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why must you keep doing this too me? i told you many of time because of what you did to me, i never want to hear from you ever again. it’s unforgivable and i have no room for you in my life. say what you want but what you did trumps anything i could ever do to a person. in other words goodbye.

on a side note, today was very productive. i was running around and driving around everywhere. i got all i needed done. i started working on my project to forget what happened earlier. time to get back to work. catch you later.

O_o

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everything was good, i was okay with the family, we were all laughing and what not while eating turkey. once we were done i sat down on the couch, watching my little brother pack his clothes and waiting to say goodbye because he had to work for black friday and he lives far away. while he was almost done we got a phone call, i could hear someone talking on the phone saying okay we will be there right away. i knew it wasn’t anybody from my family because we were all accounted for. it turns out it was a distant family member and they were in town and they were lost. automatically i was thrown in the pool to go get them and take them where ever they needed to go. every year it is te same thing! i want to relax and someone always has to ruin it. call me mean or whatever but i was home to relax. something i have been wanting to do for a very long time but no! i had to do other things then relax. i don’t think i ever can remember a time when we have had no interruptions and been able to celebrate this thankful day in peace. i am not angry just a little annoyed that this always happens. but i am over it and going to sleep. i hope all had a wonderful thanksgiving holiday break. good night and happy dreaming.

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has got to have been one of my worst days ever. let’s just say it wasn’t my day and everything went the opposite direction then normal. first off, i slept in from class, i went to work and had a half day which was sprung on me, kind of wanted to work to distract myself from the things to come. after work i realized i was running really low and the next gas station wasn’t until many exits away, finally when i was able to reach the gas station my car began pulling left, once that happens i know i am getting a flat tire. as i got out sure enough it was low. as i was finishing up i had forgotten to do something and had an embarrassing moment i will never be able to live down, i laugh now but at that time was ridiculed by a stranger. after that i had to run to the store and it was crowded like no other. i guess i was just mad and aggravated from the gas station i took it out on some people driving. i just wanted to get home and forget about the day. on the drive home it was the longest drive in the world because of everyone trying to see what happened at an accident that was up ahead. i finally got home about two hours later. once i got home i was finally able to relax. did a few things to take my mind off of things. then it was sleepy time. hope all had a better day. good night and sweet dreams.

O_o

I just want to start off with that’s fucked up!!! everyone has always side swiped me with a weightful remark. I am pretty sure every bad thing that has happened to me is because of my size. yes I know I am fat! no need to keep rubbing it in my face. I have always struggled every since I was young, yes I was that husky kid who sometimes was out of breathe because of my asthma. as I look back growing up people used me as a safety net. you know who you are! but it has got to the point where my family and closest friend(s) keep trying to make a joke of it and laugh it off. yeah I laugh but what you are really doing is killing a little part of myself. everyone always goes to the big guy because he can’t hurt you or so you think. I have wrestled and won many of times with people twice my size, I will never forget the time when I didn’t know my own strength and nearly did something that could have hurt my cousin really bad and I broke a tall closet dresser from the force. I have also been used as a body guard, you know who you are, it was fun for a little bit but when you wanted me to get you from one place to another that was just too much, but me thinking you were a friend you got mad when I didn’t want too. how could I have been so naive?! I think today is the last straw. I have been put down one to many times lately. it ends now. everyone has been two-faced to me lately! and i mean almost everyone! how fucked up is it that the people closest to me have been so far away or have pushed themselves farther away. what have i ever done to you?!

a ver que pasa O_o

wow! really?! that has got to be one of the most frequent things i have been hearing about myself from others lately. i am too nice! was talking with some old friends today and have found out that; for the fourth and fifth time now; that i am a nice person. it seems to be portrayed as a bad thing. when can i show the world that good does still exist in this world and it’s a good thing?! really guys. c’mon! i couldn’t believe my ears. is being “bad” a good thing?! i live my life “safe” as some people believe to be a bad thing; for the reason that i have been through hell and back. for those who know me and my family know best; very few people actually do. i became the person you know today for personal reasons that i didn’t want to end up like a few, well many close relatives i know. it is a tragedy. breaks people’s hearts, especially even if one day you know you will one day get that phone call when something bad has happened or worse. is it wrong that a few beliefs i have can be appreciated by some, and not by all. but then again; it is my life! i am in no way saying i am perfect because i am not but still, live my life with morals to one day show others that not all we do can be a stigma and carry on with our legacy. i don’t know whether to be angry or disappointed. but after hearing it five times from different people, it astonishes me; really! i guess people’s perception of good is actually bad. wow! i really can’t believe it. even after this i still hope everyone has a great night. deuce.

por siempre O_o

i guess something so small can not be depended on, someone ask and i follow through, why can it never be the other way, always has to be an excuse! blaming it on the weather, please, i driven in worse and i just finished driving through hell and back, took me 4 hours just one way, don’t know why this task has to be so difficult. i do everything, but looks like i can’t depend on anyone anymore to do anything for me and must do it all myself. guess i will have to start getting used too. i am not doing anymore favors. i don’t get anything but the shaft end of the stick. i am mad now but will get over it later. putting my troubles off to the side to concentrate on the real task at hand.

to needing to venting O_o

today like many other past days I read my horoscope, it said “you need to do whatever it takes to avoid arguments with the family or in the home.” which i so tried to, people just do not listen, one in particular. I came home from school to emptiness besides my best friend, T. he knows what is up. he listens. he is my protector. he never talks back and we kick it and play when we feel like it. I had to go back to school to pick up some valuable information for later classes, I was hoping that at least one of two of my books had arrived when I would return but I returned to a nat. the kind of nat that buzzes around your ear and keps going and going and going, etc. it wasn’t that I wanted to be lazy but I kind of did, I just wanted some piece and quiet for as much as I could get. but NO!!! the nat came along, I was not interested in running errands that are right up the road, when the nat could take care of their own stuff. i am tired of being a messenger and errand boy that I will now refuse to do things that will take me away from my studies. I am TRYING to bust my tail to get ahead. I’m TRYING!!!!! i’m not the fu*king genie where it’s like *POOF* what do you need? *POOF* what do you need?*POOF* what do you need? we all need our space, I am not cranky, I slept well; early too. but this stops NOW!!!! you want something you go get it. for one; your taking me away from studying so you can kick back and relax, second you have money, a truck and a foot, mouth and hands to get what you want. no more favors for now. I have stuff I need to take care of as first priority. I wont go get it now, later, tonight, tomorrow, day after…

to maybe having an off day O_o

I’M NOT INTERESTED!!!!! how fucking hard is that to understand!

people don’t listen O_o