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the phrase “busy bee” sounds just about right, right about now. i woke up at seven in the morning to get ready for school, went to school, class was cancelled, went home, made me a good breakfast, got ready for work, went in early, worked, went to lunch, came back to work, worked some more, went home, grabbed a few items for mandatory meet with professor at museum, went through exhibits, met back up with the class, stayed a little longer, went home again, took a power nap, and got up and am now ready for tomorrow. in between some of those i had to take tumbler out to do his business, drive and snack or eat. if that is not a busy day i don’t know what could be. i really hope all had a good day. good night and sweet dreams and happy dreaming.

quidense O_o

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not to many people know the real but what they do know is the unreal. their is trust, hope & power to endure. in a slight way i have been doing some research and/or ‘soul searching’ as most like to call it. i am so near, i can feel it, it is in my grasp all i have to do is grab life by the horns and GO! i began looking back at a few moments in my life and i have to say, well it’s to personal. i made a promise to myself many years ago, i slipped and never was able to get up from that trip. until just recently. i kept kicking myself in the ass everyday; but i never showed that because i had to be strong and not show weakness and thought to myself, why can’t i be here; now!?! maybe it was my conscious telling me something. i picked up on it very fast. but enough of that. i never thought i could smile like i have been for the past few moments. it feels really great. i am grateful and glad for it. i have another day tomorrow, i have to get this completed. it is either that or i will never man up to have a carrer. even though i still am unsure of the choice, but we will see. tomorrow is a new day with new challenges. thank you for caring and putting that smile on my face today, you don’t know how bad i needed this cheer up; it stretches from ear to ear, just in case you didn’t know. in conclusion it is time to get this done!

thanks O_o

it says to be truthful; so here goes, i have been bombarded with questions of me not working, to be honest i really don’t like having a boss or someone shoving me around, i really like the idea of me being my own boss. it is a tough thing to do but starting today i am now an entrepreneur! my only job that i really like was; sadly enough; abrecrombie, even though i had a boss, he really wasn’t a boss to me, he gave me power to be my own boss and because of him i joined the corporation for two years but once he was gone i lost that privilege. i was working just to be able to listen to the music. crazy to say but it is true, my inspiration to be a better dj was in the store. even when he was gone i was taken of my “title” but it was only stripped for a short time, when the rotation of four new managers came in, three of them gave me that power and had the same passion for music as i did and things went back to normal. i was able to be happy working, everyone hated me; like always; because i was able to release some of my mixes live on the sales floor. it felt really great when people came up to me and asked me questions about my love for music. i am slowly getting that feeling back, i have remastered an old project that i had started because a friend and her friends liked my stuff and asked if i would ever release a new type of mix, from way back in the day when i started to now there has been a whole new music list that needs to be updated. i am still in the editing process and it still isn’t right, in my ears. to me a dj is someone who can adapt to anything, which i have been able to with all my genres of music. everyone i know likes more of a specific type of music and they all have different taste, i personally wouldn’t be able to choose one, i like them all, even though there are a few exceptions. i have been taught that i should love what i do instead of taking the easy way out; they are right! i have read a few things and do like what i have read. it is a completely different way of life but every survey i take comes up with the same answer(s). i know i can’t be what i dream of being but maybe it is a different significance with the same attitude, may not make sense now but if and when i am done; i will be my own boss and make my own rules and will be able to say something that is at the tip of my tongue right now and i have always wanted to say. in conclusion i am getting closer to what i was meant to be.

to me being me O_o

been busy all day, for some reason have felt super in myself, like I am figuring myself from the inside out. while I was eating found some beads and some string and thought I would do something beyond my control. it doesn’t mean that I want to change religion, but I do like how buddhist are at peace with oneself and their surrounding (ex. nature, elements, etc.) which is what I have felt like these past couple of days, on a side note it is not that I am being anti-social staying away from the computer as much as possible unless if I really need it for school work. looked somethings up while I was filling out some problems and entering them in my homework section of my online class and stumbled across this;

“oneness of life and light, entrusting in your great compassion, may you shed the foolishness in myself, transforming me into a conduit of love…” – buddhism

what is strange about this is that many people in my life have mentioned to me that I look like and resemble a buddah statue. i took a little bit of spare time and made a mala (buddah prayer beads) it is black onyx which I am finding to be that it resembles and feels powerful. but in conclusion I am just looking into something new. spiritually. emotionally. and physically.

to new discoveries O_o

today woke up slightly late but had to get stuff done, left my socializing alone and got to work, went for 5 hours strait, in there we slight drink/snack breaks, threw my headphones in again and went at it, it felt as if I was in control of my own little universe. in a way it was great but at the same time it felt like solitary confinement, I was reading up on all the juvenile chapters given and learned and fixed some of my knowledge of juveniles. some stuff that I looked over reminded me of my psychology class, good’ol times I remember. 🙂 with that it reminded me that I have to talk to my head of my department to get my classes for next semester. I am so close but yet so far from actually having a piece of paper that says I am done. I guess “with great power comes great responsibilities.” in conclusion today was very well driven and productive, with YOUR help I can achieve it all.

will never thank you enough O_o