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Recovery was tough. Got through the pain without medication, when ingested it made things worse. Post-op in a few days to remove stitches and heal some more. I Survived.

Never Let Them See You Bleed O_o

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i have to say thank you. thank you so much for everything you have done for me. as much as i don’t deserve it thank you. you have got me out of quite a few things that i know one day i will repay you back for. even though we are blood, still; i know one day i will get it all back to you as mint as possible. it make take a while but i know i could never thank you enough. stay safe out there tonight, to others good night and sweet dreams.

O_o

today was strange, woke up to a crazy dream, was able to see in thermal imaging. as if i had bionic eyes. it was weird and also strange. as the day carried on my mom got a phone call, it was my dad. she could hear something was wrong in his voice right away. i have that gift too, being observant helps too. i was outside trying to tire out tumbler so he could sleep better at night. when i came inside my mom told me what happened, i fed tumbler really fast and jumped in the car and drove to the rescue. i know i have no medical skills or a phd, but i know how to take care of the issue at hand (pun intended.) after thirty years not one time has this happened. normally in a situation like this their woud be panic, and forgot to mention my mother was with me. she gets queazy about the situation when blood is involved. i am perfectly okay with it and have no negative reaction to the sign of blood. i did everything i could to stay alert, assertive and collected, even though i was scared out of my life to find out what happened, i had to imagine what happen and play it in my head as if it were showed on a video. everything is fine for now, on the way there and while helping, i kept seeing worse case scenarios. i know not all of them could happen, but i had to slow down my heart rate so my dad wouldn’t see the scared look in my eye. the injuries weren’t severe but they were still their. i was able to do what i had to do to my dads hand before or maybe possible later injury. i could be quite a healer under pressure, i have seen some people crack, it isn’t a good thing. i am just glad everything is okay, not sure what will happen tomorrow, i have to help out my dad, it will be tough but he can handle pain, it may have been the adrenaline but he stayed calm through it all, even when i had press, move, rotate the injured area. it seems that so far these past two days have been about something important, i now see that. what we discussed yesterday came true; in it’s own way. i hope you get well soon. it was hard to take the strange felling in my throat and make it go away. sort of felt like someone was trying to strangle me, i had to push my way through but got to the other side.

get well soon O_o

today was strange, an old friend started texting me, they first got a hold of me during class, had to let them know nicely, where i was. it is nearing the end real fast, what i thought seemed like an eternity of classes, it wasn’t. they said they were visiting their younger brother and were in the process of taking him home. it reminded me of mine, that post was to him; didn’t mean to confuse but guess can’t hide it now since i am now writing this.  he is not here with me right now, he is in his own place, the town of the “H” prepping for his new lease on life. even though we have grown up together we will be taking over three cities soon, some people don’t know but it has been said we are a trinity and are interlocked within each other. all of our names come from the big guy book, we are blood. even though the move is near, the geometrical plane seen is a triangle, it what we are. with this coming up so fast, i was asked if feelings were there, i tried to hide them from all. can’t let them see you down keeps popping into mind, but some people just know something wrong, an intuition. it is not good that it is happening because we have grown so close together these past couple of months. i have learned and i have taught. but even though change is near, i will miss the old, wont be able to do all that used to be done. but can’t be that selfish. it can’t always be about me, all who know me know this, i care for all, no matter the circumstances. i will never stop and hope i never will. it is what makes me; ME! in conclusion i could only ask to be safe and careful and tie up all loose ends before leaving so they do not come back and haunt you, like they have for us. much love kidd.

to known emotion O_o

when I opened my eyes I knew what two things had to happen, had to visit my opthamologist  and go to work. got ready, and headed out, the doctor wasn’t in yet, had to wait for him to arrive, so I waited & Waited & WAITED. finally he arrived two hours later and was already noon, I want his job, sleep in work from noon to five and bank salary. so I did, applied to work there in the afternoon after going to summer school, my pair of scrubs wont suffice and will need several more. yippee! after leaving headed to work, had a doctors note which meant I couldn’t get in trouble or yelled at, the power was AWESOME!!! but got off the high horse when I saw the task at hand. work went on, got pretty beat up today, got a deep cut on my middle finger, a laceration on my arm (over dramatic), a cut on my thumb and scrapes all over my legs. I was there but not my mind, my mind was wondering about school and above all, other important things. we could have kept going but had to stop because daylight was over. here now in recovery mode. in conclusion, how was your day?

spending the second day continuing to help out as much as possible, listening to country music; everyone always says “everything happens for a reason.” it couldn’t not be loud and clear today. figuring out what I want was even more clearer!! a job is anytime between 7 days a week with an hourly wage and a career is a 5 days a week (Monday – Friday) with salary pay. I know am getting closer to what I WANT. many country songs I heard today seemed to apply to me in every which way. SCARY!!! but it was a meant to be kind of thing. on the flip side I encountered a few slightly REAL SCARY moments, like heat exhaustion, almost nailing my foot with the nail gun & alost falling off the roof. My dad has done this for 30+ years and me just for a few days, but that is not my career, I think I am meant to help my dad/others but in a better way that uses my educational standings.

to a better path O_o