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I just logged back in to all my social networks and all I can think is…WOAH! I have been absent from the internet for 2 months straight. In 2 months a lot has changed. People changed. Lives changed. Actions changed. So much has changed. I don’t even know how or where to begin. First thing is first, I am alive & breathing. Just been busy with businesses of mine. I just wanted to say something to the people who though I was no longer with life. So ummmm… HI, I Live! For now take care folks. Much love.

Namo Amida O_o

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Taking a quick look to see what I may be packing. New city. Coming soon.

big change O_o

It’s not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the most responsive to change.

~ Darwin

It looks as change always arrives on my doorstep at a time of someones need. But this time, it looks like my move is coming sooner then I expected. I am done. It the next thing to do.

qotd O_o

What’s different now? What happened that changed everything? I am doing everything right and possibly more and still can’t be in my favor. What you see on the outside is similar to whats on the inside but minor adjustments. I never quit or give up but there is only so much I can endure. That my mind and body will even let me. I never wanted a change so bad in my life until now and now that all the signs aren’t in my favor and are pushing me farther away; is that life ways telling me that this is not for me and to try eles where? Why does no one just give me a straight answer and quit beating around the bush. I really dislike what it is doing to me, figuratively speaking. You can see it and it is very noticeable if you know where you are looking.

too many questions. O_o

what a day, i was totally surprised by my dream before waking up, it was good but not really sure what it meant or what was the message the other person was trying to tell me. party silently. as i awoke i was awake before the alarm had gone off, i got up and started getting ready for work, it was still early and made some pancakes and coffee, while i waited i tried getting ready, was a slow process. i finally was done cooking and got to eating, finished changing and headed out the door to the car. started up the car and drove, arrived to work and met up with all my co-workers for a slight meeting, got some useful information. got in my group and got to work, had to get after a kid for acting up today. wasn’t fun getting after them but had to be done, they were very disrespectful and if most people know me that does not fly with me. i give respect to have it returned back to me. finished there and headed home, i was suppose to do homework but took a nap instead and after a few minutes i was energized and my family arrived. decided to have a little fun with them and talk. we went on for a few hours and began making bar-b-q outside and the neighbors joined us; they are related but distantly. after being stuffed on chicken i went inside to grab tumbler and ran after something he thought he saw and broke his collar. had to make a quick run to the store and buy a new one. today was productive but more social. i tried writting and have finished up two more reports, still have three left and and to tired to write. hope all had a good day. good night, be safe, sleep well and sweet dreams.

O_o

what a change of events today has been. i woke up really early thinking i was going to be late for class when i looked at my phone clock i had just remembered then that i had forgotten to change that one and was able to slow down my heart from racing. while on the way to school i took my normal route when all of a sudden there was a ton of traffic. i was still able to make it to school on time, which i was glad for. just as i had sat down at my desk four classmates had asked me what we had done last thursday. i think they asked because they have always seen me takes notes while they text and talk with each other during class. we were finally going over what i had been waiting since last class for. got to talk about buddha. with my recent change in views because of buddhist views on life i just stayed there quiet in my seat while the professor asked questions about him. but also in my defense i could’t multitask and answer the question and write the notes. i didn’t want to lose my train of thought. after school i headed off to work and did what was asked without hesitation. i am actually content with what i am doing. i could be making a bigger difference in the world, i just wont know until i see it. after work i get home and i am called from beneath the house and someone yelling at me to shut off the water valve. apparently twenty five years after a pipe was installed it finally gave in and burst. we caught it just in time before it flooded under the house. changed out of my work clothes and hopped into something more older that i could throw away later after getting dirty. well long story short after visiting four stores and five hours later i was finally able to fix the flooding from under the house from happening. i will have to transfer my notes later tomorrow during work and have them ready for next class. just got done getting ready for bed and going to have a light snack since i skipped dinner. i hope all had a way better day. for now; good night and sweet dreams to you.

O_o

 

what an adventurous day. this morning around five or six i woke up to a freezing body, the cold had really set in. i was covered up completely but still being motionless the would just rise and since we had no heater or fire me and my friend were cold. finally after trying to warm up i hoped out of the tent and started the fire. we were prohibited to start one because of the burn banned that was in effect but i had to make some breakfast. after starting up the fire i woke my friend to come join me to get closer to the fire so he wouldn’t be cold, moments later after joining me we were both warm enough to move around.

we started cooking. we ate and then began talking of what was next. after a little while we bagan to pack up and turn off the fire. there were too many coals and the rock pit we rocks we had used to make the pit were too hot and we had just turned it out and left it there for the next patron to acquire our site to use it.

after everything was packed up and consolidated we headed back with our walking sticks. the sticks helped out from going forward or backwards on the steep hills. after that hike with more stuff then we came in with we arrived to the car about thirty minutes later. we saw a lot of people heading the opposite direction and were heading up the mountain. i wished i could have stayed for longer but couldn’t. future plans of a trip are around the corner. this time we know what to bring. there is also planning of possibly bringing others with us next time.

on our drive back i was able to take more pictures. some were slightly blurry but i did what i could on my phone. after getting home i was able to relax. after letting my parents know i got home safely i was told to change and get ready to go to my little cousins birthday party. i really didn’t want to go from being exhausted. i went. had some food and just wanted to get back home, was dropped off and turned on the television. a movie came on that i have never seen before and i watched it. it was funny and good mind you it was an animated movie. most animations are funny to me either way. lol.

it is late already and i am super tired. got some homework to do tomorrow and a few paper and notes to do. i hope all had a great day. good night and sweet dreams.

O_o

what a right, left, up and down kind of day. woke up and went to class, it was cancelled. i jumped right back into bed and left everything alone and was down for the count. woke back up and make a quick snack and changed and headed out. i know our meeting was strange, i just wasn’t sure on my time and if i would be able to make my mark. i was able to make it through traffic and make it there with a little extra time then expected. was called in and was out of there a while later. began reading a book i had been meaning to read and have gotten halfway through it. by the time i got home it began to pour. moments later got a call, was unpleasant. now i have got to try for my next choice. i am really hoping for this one, i don’t think i will ever be able to win everyone over. was worth a shot (pun intended). while browsing i saw this and feel i should post it.

“the more you nurture a feeling of loving-kindness, the happier and calmer you will be.” -Dalai Lama

i hope all had a great day. to all i wish them a good night and to dream that dream.

always around O_o

have felt like a ghost all day today, even after school. as if i wasn’t even around. people passed by me and nothing. what can one do?!

“be the change you want to see in the world”

i saw this today and it has me thinking. thinking of things i could never see myself doing, until now! i have been able to accomplish a good amount of goals in my life. but while thinking i wrote down a small time capsule like note to myself, hope it is a good thing. i also came across another saying in a book.

“no man can wear one face to himself and another to the multitude without finally getting bewildered as to which may be true” — Hawthorne

kind of reminds me of something i saw on a television show several months ago. it did work for the character; but then again it was just good television. let’s see if i can accomplish this. small baby steps for now. see you soon. have a good night…friends. & family.

tuyyo O_o

i think i finally figured it out! i know what was said and i do believe it did have something to do with me. iam sure i did do something that i just realized from looking back these past few week(s). how stupid could i have been to do what i did and dian’t even realize i was subconsciously doing it. i know you were apologizing but to be honest i feel that i know now, i should be the one apologizing to you. everything i have written and told you was the truth. but again i hate myself now more then ever for doing what i did. if you are reading this it is because i think i was trying to show my parents that you were the right person for me. as we went on i kept getting scared to tell you how i truly felt about you, because of what you told me the first couple of weeks of being together. i thought i would wait for just the right and perfect moment to tell you. like i said i was super scared and i took a leap and you have been the only one to accept me for who i really am and my flaws (i hope.) and you have been the only one who has made me feel things i never knew existed and felt as if i was flying. the only thing i can say is i am very sorry. i didn’t understand then and it feels like i am understanding little by little now. i do hope that you can accept my apology and as you may know i have been very considerate of your feelings, i have tried to stay away from my computer to not post something that could ruin a friendship that i want to have with you. i still do care very much about you, just know i may not show it but i feel it. just in case you were wondering i got the internship, it is not at the place where i really wanted but they accepted me, i have been doing okay, nothing special besides the internship but just trying to get better. i hope you can understand. thanks for taking the time to read this; if you do.

sorry O_o

what a day to remember! the whole day has felt kid-like, in a sense that just about everything i did made me feel like a kid again, it was an insane kind of feeling. started early too, i started watching television because it was already on and they were showing the little rascals; an old movie i like to watch when i was younger and could never stop laughing though it. as the day went on i remembered where i was on this day nine years ago, i was just fourteen years old and in my freshman algebra class when all of it went down, i remember everyone in my class being sad and glued to the tv to see what happened, class let out and i headed to my computer class when i found out that the second was hit and then they collapsed. i will never forget today and many other days as well. remembering is good, it shows you how things have were and how they have changed. spent some time with my family and friend, after that was still feeling like a kid that aladdin came on the television; this is another favorite movie of mine. it is sad that today has come and gone, i know it will never be forgotten though. hope everyone had a great day, at this moment i am very tired and done with the kid stuff for now, it is time to be a big person again. lol. have a safe and good night everyone. =)

never forgetting O_o

‘be the change you want to see in the world’ – Live Strong

i saw this today and could be something to live by. today was a good day, besides the thunderstorm from last night that i slept through and woke up once because of tumbler getting scared and startled me and was later waken up by my alarm, went for a run in the rain and felt energized when i finished; it was as if i was shocked with lightning. got ready for school and took off early, even though i was early the teacher was late, me and the class all had to wait for the professor. he was late and because of that had a short class, after school was over i had to run a few errands before being able to go home and start on my homework. i was called in for a first interview and it was quick, pick up some paper work to fill out and bring back for second interview tomorrow, i don’t want to say where it will be because i am afraid to jinx myself, has happend to me several times already; don’t want to risk it. went back home to pick up a list of groceries and money to buy to make for lunch and dinner. after dinner began filling out the paperwork needed for tomorrow. realized i didn’t know what to wear and found some quick casual clothes and began ironing them, just finished and now heading for bed, just wanted to keep everyone posted. even though the people i have let down i am slowly making it up to them. sorry. i am getting a little more nervous but hopefully with this pain killer i will be knocked out for a few hours. let’s see what’s in store for me tomorrow.

slightly nervous O_o