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What’s different now? What happened that changed everything? I am doing everything right and possibly more and still can’t be in my favor. What you see on the outside is similar to whats on the inside but minor adjustments. I never quit or give up but there is only so much I can endure. That my mind and body will even let me. I never wanted a change so bad in my life until now and now that all the signs aren’t in my favor and are pushing me farther away; is that life ways telling me that this is not for me and to try eles where? Why does no one just give me a straight answer and quit beating around the bush. I really dislike what it is doing to me, figuratively speaking. You can see it and it is very noticeable if you know where you are looking.

too many questions. O_o

i have been glued to my music folders in search for all the music i wish to put together for a new years album. it’s late and giving myself a headache. i took a break to watch a basketball game to rid my mind of music for a bit. and then had to get back to working and figuring out what i want and what i don’t. i have filled up a notebook using a permanent marker to get a representation of what i want and what i don’t. going to tell you early to have a good night and sweet dreams.

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i don’t want to be mean but some people need to know what to say before they speak. i know you folks are misinformed but look it up. what i study shall not be brought up during work, especially when the boss is around. that is termination talk. i know you probably got mad when i wouldn’t explain myself, but what i do is my business. my religion has nothing to do with it, i told you as much as i wanted to so you could think about it and if you are interested you will look it up online.

on another not the semester is coming near a halt. i don’t know what i should do but i do know how to get there. as crazy as that sounds. i feel like just curling up in a dark room to see what happens. i have worked hard but what i really want is to work full time with what i have learned. i like working, i do not slack, i press on even though i am there fo a short period of time. i know what i was put on this earth to do. yes i figured it out mom and dad all by myself. there is one thing i am waiting for and i wish you would say it.

i have had to many things blow through my brain today. i wanted to relax and after work my parents wanted me to get them the third toy story, it was sad but really good. made me think a lot more after the movie. started looking for my journal and i found something, i had forgotten about it but not sure how to go at it. i wrote the few ideas down, if they work, they work! if they don’t then i will modify them until they do work. it is time to sleep, hope all had a good day. may you have a good night and sweet dreams.

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has got to have been one of my worst days ever. let’s just say it wasn’t my day and everything went the opposite direction then normal. first off, i slept in from class, i went to work and had a half day which was sprung on me, kind of wanted to work to distract myself from the things to come. after work i realized i was running really low and the next gas station wasn’t until many exits away, finally when i was able to reach the gas station my car began pulling left, once that happens i know i am getting a flat tire. as i got out sure enough it was low. as i was finishing up i had forgotten to do something and had an embarrassing moment i will never be able to live down, i laugh now but at that time was ridiculed by a stranger. after that i had to run to the store and it was crowded like no other. i guess i was just mad and aggravated from the gas station i took it out on some people driving. i just wanted to get home and forget about the day. on the drive home it was the longest drive in the world because of everyone trying to see what happened at an accident that was up ahead. i finally got home about two hours later. once i got home i was finally able to relax. did a few things to take my mind off of things. then it was sleepy time. hope all had a better day. good night and sweet dreams.

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been crazy busy and i am the coffee isn’t helping to keep me up, have gone just about everywhere in my head to reach the answers to write these reports. some are okay to write but the others are getting a bit more difficult when writers block is creeping up really slowly, i just feel it. got to get back to these reports for school and work. hope all had a good day. good night, be safe, sleep well and sweet dreams.

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i just got out of the shower with a refreshed feeling. i feel as is i have washed away a few weights of my shoulders and feel that what i wrote early had been picking at my finger tips to get out. i have normally stayed quiet about a lot of things, i think it is time for a change. it is time for me to be outspoken. getting tired of never having a voice or being heard. this ends now. i hope everyone had a good day but it is time for me to get some rest and hit the books again tomorrow. be safe. have a good night and sleep well with sweet dreams.

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my schedule was filled with things to do today. class was cancelled today, headed home really quick to grab my file(s), paperwork and backpack to carry them in. took off to work early and when i arrived people were caught off guard and surprised to see me there ready to work early. i thought it would be nothing since i was going to be out to see the doctor. i had many files that i had to finish up before my other coworkers arrived back to the office from a three day conference. i was able to finish all the work before i had to take off. once i finished i began talking with the older coworkers because they got into a discussion about movies and let them know they could see them online. they were surprised such a thing existed. it was funny to see there mind being evolved from old to new. after that i took off to go see the doctor, they numbed the area they were going to work on and hours later i had my filling refilled. i was in a short amount of pain but the difficult part was being told not to eat or drink anything for two hours, the tooth needed to be sealed and would take some time to fully heal and not to mention i was still numb, it just went away a few moments ago and i was finally able to have some grilled chicken fajitas and water because no more sweet stuff for a while because of how sensitive my tooth is. i am in still a bit of discomfort but nothing i can’t handle. i have got another busy schedule tomorrow. i hope all had a way better day. good night and dream happy dreams.

necesidad O_o

today felt like a relay, was up and moving around from the moment i got up. got to class to come to find out we were learning new chapter, well a few new chapters. after class i headed up to Austin right after class. with some determination i was able to make it to town in recored time, like guinness world record time. lol. returned back and was just something inspiring of a drive, open my eyes to see what i had been over looking. my inspiration and came across this while looking through some text, “use your imagination not to scare yourself to death but to inspire yourself to life.” – A. Brookman and was presented to join something, so i did!!! it will take a little bit of time, and some will power. but for me to master this will be a big jump for me. new things came to me the other day, something i put off when they were presented to me, but with a little bit of inspiration i came back to it and have it now buzzing in my ear. in conclusion, everyone always say you can achieve something when you put you mind to it and i am following through with what has been said.

new direction O_o

am I in trouble? was I ever there? when should I be? did it? was it? there is? every song heard is kind of scaring me right now, they are all answering of these questions in my head that I am afraid to say out loud or even write, the funny thing is I am normally a happy-pusher next when my music is set to shuffle and I have yet to touch the skip to next song. I can finally hear all the lyrics and they make sense.

“can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? because I could really use a wish right now!” – BoB

“the smell of you in every dream I dream, I knew if we collided, your the one I decided whose one of my kind” – Train

“if I could rewind both hands of time, I would never find a lovelier design, nothing is lovelier then you” – BoB

“heartbeats, heartbeats, beating hearts with _ _ _ _ , heartbeats, heartbeats” – Grum

those are just to name a few of many songs played right now on my iPhone jammin’. I hope this is a good thing. I am not one to do many things but when I do, they are meant to learn from. I just felt I had to get this out but couldn’t speak it out, but I can sure write it out. enjoy.

music for thoughts O_o

Good Morning folks this was the earliest I have ever written a post, I felt the need I had to because I just looked into it and did some research and looked up the meaning to the aspects of the dream and it turns out it was a good thing. the song that was being sung was a good one that I recently downloaded by my favorite country music group; Rascal Flatts. I think what it was that I slept with my headphones on with music playing and that song came on while I was in my REM state of my slumber. It was my older brother, my little big sister and me singing this song (http://blip.fm/~qzhal) while we were walking towards room where our family was eating pizza. I think the song came through the headphones, into my ears and then into my conscious sleepy mind. “To sing in your dream, represents happiness, harmony and joy in some situation or relationship. You are uplifting others with your positive attitude and cheerful disposition. Singing is a way to celebrate, communicate and express your feelings. To hear someone sing in your dream, signifies emotional and spiritual fulfillment. You are changing your mood and experiencing a more positive outlook in life.” – dream dictionary. with ending it is a good song, I like it a lot, “you can do what you think is impossible” was the best line that I remembered. which is true. as long as you put work into it, you can do anything you put your mind too, no matter how difficult. unstoppable O_o

Key:

seeing a key, symbolizes opportunities, access, control, secrets, or responsibilities … or you are close to unlocking the answer to some problem.

Door:

in particular, to see a light behind it suggests that you are moving toward greater enlightenment/spirituality.

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