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They say time will heal but by the looks of it, it doesn’t look like time is healing; it’s just hurting more.

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i kept thinking my weekend was already over but when i checked the calendar it was just beginning. when i woke up everyone was still sleeping, it was funny because they still partied during the night and all i had was two beers and a glass of champagne during the new years toast, the rest of the time friends kept bring me water. so glad i drank water instead. it was everyones recovery day, people didn’t want to get up out of bed or didn’t want to do anything. since i was the only one that was in good condition i made a few errands while in town. we later met up with a few friends for dinner and i had a energy drink where my hands and arms were still sore from trying to pump up the crowd. we are going to be headed home to rest before going to bed. good night and sweet dreams.

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i just overloaded my self with too much to do today. ever since i woke up i had something to do, i did wake up later then usual that’s besides the point. i was woken up to tumbler laying across my feet, he was trying to wake me up but not trying to be subtle about it, he had business to take care of too. i opened my computer and logged into my email and found a few dozen unchecked emails, some were reminders and some were un-important, the one that mattered the most was about me returning my textbook from where i rented it from. i rushed and washed up and got ready to head off in town to tak care of it. i made it just in time and got my tracking number to trace if they have received it or not in time. i made a quick stop to the store and piked up a few items and got home to make dinner. hours later i was inspired to try to finish my project. after looking through over thousands of songs i gave myself a headache and overloaded my brain with small text. i got what i needed and have some work to do tomorrow. its late and i am about to shower and go to sleep. i will catch up soon. good night and sweet dreams. =)

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today was my lazy sunday, woke up at all kinds of time and kept falling back asleep. i did get my rest in but it was a slow kind of day with nothing to do but clean and pick up while listening to my ipod. throughout the day my jaw and filling were bothering me, i had a weird feeling, very difficult to explain and i wouldn’t know where or how to begin. it is already late and have to take care of some stuff for tomorrow. i hope all had a great day. time for me to sleep. good night and sweet dreams.

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still feeling under the weather. i woke up last night and got up to get some orajel for my teeth because the novocain had wore off and it had knocked me out. it looked like a chipmunk or as if i had gotten punched in the face. it didn’t hurt it just felt swollen. kind of laid in bed for a little longer then i should have. finally had gotten up and did something. started cleaning but kept sneezing. i think i sneezed over a thousand times today alone. made me some chicken for dinner, i really hope the vitamins help me get better. i can’t even talk right. i hope all had a good day. take care of yourselves folks. time for me to sleep to make what ever i have go away. good night and sweet dreams. thanks folks, i’ll live, i hope. i love y’all.

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what a day. woke up to the alarm blowing up in my ear. i would have said good morning but the cable lines were frozen and my internet was down because of it. took my final and went home, started on my reports and felt like some coffee, i was already out of it. i had one scoop which couldn’t make me two cups. rushed to the store and it had failed me, the coffee i wanted was out. i know it is now illegal to text while driving but had to respond back, didn’t want you to think something happened to me. i was okay just driving. i went to my next favorite place to shop. found what i wanted and by the time i knew it i was home faster then anything to try to get home before traffic started up. had my coffee and continued on my report. tumbler was crying and since it was early and i was home i decided to go running early. i pushed my limit. i was going to hurt but need to keep my cardiovascular up to keep my heart healthy. i had a scare the other day, nothing serious but scary. while i was typing away i lost track of my battery life and drained my battery twice today. i am finished with five report out of seven total. two more to go and due friday and i also have one more final to go. i hope all had a good day. i am okay. time for me to sleep. have a good night and sweet dreams.

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got a little bit of free time today to meet up with my friend and free up some overloaded brain cells. i still have a long way to go before i can officially rest. i am borderline about to have an anxiety break down. i skipped my running to try to get my work done. it helped a bit. but what isn’t helping are my wisdom teeth coming in and me having a headache because of it. it almost to the point where i would take some pliers and rip them out myself but the dentist already told me that if i mess with them and pull the main nerve, that it would hurt really bad. i am taking some pills to get rid of the pain for now and heading to bed, i have got my first final in the morning. i miss you folks. hope all had a good day. good night and sweet dreams.

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today was another busy sunday. it all started this morning when i was dreaming, the dream was of my recent visit to the zoo, it was a view from the past, what was crazy was the i was looking for a document in one of my folders and the picture i took was there. i looked at the date and it was the same, it was a year ago today. after that the whole day consisted of reminders of everything. when i was woken up by tumbler to go out for his business i bundled up, it was a bit chilly, came back in and since it was early i decided to make a tea, after the tea i was going to watch television when all of a sudden i had passed out and fell asleep again. during this sleep the dreams got sweeter, they were great, all three of them you were incorporated with some how. in a way it was great because since i haven’t seen you and i miss you, every know and then i remember the good time we had, even just the little random spur of the moments. but i think what hurt most was losing you as a friend. as the dreams came to an end i was woken up by tumbler snoring, yeah dogs snore. lol. i got up and made me some tacos and got to writing my report papers for work. started on some notes for class and got through the first chapter, i hope what i thought would be on the next test is relevant to what i wrote down. after a while before i knew my parents wanted to have dinner, me and my aunt ran to the store and got some things for the week. while in the store we passed by the coffee isle and i was struck with the sudden urge to get coffee; another thing you brought to my attention that i never thought of doing myself, as i passed by i could smell all of the coffee but could smell one more then all the others, it had vanilla smell to it and i was in search for it, it had taken me a while but it was behind another pack. it smelt really good and am excited to be trying it. after getting home and sorting everything my parents arrived shortly after and i got ready in a flash and headed out to dinner. i normally used to over indulge but after getting in the habit of eating normal portions i got full faster. it was as if my stomach muscles shrunk. lately i get full faster. i just hope i can continue and keep dieting to see what is next for me. after getting home a little while ago i had to start getting ready for bed, i feel so old going to sleep really early but i guess that is what happens as you get older. i hope all had a good day. hope you are well. good night and sweet dreams.

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had an amazing dream but was rudely woken up by a cramp in my leg. I woke up in a scream. it lasted for a good five minutes. I went straight back to sleep after it had gone away, it was very strange, it felt like a bad dream but when i got out of bed i couldn’t walk. that has only happened one time before and it is a painful feeling. i got up and after limping around for a while i had to take some medicine to try to loosen up the muscles around my calf. it went away for a bit but knew i would have to keep popping pills all day and didn’t want too so i just walked out the pain, it didn’t work as i thought it would in my head. joined some old school friends from way back in my private school days, we got to talking and even back then it is like it is now. someday i wonder who my friends really are. i am beginning to realize to open my eyes and see what is real. i never had seen it before; i guess because i was naive but wow i am glad i was told. hope all have a good day. good night and dream happy dreams.

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I just want to start off with that’s fucked up!!! everyone has always side swiped me with a weightful remark. I am pretty sure every bad thing that has happened to me is because of my size. yes I know I am fat! no need to keep rubbing it in my face. I have always struggled every since I was young, yes I was that husky kid who sometimes was out of breathe because of my asthma. as I look back growing up people used me as a safety net. you know who you are! but it has got to the point where my family and closest friend(s) keep trying to make a joke of it and laugh it off. yeah I laugh but what you are really doing is killing a little part of myself. everyone always goes to the big guy because he can’t hurt you or so you think. I have wrestled and won many of times with people twice my size, I will never forget the time when I didn’t know my own strength and nearly did something that could have hurt my cousin really bad and I broke a tall closet dresser from the force. I have also been used as a body guard, you know who you are, it was fun for a little bit but when you wanted me to get you from one place to another that was just too much, but me thinking you were a friend you got mad when I didn’t want too. how could I have been so naive?! I think today is the last straw. I have been put down one to many times lately. it ends now. everyone has been two-faced to me lately! and i mean almost everyone! how fucked up is it that the people closest to me have been so far away or have pushed themselves farther away. what have i ever done to you?!

a ver que pasa O_o

what a day, even to say the least. i slept in again, my back was hurting and i had a tylenol pm and it worked wonders but i didn’t wake up in time. but i was woken up in time for work. on my way into work i was placed as the person to bring ice for a social gathering for work, we were going to celebrate boss day. i realized i have been working for six weeks and i have joned a new family, what i do is easy but may not be suitable for others, as shown. as the day went on i got a call, i knew what was to come. a change of plans. my brother was home from visiting asia. he needed his car and i was the only one who had time to do so. i am here visiting him now and other friends but i still can’t be free and play. i still have to do things via the web. i need to get them done, my grade depends on it. as far as tonight, i hope all had a better day. stay safe, good night and dream happy dreams.

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finally the week is over but another is about to begin, another week of trying to cram in everything together to get everything turned in too. my head if full of information that it is coming out of my ears. even with sleeping early and getting enough rest and having a balanced breakfast, i have been running around everywhere and it has been a game of cat and mouse. one minute im here the next i have to go across town and so on and so on. it is well worth it but the part that is never good are the headaches and body aches. not to mention the workouts i have been through this week are killer but relaxing and refreshing at the same time. i hope to be sleeping in on sunday, still have more to do tomorrow. have a good rest of the night folks, this is me signing off for today. had a lot to say today too.

never ending cycle O_o