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i just overloaded my self with too much to do today. ever since i woke up i had something to do, i did wake up later then usual that’s besides the point. i was woken up to tumbler laying across my feet, he was trying to wake me up but not trying to be subtle about it, he had business to take care of too. i opened my computer and logged into my email and found a few dozen unchecked emails, some were reminders and some were un-important, the one that mattered the most was about me returning my textbook from where i rented it from. i rushed and washed up and got ready to head off in town to tak care of it. i made it just in time and got my tracking number to trace if they have received it or not in time. i made a quick stop to the store and piked up a few items and got home to make dinner. hours later i was inspired to try to finish my project. after looking through over thousands of songs i gave myself a headache and overloaded my brain with small text. i got what i needed and have some work to do tomorrow. its late and i am about to shower and go to sleep. i will catch up soon. good night and sweet dreams. =)

O_o

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what a day, woke up early to take the dog out and wait for the cable guy. the internet has been going out and so has the cable box and the appointment was today early in the morning to get it fixed. since the problem could not be fixed we got all boxes switched out. the guy took around an hour and i really had to get to my parents house. after i signed my soul away on the contract and the cable guy left, i got ready and headed to my parents house. we are going to have family over for christmas and i had to remove a few things from the room. i was there mostly all day with out a single bite to eat. i was too concentrated on getting everything fixed up and organized. on the drive home is when it hit me that i hadn’t eaten since the morning, i had a bowl of cereal. finally i had eaten and i woke up from a slight nap a little while ago. i still have more stuff to do tomorrow and i am cutting it really short. time for me to get some real sleep. i hope all had a good day. be safe. good night and sweet dreams.

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today when i woke up from a wonderful dream i thought i had heard a noise. i washed my face and headed out the back door at my parents house. i had to go because my brother wanted to see a movie and i tagged along and when it finished i joined him to my parents with nothing but the clothes on me and my handy dandy iphone. after stepping outside i heard a clank. i asked myself; what is that noise?! it turns out it was three kittens. i was only able to get a hold of one while the others scrambled. it was funny because the other two ran one way and the one i caught ran into a box and it looked like he was disappointed from being caught. lol. it got me thinking while i held it in my hands; “wow! i have a small living organism in my hands right now.” for that moment i realized it was safe in my hands then from the world beyond my hands. if need be; i was able to protect a life. it also reminded me of what i used to do with you, i tried to protect you secretively. just so if something were to go wrong i always played out the senario out in my head for everything. i am just paranoid about life sometimes.

“life. it is so precious.”

i was also remembered of this test i took recently for a job to help lives. i was asked a question about my life, i answered as truthfully as i could. i did and i am in. as the day went on the day involved more lives to enter in my view. for the first time in many months we were all together. in a way that brought a smile to my face and the almost feeling of having something in my eye. ever since i was told, i have been more appreciative of all life. now with my current position i am able to help those who just need a little push in the right direction. i show what good can come. i think i found my niche. everyone has their own story to tell and it is interesting to listen. i know there are days where i need to talk but from a philosophical point i just need someone to hear me out and i would take what ever is told to me in consideration. even though i have been shut out from somethings i still have a lot to learn. given the opportunity i will continue to help others. i was asked why that makes me happy this weekend and my response to my brother was i like seeing people happy, if i can make one change and that person carries it on to another then i have just started a chain. if i were to help a hundred people and more then half carried it on that is still okay with me because i would know i made the attempt to help when no one else ever would. he was stunned by my answer; speechless to be exact.

after joining my visiting parents to the store, i saw a bunch of camping gear and now trying to plan a camping trip. it has been over two years now since i have been. it is now that time to reconnect with nature. i hope i can get it before turkey day or before winter is here. it is getting late now and have a busy day tomorrow. i hope all had a great day. good night and sweet dreams.

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well my parents just arrived, wished my pops a happy birthday, he is now three decades older then me, it is crazy to think he still looks young for his age despite the peper hair, in his line of work i know how hard it is, if anyone thinks there job is hard, i beg to differ, i would put my salary on it. i can guarantee that NO ONE can last a day in his shoes. that is a promise. he is my hero and i have always seen him like that, even when i found my report of the greatest hero ever; i listed him. i know he wants the best for all of us, everyone does. i am breaking my head trying to show my dad i can over come anything but right now i feel like i am going to explode, i stopped myself from having a headache by telling myself i had no time to deal with it and it went away shortly after getting back to my studies. what i thought was going to be easy really isn’t, this is the toughest thing i have ever done, try to manage two classes on my own time. even with all the time in the world i am afraid i am slipping from the good into the bad, i am not trying to sabotage myself because i love to learn, i just need a little time to be able to figure it all out, but the thing is i don’t have the time that i would need. my brain feels fried but i want to keep moving forward and on top of all that my parents just let me know that my uncle is really sick, he is in mexico and they were there visiting him again, when it’s not one thing it’s always another. can or will this family ever get a break. i guess me trying isn’t good enough, i guess i will have to do everything to pull through on this one, i am seriously thinking of just rolling into a ball and letting go. i don’t know what to do anymore. in conclusion do i fight for what is right or just accept what is?

to needing it O_o

I never thought I would catch the stress-bug, except that I recently have! it all started ever since I heard that I was going to be held in place because I had too many hours, you would think that it is good to have many hours, but according to the representatives it’s not. with a little push and inspiration I got all my paper work turned in to the representatives and will be waiting to hear from them back that I was accepted, to start paying my dues and be getting myself ready for the next step. It seems that I need every push and shove and help I can get too be able to reach the next step. I just want to take the time and thank all who have pushed me and have helped me along the wave of this ride.

Thank You All O_o

I am FINALLY finished after 6 hours of vibrations, cutting and pushing. Felt as if I got run over by a tractor, but in this turmoil I found something that another lost, It felt as if I was on top of a tower and could locate my house from being so high up. while pushing and shoving made things worse for me I couldn’t help but wonder why I found this? but realized how no matter what; we are connect, no matter the distance between us, no matter what we say, no matter what we do, WE ARE A TRINITY. Nothing can break us or move us but ourself. Others have tried and have failed. The bond is so strong that we will soon cover more surface. But as much as we all feel like hell sometimes we still all have each other. Thanks.

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I began talking in a really long time, never had the privacy to do so or was never given the chance too; lately i’ve been trying to figure ME out and what I want to do! During an 8 hour discussion Saturday night, I was getting closer to what I want and what I want to achieve as a career; it has been said that if a thought does not sound right, say it out loud; it really works, will it be tough? YES it will, but I know too much to choose too dedicate myself to one field. One of the best things I know the most is how to speak and with this I know two languages, not perfectly but I know them, like 21 years of both languages. Growing up I have shown others how to do things, have taken charge of a situation and show how to be efficient. As much as I disliked school it is my turn to turn the tables and prove to my profesores que yo puedo hacer todo lo que pongo a mi mente (professors that I can do anything I put my mind too).

Si Se Puede,

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