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only have a few moment to write this but it has been a very busy day. lot of work. have stayed clear of the internet, had to turn off the wifi to work, i kept wanting to get distracted but by all means i prevailed. i was hit with epiphanies in the face today, literally. stuff is getting really heavy really fast. as if my mountains just blew up and are headed down the hill with an earth slide. you be safe out there, haven’t seen or talk to a few people that i would usually talk too. looks like every one is growing up and getting stuff done. miss you and love you(s). try to stay sane. school and work tomorrow. this is good night, sleep well and sweet dreams.

O_o

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look here! no matter how many times you call, text, email or even want to talk to me. it will never happen and you will never ever get a response back from me unless it is to tell you that i am putting a restraining order into effect. how could you do what you did and try to apologize for it now. if what you said was your word, why didn’t you stick to it. i knew one day this day would come, karma is a bitch and if it coming back to you ten fold go cry to the guy you cheated & left me for. like i told you before, leave me alone and live your own life. quit trying to interfere with mine. oh and secondly i still stand by i never want to see you, talk to you or ever hear from you ever again. i don’t know how i did not ever see it. you slipped up and got caught. who’s fault is that. not mine for damn sure. if this wasn’t as clear as can be; i dont know what ever will be for you. good bye. and thanks for ruining my afternoon. guess today is unlucky for a reason.

to a much needed venting O_o

i was woken up by a know it all, wasn’t a great morning. had to rant but enough of that; it is over and done with. with some delay i was able to get just enough rest to recover but still have some pain. as the day progressed it did just that. we worked hard and it paid off, literally. out of the blue my friend asked me if i would join him to see a movie and said sure, even though i was dead tired; but it is rare this happens and when it does i know there is a deeper meaning to just hanging out. sure enough i was right, we got to talking while i munched down on my bbq buffalo wings, everything spilled out, the movie wasn’t until midnight, well ten minutes before so we had a little time to spare. on our way to the theater more and more information was released, because all he needed was just a second opinion. while at the theaters a fight almost broke out, we were two rows behind it and saw everything, i did miss a small portion of the movie  because of them arguing because the second party was on the phone; i mean hello who does that?! step outside and take your call but not while the movie has already started. don’t want to spoil the movie but it involves dreaming. there was much hype on the movie and it turned out to be a great summer movie; i recommend everyone to see it. what they do in the movie has happen to me before but in real life, not by being hooked up to a machine. in conclusion, in a way i need to get out, needed to clear up the old noggin, everything at work, home  and brother moving away is all too much for one day. thanks but it is now time to rest. i hope you can figure out what you need to do.

to dreaming big O_o

“earth, air, fire and water are the four elements of life, each one can stand on it’s own and can also help one another or hurt one another, they are each a different state but all connected as one.” i just had an epiphany while being outside trying to help, i look up and reminded me of what we talked about, it came to mind old friend, buddy, ol’ pal, i can see and do things that may cloud your judgement but the things you say are not meant to knock me down but you don’t see it that way, when you speak you may find truth in the words by the way you perceive it. i on the other hand don’t see it that way, but we all need a little help sometimes looking at things from another point of view. whether what you think is right and wrong for you, is just that, it is for YOU and not me.

if you feel the things you say may hurt me, think again, nothing can bring me down, back then maybe, i used to be a push over, back then, now not so much but every now and then i do see a little of me falling into that state. we have been through and seen a lot. when i see you i can see past all the mess and can see the truth. we are one in the same; like a yin yang; you know my strengths and my weaknesses just i can read yours. things got a little sour during the conversation but we came to an understanding, what you want in life is totally up to you and your destiny to follow, not mine, and vise versa. i look at the big picture in everything and correct me if i am wrong but i think you just see what you want to see.

as i was standing outside trying to help i went into a different state of mind that i haven’t ever been, everything was so clear, like it just went *poof* but when i was interrupted it all went away. whether it is because of something, i can achieve greatness. you just have to let me, as i am about to let you. what ever may come of my new ideals, i don’t really know. i hope for the best for me as i do for all.

in conclusion, i don’t know how this will get to you but i am sending to you. how you take it is up to you. what you do with it is up to you. but as far as for me; here i go!

e.a.f.w.l. O_o