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to sleep or not to sleep? that is the question, i now understand a bit more of my math work and all i had to do was ask questions after class, i have always felt embarrassed to ask, for one it was something so simple that i could probably have easily spent some time and browse through the book to find it and second because i have always felt that asking questions and getting help means i am incompetent and unable to get understand thoroughly. but today, for the first time in forever, i put my pride aside and stayed after class to ask the professor some questions because i needed help and that help would come in handy for tomorrows test. even with doing homework and notes it is still a bit difficult to understand so many formulas and steps that need to be followed before coming up with the simple answer. while i was running in the park trying to clear my brain of all the work i have been putting into my school work i felt that i needed to turn my attention my pain away from my bran and distract it for the time being before diving right in again. i still need a bit more help, if there is anyone out there that would like to scratch off a good deed of their list, i would really like some help! i saw this today and couldn’t help but write it down. “i am the master of my fate & i am the captain of my soul.” – Nelson Mandela (from the movie Invictus) was a great inspirational quote and was a great movie. i would like to one day say something that would be inspirational and would be used by others after i am gone. in conclusion i think i want to stay up and study like i have never studied before to get an “A” on my test tomorrow, should i or should i get rest and try my best?!

knowledge is power O_o

today begins the hardest road of my life, recently I have been skipping the morning and noon time to indulge myself. I have been finding to smell of all food disgusting and the sight of food gross. also have not been feeling well after eating red meat but other food (poultry or seafood) have no effect on me at all, analyzing it more; me of all people turning down some food, when I would usually say any food i eat “fills the cracks of the heart.” I began thinking while working that all I need to survive is water, but how long can I go on for without food?! everyone keeps asking what is wrong with me, if I knew I would tell them. I think now that I am hard at work and busting my tail and breaking a sweat I am releasing all my bad things in my body and dropping weight, I have already dropped a waist size and 7 pounds in water weight. I am liking the dropping of the weight because it makes me feel better (mentally & physically) but not liking that I can not eat when I should be. it scares me that I could possibly have something wrong (heart, diabetes or stomach problem) with me. I have been in a nutrition class and give others advice on how to eat BUT TODAY MAY 17, 2010 MARKS THE DAY OF CHANGE (also marks 3 months after my birthday; that is irrelevant), it is my turn to have the ridicule STOP dead in its tracks because looking in the mirror everyday is getting to be a spiteful thing. I now want my health to be good, a good health brings good fortune and good waves of energy. I want to live a long, healthy and prosperous life like all the successful beings out there.

here is to CHANGE & LIVING O_o

“In your ocean I’m ankle deep,
I feel the waves crashing on my feet;
It’s like I know where I need to be
But I can’t figure out,
Just how much air I will need to breathe
When your wave washes over me,
There’s only one way to figure out!
Will you let me drown?”

good lyrics, spoke to me so clearly. looked up the song meaning and means that we are taught that inspiration is just around the corner, but the problem is, it may not be until the next couple corners that we finally see it. Super True! it took me a while to see what I wanted and with talking and everyone’s help, I found “something beautiful” (my inspiration). Thank You to everyone it means so much, time to prove to everyone, well myself that I was lost and now I know exactly what to do.


to achieving big goals O_o

Shout! Let it all out. C’mon, Shout! Shout! Let it all out; these are the things I can do without. C’mon I’m talking to you, C’mon. Let it all out! Shout! Shout! – Tears For Fear


”…is for man kind and ready for damn change” – Young Jeezy

Here is a list of Top 10 Country songs that I have deliberated for 3 hours.

  1. Meyberry – Rascal Flatts
  2. Amazed – Lonestar
  3. Winner At A Losing Game – Rascal Flatts
  4. Stay With Me (Brass Bed) – Josh Gracin
  5. Live Like You Were Dying – Tim McGraw
  6. She’s My Kind of Rain – Tim McGraw
  7. Carrying You Love – George Strait
  8. Nothin’ To Lose – Josh Gracin
  9. Mud On The Tires – Brad Paiseley
  10. Boot Scootin’ Boogie – Brooks & Dunn

After much deliberation, thats my Top 10 list.


I was driving and was coming up to the light at hilderbran and blanco (where my aunt lives near by) and a old guy with glasses and a long with beard was in front of me and asked if i could take him somewhere and the light turned green, I punched the gas but was going very slowly, look in the side mirror to see him trying to get in the back seat of my car and not saying anything, tried to shake the car to knock him off but no go he got inside and I slowed down and asked him to get out of my car 3 times. then I woke up to a racing heart.

what the hell does this mean?