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today was…well, a pushy day, i had to push through everything to stay on task; like turn off my computer and put phone away. hide myself from the world for a few hours to get notes read and readings done for my test tomorrow. my brain is a little worn out right now and my body feels it. i feel drained. it amazes me that the readings are right. couldn’t believe it but now i do. think i will keep reading them. the study group went alright, i really wish there were more coffee shops that were open everyday, twenty four seven. make me miss bennu. on top of worrying about the test i had a big scare with tumbler, he was being lazy and was lethargic all day, he wasn’t eating and wouldn’t get up and i though he might be getting parvo again, but no vomiting this time. thank god. my dad-like qualities came out, i tried everything to get him better. i am glad to report that he is doing better and my worry is gone from him now and shifted back to my test. hope everyone had a good sunday, i tried too. the week is over and now time to start a new week. it will be a very busy week for me, i will be up and down the city.still have lots to do. i wish everyone a good night and sweet dreams.

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today was strange, woke up to a crazy dream, was able to see in thermal imaging. as if i had bionic eyes. it was weird and also strange. as the day carried on my mom got a phone call, it was my dad. she could hear something was wrong in his voice right away. i have that gift too, being observant helps too. i was outside trying to tire out tumbler so he could sleep better at night. when i came inside my mom told me what happened, i fed tumbler really fast and jumped in the car and drove to the rescue. i know i have no medical skills or a phd, but i know how to take care of the issue at hand (pun intended.) after thirty years not one time has this happened. normally in a situation like this their woud be panic, and forgot to mention my mother was with me. she gets queazy about the situation when blood is involved. i am perfectly okay with it and have no negative reaction to the sign of blood. i did everything i could to stay alert, assertive and collected, even though i was scared out of my life to find out what happened, i had to imagine what happen and play it in my head as if it were showed on a video. everything is fine for now, on the way there and while helping, i kept seeing worse case scenarios. i know not all of them could happen, but i had to slow down my heart rate so my dad wouldn’t see the scared look in my eye. the injuries weren’t severe but they were still their. i was able to do what i had to do to my dads hand before or maybe possible later injury. i could be quite a healer under pressure, i have seen some people crack, it isn’t a good thing. i am just glad everything is okay, not sure what will happen tomorrow, i have to help out my dad, it will be tough but he can handle pain, it may have been the adrenaline but he stayed calm through it all, even when i had press, move, rotate the injured area. it seems that so far these past two days have been about something important, i now see that. what we discussed yesterday came true; in it’s own way. i hope you get well soon. it was hard to take the strange felling in my throat and make it go away. sort of felt like someone was trying to strangle me, i had to push my way through but got to the other side.

get well soon O_o

i wasn’t to badly hurt today, the burnt skin went away for the most part on my shoulders but i was still radiating heat from my nose, i looked like rudolph the red nose reindeer; not really but might as well have looked like him. lol  it’s been tough these past two days, but i have survived not including the burns, nicks, cut and bruises that will show up later. and on that note i just got word during dinner that we are going through the summer solstice already; the hottest days of summer. epic! in a way i have the burns to prove it. the day didn’t turn into a disaster like i thought it would, but i almost didn’t wake up early this morning :-\  i was just sore. i needed pickle juice to heal my muscle aches. but it was me, my dad and little brother working together. as the day went through; the radio was great to me, only had to change it once, well twice if you count going back to previous station. it was a great mixxx throughout the whole day, there were songs that i didn’t even understand what it was about, any-who, as the carried on i got to learn some family history, turns out i am one fourth indian, not sure what tribe but only time will tell. also, that my great grandfather had blue eyes and was from spain and that my dad has about six to eight different last names; just from my dads’ side of he family. i was secretly putting my first name in front of all of them and my last name now seemed to be the only one that had a great ring to it. hahahaha sorry dad. every song seem to hit the spot, even the remixes i heard, it was great! but in conclusion i survived, one more day or maybe two and then i get to fix more stuff. hooray! (sarcasm at it finest) but what can you do?!

survival of the fittest O_o

i came across something this morning that i read and made me think while working. maybe, just maybe (still left for processing). every time i join my dad to work, we have to fix many mistakes made by others, it was a huge set back, it cost us three hours but maybe, just  maybe if it was done correctly and not commercially or mass produced then maybe we wouldn’t have set backs. for one day of working i clocked in about ten to eleven hours not including a quick lunch. we were able to complete more then half of what we needed to do. was a good day but most of all tiring. i am burnt and sore, it has been about five weeks since my last adventure on a roof. quite possibly could call it an early night. in conclusion, i saw and feel your pain. lol how did your day go?

sucking it up O_o

well my parents just arrived, wished my pops a happy birthday, he is now three decades older then me, it is crazy to think he still looks young for his age despite the peper hair, in his line of work i know how hard it is, if anyone thinks there job is hard, i beg to differ, i would put my salary on it. i can guarantee that NO ONE can last a day in his shoes. that is a promise. he is my hero and i have always seen him like that, even when i found my report of the greatest hero ever; i listed him. i know he wants the best for all of us, everyone does. i am breaking my head trying to show my dad i can over come anything but right now i feel like i am going to explode, i stopped myself from having a headache by telling myself i had no time to deal with it and it went away shortly after getting back to my studies. what i thought was going to be easy really isn’t, this is the toughest thing i have ever done, try to manage two classes on my own time. even with all the time in the world i am afraid i am slipping from the good into the bad, i am not trying to sabotage myself because i love to learn, i just need a little time to be able to figure it all out, but the thing is i don’t have the time that i would need. my brain feels fried but i want to keep moving forward and on top of all that my parents just let me know that my uncle is really sick, he is in mexico and they were there visiting him again, when it’s not one thing it’s always another. can or will this family ever get a break. i guess me trying isn’t good enough, i guess i will have to do everything to pull through on this one, i am seriously thinking of just rolling into a ball and letting go. i don’t know what to do anymore. in conclusion do i fight for what is right or just accept what is?

to needing it O_o

have been star gazing just a little while ago and days past, was out side with my family and dog, while we got home from dinner today mark a special day. a day worth of memory lane if you will, had to run out earlier and go get my dad his gift, i hadn’t forgot i had just been really busy, i sort of didn’t know what to get him since he is a hard person to get a gift for, if i were to ask i know his response would be to get him nothing because he has everything, may not be much but to him he has everything. was woken up really early today, like 7am early because of something my subconscious mind remembered to do. would have been nice to do. tonight i saw a shooting star and couldn’t help to remember this’ “can we pretend that air planes are shooting stars, because i could really use a wish right now.” well i made my wish, after seing the shooting star and hope it comes true. i didn’t ask for me to take over the world but just for a life long friendship, that is they would like it, i am always here and am never going anywhere, if in case you ever need to talk, to hang out, never hesitate, i am here and always will be here, i never asked for anything in return and in doing so not sure if i did wrong, but im here and going nowhere fast. this was once was told too me. it hurts me to see you down, keep your chin up and am positive we can pull through, no matter what.

wishing upon a star O_o

I thought today was going to be an easy day, was woken up early but had to check on my school, was excited and started filling out my calendar with what I was taking so I wouldn’t forget and some time escaped me and headed to work. started all by myself until my dad arrived short time later. we began and had a rush of energy and tried to rip off what we had left to throw away. we got off from the top into the truck and headed to another city dump (universal city) and took an hour to unload. on our way back we began talking about my summer project and what I would need; I can talk that all day apparently, which I have now came up with a name for her (project details: coming soon), she will now be forever know as Project: Mae, I am looking into to some things to get the project started, will be going public with it, not to the extent as my dog has in the social community but pretty close to it. I will some time to begin to set it all up. bare with me, she is mine and mine alone, sorry kids, not for sale nor up for grabs anymore. if me and my dad can get both our lady’s running, we may enter competitions, maybe. still in the works and that summer goal is really far away. we will see. no more being used and abused. it is time for you to shine like you were meant too. I have a lot of hope which others may neglect when handling this. in conclusion, have added another goal to my list of goal, will be tough, but I may ask for second, third and etc opinions to make this perfect. would like others input, if any? thanks

to bringing me to life O_o

today had turned out really PRODUCTIVE and GREAT. checked in with school for graduation and got my Summer 1 classes semi-locked in, spent a time with SOS and then had to go to work to help out as much as I could. 4 hands are beter then 2!!! was talking and chatting it up with my dad and his contractor came around and come to find out, his wife retired from what I want to pursue, I know that I need two letters of recommendation to move forward, she will be a good reference and need to ask for a second letter; the thrill of finding the next one should be a good game. finished up and safely got home and tried to relax a bit, was able to cool down but still had to do a bit more work before I could come to a complete STOP.

winnernotloser O_o

spending the second day continuing to help out as much as possible, listening to country music; everyone always says “everything happens for a reason.” it couldn’t not be loud and clear today. figuring out what I want was even more clearer!! a job is anytime between 7 days a week with an hourly wage and a career is a 5 days a week (Monday – Friday) with salary pay. I know am getting closer to what I WANT. many country songs I heard today seemed to apply to me in every which way. SCARY!!! but it was a meant to be kind of thing. on the flip side I encountered a few slightly REAL SCARY moments, like heat exhaustion, almost nailing my foot with the nail gun & alost falling off the roof. My dad has done this for 30+ years and me just for a few days, but that is not my career, I think I am meant to help my dad/others but in a better way that uses my educational standings.

to a better path O_o

after seeing a movie with my girlfriend last night; it was very inspiring and would dislike very much to feel the way the character felt, I have come to the conclusion that I would not like YOU to be mad or angry with ME anymore, I am trying my hardest. I know you don’t see it but I keep kicking myself in the ass everyday trying to figure ME out, I am very close and I CAN FEEL IT. I just need a little bit of more time. I would like to hear that you are proud of me…ONE DAY.

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