is a deeper meaning to just hanging out. sure enough i was right, we got to talking while i munched down on my bbq buffalo wings, everything spilled out, the movie wasn’t until midnight, well ten minutes before so we had a little time to spare. on our way to the theater more and more information was released, because all he needed was just a second opinion. while at the theaters a fight almost broke out, we were two rows behind it and saw everything, i did miss a small portion of the movie  because of them arguing because the second party was on the phone; i mean hello who does that?! step outside and take your call but not while the movie has already started. don’t want to spoil the movie but it involves dreaming. there was much hype on the movie and it turned out to be a great summer movie; i recommend everyone to see it. what they do in the movie has happen to me before but in real life, not by being hooked up to a machine. in conclusion, in a way i need to get out, needed to clear up the old noggin, everything at work, home  and brother moving away is all too much for one day. thanks but it is now time to rest. i hope you can figure out what you need to do.

to dreaming big O_o

some holiday this has been, a crappy one, i lay here writing this listen to music loudly because no one is here to tell me to turn it down. it started off with my parents arriving way early in the morning and deciding to leave when the sunrise would appear. they were telling me what they were going to do but was barely paying attention, i was halfway dreaming and half way awake. then *poof* they were gone. when i awoke i thought it was a lucid dream, it felt super real. well in reality it was. woke up to a dark and cold lonely deserted house with my dog sleeping near me, he looked so peaceful; dreaming of bones and swimming, that i tried to get up quietly and tried not to wake him. he senses me when i wake up all the time, as if we have a connected energy field that are simultaneously in sync with each other, he stretches then i stretch or vise versa. this is a trait or gift that i have with all living things. after that i get up and start on my homework.

after some time working the little guy says *rawr* and decide to make some brunch. decided to make something quick and made some tacos and gave him his portion of food for his brunch with a side dish of water. then went back to work.  a few hours later it was dinner time, didn’t have much to prep since i wasn’t feeding an army this time around but just for one and his dog. all i could find in the fridge was red meat and red meat products and discovered a hidden package that was successfully chicken, threw that together and prepped his next portion for dinner and his ice cold water. during that i open my computer and threw it on netflix, we began watching old school videos that popped up on the instant watch list. while watching that he decided to join me on the couch and lay across my legs to watch the movie. that movie brought back a lot of childhood memories.

on of the things on the movie towards the end was very intriguing to me, it was said that “things happen in your life that you can’t stop but it’s no reason to shut out the world” – crazy pete sims, which i now find to be very true, i have shut out a lot of people in my life in the past but after a certain incident i changed who i was and changed into the person i am and all know today. i learned to never hold grudges, to be considerate, also that the world doesn’t revolve around me and lots more. i have accepted a lot of imperfections i carry on my shoulders but pick up more weight each time i accept any, a repeating cycle that i think will never stop. i think! with each passing day i see what i see and do what i do to make the attempt to be on top, the struggle and mountain is there, but i know one day i can conquer it. as well as other mountain climbing expeditions that may come in my path of stepping. in conclusion i was just reminiscing and am wondering what will happen when the drive is complete? i don’t know and wonder if i should be afraid?!

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wow just realized that people do believe, but what can I do? I am doing my best and trying, not too many people try. but it’s my turn to shine!!!! thank you.

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today marked a great day, I knew it was here. I had fallen asleep and then woke back up around 3 am and couldn’t get back to sleep and stayed up until 6am. started thinking about what needed to be done today, tired myself out by thinking so much that I had forgotten to turn on my alarm on my phone. I was sleeping when I got the call to get up but I woke up too late and missed my chance of going to work. I didn’t know what to do and began to finish a tv show and forgotten to eat something. I had way too many cravings that I almost gave in, I wanted to have it all but all I could here was a voice saying not to go against what I set out for myself. it made me realize I can do what I set out to by just knowing I can. set off to the store and bought something healthy to make for dinner. made it and feel better and full with a plate of food.

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