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It’s all gone. Everything I though I had and worked so hard for, GONE! DONE! FINISHED! NO MORE! Feeling like a plastic bag. Lifeless, empty, used, etc. When will this feeling end?

hard times O_o

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been crazy busy and i am the coffee isn’t helping to keep me up, have gone just about everywhere in my head to reach the answers to write these reports. some are okay to write but the others are getting a bit more difficult when writers block is creeping up really slowly, i just feel it. got to get back to these reports for school and work. hope all had a good day. good night, be safe, sleep well and sweet dreams.

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i have been so busy that i am addicted to books, paper, pen and writing. i have not been able to use my computer as  through all of this and i remember the days i always had something to do on it. i wonder how it would have been if the computer or internet was never invented. makes you think, huh?! i have gone through a writing pad already with notes and drafts of my reports before i can finally transfer them to the computer and print them out. work was easy but i was in solitary confinement for a good while, i was told to mark boxes. of course i had to make it fun, i would race agains the clock and in the four hours i was alone i was able to label over two-hundred boxes. they were surprised because the person who was doing them got through less then thirty in one hour. not to boast or anything but i could have possibly been working on my reports but i was getting cramps in my arms from lifting, writing, etc. as the day went on i was given an invitation to a boys baby shower; one of the workers wife was pregnant and i was invited without even really knowing the guy. should i go? or shouldn’t i? i just have to see how busy my day will be on thursday. when i got home i grabbed my ipod and threw the shuffle all songs on and i got strait to work, i am still not done now but am getting to tired to write and need a short brain recovery break. with that i am already for bed. i hope all had a good day. good night, sleep well amd sweet dreams.

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what a day to remember! the whole day has felt kid-like, in a sense that just about everything i did made me feel like a kid again, it was an insane kind of feeling. started early too, i started watching television because it was already on and they were showing the little rascals; an old movie i like to watch when i was younger and could never stop laughing though it. as the day went on i remembered where i was on this day nine years ago, i was just fourteen years old and in my freshman algebra class when all of it went down, i remember everyone in my class being sad and glued to the tv to see what happened, class let out and i headed to my computer class when i found out that the second was hit and then they collapsed. i will never forget today and many other days as well. remembering is good, it shows you how things have were and how they have changed. spent some time with my family and friend, after that was still feeling like a kid that aladdin came on the television; this is another favorite movie of mine. it is sad that today has come and gone, i know it will never be forgotten though. hope everyone had a great day, at this moment i am very tired and done with the kid stuff for now, it is time to be a big person again. lol. have a safe and good night everyone. =)

never forgetting O_o

today felt “wishy washy” i did get everything i needed done. i had a few set backs but nothing major, easily repairable but as far as other things i couldn’t get quite right. after some hard searching and thinking i was able to figure out what i had needed, just had to look back in my notebook. one of my handy dandy notebooks helped as well. i got to printing all the pages i needed for my class tomorrow and with some reading i was able to understand what i needed to do. i hope it is what i ned tomorrow and that i didn’t forget anything. everything has beed a big weight on my shoulders for a long time now that i think it is finally starting to spill over into my everyday life. i am getting tired faster when i should be studying and my body fails and shuts down and reboots it self moments later, it has happened for several days now. i know what i have to do but i just don’t know where to find something good for me, that will help me out later. i have tried all my contacts and everyone seems hesitant to take back what they said when i was told that if i ever needed anything, now there are nowhere to be found. i was looking into my school email when i stumbled across several emails that; because of my progress think i would be a great asset to there fraternity. i declined all four offers, i am no where near as done as i want to be with school. i am fighting every chance i get. and will fight until the end. have a wonderful night folks and sweet dreams.

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took some initiative today no matter the circumstance with my foot, it needed to be done. just got back with my mom from austin. we went to take care of a few things while we were there, took a few hours but we got it done. i got to drive the big truck today. had my son (aka my dog, tumbler lol) in the back seat, he was crashed out the whole trip there and back. before we left i had to throw on my music, made me feel country. driving a big diesel truck feels great and heavy. we were lugging a tractor, i felt safer for me driving rather then my mom because i could maneuver the truck in ways that my mom doesn’t really know how. just about every song came on that i used to sing…, it feels good to release my voice in the vehicle again. with driving the truck it got me thinking, i still need to fix up my truck, a few things are missing in the engine before it can fully run. i love my shelby (my car) but i just don’t feel as safe as i should be. the truck is a rare classic truck and once she is done she will be branded with the name tiffany, she is a sea foam green color with black and silver accents; just seemed suitable. it is so old school that it has no power anything but a radio and if i am correct an a/c, which texas heat days should come in handy. all the work that we did today plus the heat took a toll on me. my back is sore, and my foot is getting slightly better too. i am just taking a wild guess and believe that yesterday was my off day. we all have them. still hope for the best. have a great night and great day tomorrow.

gone country O_o

how I have missed you so, I am way glad that I can have this from you,

bask in your glow, its been a little while but how these days have gone by

super slow and wish to accompany you to make time well spent, i have missed you.

i heartz you O_o