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Fire & Rain. Promises, they are so wasted on myself.

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today didn’t go as expected, i didn’t expect what actually happened. i have been taken responsibility for my words that come out of my mouth and will stick to what i say. no more holding back. it is time to do what i said i was going to do (you know), i have been wrecking my brain. even though opinions are out there i have to see both sides of everything now. time to buckle down and find my meaning in this life. got to take these small steps one at a time. “if at first you don’t succeed get up and try again.” i hope i can keep this promise as we discussed a while back. =o)

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not to many people know the real but what they do know is the unreal. their is trust, hope & power to endure. in a slight way i have been doing some research and/or ‘soul searching’ as most like to call it. i am so near, i can feel it, it is in my grasp all i have to do is grab life by the horns and GO! i began looking back at a few moments in my life and i have to say, well it’s to personal. i made a promise to myself many years ago, i slipped and never was able to get up from that trip. until just recently. i kept kicking myself in the ass everyday; but i never showed that because i had to be strong and not show weakness and thought to myself, why can’t i be here; now!?! maybe it was my conscious telling me something. i picked up on it very fast. but enough of that. i never thought i could smile like i have been for the past few moments. it feels really great. i am grateful and glad for it. i have another day tomorrow, i have to get this completed. it is either that or i will never man up to have a carrer. even though i still am unsure of the choice, but we will see. tomorrow is a new day with new challenges. thank you for caring and putting that smile on my face today, you don’t know how bad i needed this cheer up; it stretches from ear to ear, just in case you didn’t know. in conclusion it is time to get this done!

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on the ride home i realized what i have to do. drove in silence the whole way home because i was thinking and forgot about the music playing. while at my parents house i was so far away from the world, like really far away. i stayed up later then usual starting up at the sky, just gazing. i forgot how peaceful and soothing it is with out all the noise and ambient light. i could actually see stars and the milky way. it was amazing. as the day went on the rest of what is left of the family went out for dinner, we went to go eat bbq at rudy’s and remembered you and our time their. =) even though everything smelt SO good, meat wasn’t on my list to eat, all i had was turkey, beans and potato salad with a raspberry tea, was amazing but parents got sort of mad because i became like my older brother and gave up red meat. what their mad at is that they don’t know what to make me to eat if we are over. i used to be a vacuum when it came to food but now-a-days not so much, all i normally have is chicken, turkey or fish. i feel great and look slightly better, with a bit more exercise i can be my fittest i have ever been. no stopping now. i should have been a vegetarian a long time ago. in conclusion here is to continuing on my resolution of the year, i have several months to do what i said i was going to do, and as far as the other stuff, i have kept my promise.

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