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what a day! woke up and had to do a few loads of laundry. nothing drastic but it had to be done. since the new year is around the corner i haven’t cut my hair in a few weeks. while i was there i was looking at a hair book, thought i would change it up a bit but i didn’t have enough hair to complete some of the new looks i decided to keep it plain and simple. before i got up the barber asked me if i wanted a design since i had cut it like a few people who ask for the request i asked for. it reminded me of a day you showed me a picture and i joked around saying i would. it made me laugh and giggle for a little while. my brother wanted me to put lightning bolts, as cool as it sounds i don’t think i would ever do it. during that i received a phone call from my brother and had to call him back. when i did he gave me some great news. i have to prepare a few things and i have an early morning departure from home. i get to be put to work for the new year. i am very grateful for this. i hope all had a good day and happy early-ish birthday. =) time for me to sleep. good night and sweet dreams.

O_o

 

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had a productive day today even though i had woken up from almost being asleep for thirteen hours. i was able to finish a few more reports today. since it was cool outside and i needed to drop off some books at the library, i went to the dog park downtown with tumbler and walked to the library to get some fresh air and drop off the books. on our way back we spent a little more time at the park and my parents called and asked me to meet them for dinner. we went home and i got ready to go meet them. we had our dinner and talked, i was joking with my mom that i wasn’t going to go into school because i didn’t feel like it and she told my dad and my dad was twenty-one questioning me, what was really going on was that i don’t have class because of finals but i neglected to let them know that part. i started on my next report and got half way through it. it is kind of late and i am getting sleepy, going to call it a night. hope all had a good day. stay safe out there. good night and sweet dreams.

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papers. papers. papers. so much trees being used up today. have stayed away from my computer all day until a few hours ago. today was just handed a boat load of work and on top of that i already have work to do for school. i decided to stay home and head to work early. they had told me to brace myself. i really thought they were joking. i was wrong. when someone sounds sincere they mostly are telling the truth. i was told what ever i didn’t finish to come in tomorrow to finish up. i didn’t want to decline the offer because i think it was a test to see how far i can be pushed, i did let them know even though it was a holiday i still had class to go to in the morning. i will be there after school to finish up. as the day came to an end i knew what was ahead. well not really because i got a feeling to read. read i did. it had been a while since looking at a few things, once you are blocked there is not much you can do but wonder. i tried wishing for certain things but when that failed me i started wishing for things to happen. in a way they were granted. i am very happy they did. i think that now that you are back in my life i can stop worrying about how you are and can ask you instead of imagining the worst. i am taking this leap to reach out in baby steps. i don’t want to ruin or rub the world in the wrong way. when you really left me it felt like the whole world did too. even my best friend stopped talking with me. no one was talking to me and i was going to school with no ambition to continue but i stuck with it because i have paid for classes out of my pocket and need them to graduate. but i can graciously say that today has gotten so much better. i think i just needed someone to spill some stuff too and before i texted you my best friend called me, but recently got in touch with me a few days before i went camping and has slightly refrained from being distant. i have seen too many papers for a day that i am taking a break from writing my reports and going to bed. it is tmie for bed and you have made my day from crappy to way way way better. i do wish i could say something but i wont. thanks. have a great night and very much sweet dreams. missed you so.

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I just want to start off with that’s fucked up!!! everyone has always side swiped me with a weightful remark. I am pretty sure every bad thing that has happened to me is because of my size. yes I know I am fat! no need to keep rubbing it in my face. I have always struggled every since I was young, yes I was that husky kid who sometimes was out of breathe because of my asthma. as I look back growing up people used me as a safety net. you know who you are! but it has got to the point where my family and closest friend(s) keep trying to make a joke of it and laugh it off. yeah I laugh but what you are really doing is killing a little part of myself. everyone always goes to the big guy because he can’t hurt you or so you think. I have wrestled and won many of times with people twice my size, I will never forget the time when I didn’t know my own strength and nearly did something that could have hurt my cousin really bad and I broke a tall closet dresser from the force. I have also been used as a body guard, you know who you are, it was fun for a little bit but when you wanted me to get you from one place to another that was just too much, but me thinking you were a friend you got mad when I didn’t want too. how could I have been so naive?! I think today is the last straw. I have been put down one to many times lately. it ends now. everyone has been two-faced to me lately! and i mean almost everyone! how fucked up is it that the people closest to me have been so far away or have pushed themselves farther away. what have i ever done to you?!

a ver que pasa O_o

everything went as planned today, except i wasn’t expecting to have a heart to heart with someone this afternoon, but it happened. even on top of the jokes and laughs today, it felt serious. i have been on a roller coaster of things, many things will be revealed soon enough but before they do, i now know what must be done to get where i want to be. it will be difficult but everything usually is with me. i know i am accepted, hated, liked, loved and enjoyed but as you know i do only have two hands and two feet. when i do need the help i will ask because i know i have been there for anyone who ever may needed something. my brain is hurting and it’s time for bed. good night and happy and sweet dreams.

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today was suppose to be a hard working day, got up; well tried too. something is wrong with my left foot, i took a blue pill last night and it made me follow the rabbit down the rabbit hole and it made me sleepy. i think the drugs that were administered made me paralyzed at night, i didn’t wake up at all, as if i was in a continuous dream. a strange one at that but anywho i couldn’t even walk when i heard tapping on the window. it was good ‘ol mr. rain. it was raining and from what i was suppose to do got delayed. going to make a second attempt tomorrow. hope i can do it on my damaged foot. i think i may have hyperextended it again, the first time was two winters ago when i made an attempt to quickly remove a boot i was trying on and couldn’t walk and the next time while i slept i got a charlie horse and this time i was in a way dazed that i think i may have pulled it while sleeping or from jogging up a hill quickly. i can deal with the pain, what i can’t deal with is not being able to walk correctly, i am waddling or wobbling everywhere. kind of reminds me of a penguin, not to mention i was dressed in black today and made the jokes come to easy for my parents. have tried everything to make the swelling go down but no luck. my parents said they would drive me to see a known chiropractor but he lives way far. going to keep wobbling on it and make the attempt to walk on it correctly. just popped in two red pills (pain killers) and we will see how bad it is tomorrow morning. hope everything is well. have a great night and a great day tomorrow.

alive & kicking O_o