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I guess yesterday’s paper was right. Was going to feel like I was hit by a bus. It’s only at the end of the day where I can piece every thing together.

it happened again O_o

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i kept thinking my weekend was already over but when i checked the calendar it was just beginning. when i woke up everyone was still sleeping, it was funny because they still partied during the night and all i had was two beers and a glass of champagne during the new years toast, the rest of the time friends kept bring me water. so glad i drank water instead. it was everyones recovery day, people didn’t want to get up out of bed or didn’t want to do anything. since i was the only one that was in good condition i made a few errands while in town. we later met up with a few friends for dinner and i had a energy drink where my hands and arms were still sore from trying to pump up the crowd. we are going to be headed home to rest before going to bed. good night and sweet dreams.

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had an amazing dream but was rudely woken up by a cramp in my leg. I woke up in a scream. it lasted for a good five minutes. I went straight back to sleep after it had gone away, it was very strange, it felt like a bad dream but when i got out of bed i couldn’t walk. that has only happened one time before and it is a painful feeling. i got up and after limping around for a while i had to take some medicine to try to loosen up the muscles around my calf. it went away for a bit but knew i would have to keep popping pills all day and didn’t want too so i just walked out the pain, it didn’t work as i thought it would in my head. joined some old school friends from way back in my private school days, we got to talking and even back then it is like it is now. someday i wonder who my friends really are. i am beginning to realize to open my eyes and see what is real. i never had seen it before; i guess because i was naive but wow i am glad i was told. hope all have a good day. good night and dream happy dreams.

thinking O_o

today has got me thinking. i joined my friend and other friends in a race way out in the middle of no where. the scenery was like the one i had in my dream before i woke up this morning before we went there. it was just like when me and my brothers took our drive out of state to see one of the eight world wonders. it was very lush. of course some of it was man made but the rest was nature at it’s best. many things still left to do and the week is coming to an end. a new one is beginning at there are more things that will need to be get done, as far as tomorrow it will be really busy. i hope all had a good day. good night and happy dreaming.

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how can i put this? been trying to figure out at what angle to go at this. just need a little bit of time to try to figure out what to say.

here it goes O_o

today was enlightening, woke up early and headed to yoga with my really good friend. we were reading about it last night and figured out it was free yoga day and as we began looking at some of the classes that were being offered, we stumbled across a class that had a base of hip-hop in it. we were curious about it since we have never seen or heard of anything like this. when we arrived we came to find out the class was full and quickly found another place nearby offering free yoga. we found a yoga class called wood yoga or core yoga. it was very intense, what a way to wake up; i have been trying to concentrate on getting better, it has been a few months that i have actually done yoga but there were some stretches and poses i was able to do that other classmates couldn’t. as the day went on i was able to have some peace and quiet to pick up the books and start studying again. what a way to learn! haven’t had that in a while, this weekend was a good escape, made me realize a lot of things. even with what little i did, it was some time needed off that i had been waiting for. after that i said my goodbyes as if i was never going to see them again, i will return one day! that is something i will keep my word on. on the drive back it had stopped raining and was beginning to clear up a bit but at the same time the weather was perfect. as i arrived home i walked into a quite and peaceful house, it was great. organized my stuff and grabbed a granola bar for a quick snack and began with the books again. this is very helpful and kept me alert about my work as if i were to hit a second gust of energy. had some dinner and went back to the books, i am determined to pass these classes, no matter what. i really need them if i want to get into the program i have been raving about. i am just here writing this now because school start up again tomorrow and tomorrow is a new day with new challenges. i have got to make the most of what i have been given. thank you. be safe out there and have a good night with sweet dreams.

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finally the week is over but another is about to begin, another week of trying to cram in everything together to get everything turned in too. my head if full of information that it is coming out of my ears. even with sleeping early and getting enough rest and having a balanced breakfast, i have been running around everywhere and it has been a game of cat and mouse. one minute im here the next i have to go across town and so on and so on. it is well worth it but the part that is never good are the headaches and body aches. not to mention the workouts i have been through this week are killer but relaxing and refreshing at the same time. i hope to be sleeping in on sunday, still have more to do tomorrow. have a good rest of the night folks, this is me signing off for today. had a lot to say today too.

never ending cycle O_o

while sleeping I had a great dream, a lot of what happened in my dream was great but that is another story I will make at a later time; when and if it actually happens. today began my conquest of trying to get everything ready for school. I went really early to see the director of the program for my degree and was the first one in his office. I told him what I wanted to do and he twenty questioned my points and views and i passed! he approved of my internship slot and he went over the trial and tribulations of what needed to be done during the internship. I have my heart set on one place for the sole reason that NO ONE has ever thought of going that route. I just have to hunt down another chairman and director of this location to get the “green light.” I really want to have this under my belt for future references and have been told by many and several past workers they like my work ethics and when I am determined to get something to not stop until I have it. I have been told if I were to ever need anything to not hesitate to ask because they were put in my path for a reason. the reason may never be know but discovered. i do have back up places but since it is a job, I may consider it in the future, I need everything to check out and be on point. I am very nervous and thrilled that I was one of twenty five to get the internship class through that director. I don’t want to be a disappointment but a great candidate for a future consideration of any opportunity that may possibly come my way one day. with everything I do there are a few things that need to be done before the end. I am only on day one! I know this is just the beginning but I have to get this done now. I never thought I would ever say this but it feels like a “now or never” kind of moment. and need all the help I can get.

to [blank] O_o

today was strange, an old friend started texting me, they first got a hold of me during class, had to let them know nicely, where i was. it is nearing the end real fast, what i thought seemed like an eternity of classes, it wasn’t. they said they were visiting their younger brother and were in the process of taking him home. it reminded me of mine, that post was to him; didn’t mean to confuse but guess can’t hide it now since i am now writing this.  he is not here with me right now, he is in his own place, the town of the “H” prepping for his new lease on life. even though we have grown up together we will be taking over three cities soon, some people don’t know but it has been said we are a trinity and are interlocked within each other. all of our names come from the big guy book, we are blood. even though the move is near, the geometrical plane seen is a triangle, it what we are. with this coming up so fast, i was asked if feelings were there, i tried to hide them from all. can’t let them see you down keeps popping into mind, but some people just know something wrong, an intuition. it is not good that it is happening because we have grown so close together these past couple of months. i have learned and i have taught. but even though change is near, i will miss the old, wont be able to do all that used to be done. but can’t be that selfish. it can’t always be about me, all who know me know this, i care for all, no matter the circumstances. i will never stop and hope i never will. it is what makes me; ME! in conclusion i could only ask to be safe and careful and tie up all loose ends before leaving so they do not come back and haunt you, like they have for us. much love kidd.

to known emotion O_o

if you are wondering about the title it is pronounced (uhn-dur-dee-mee-cee-a-ted). lol. if you know what i am talking about i will carry on, if not, sorry. it has felt like that for the past couple of days, it has been a tough thing to come out of, the monkey and giraffe have help me out a lot…they tell me beats, poems/lyrics. i recently mentioned the word LIFE and threw it around left and right to people i have spoken too and have just got ten about the same reaction from all. in their head they are probably thinking i am crazy or mildly insane. but know this, i am perfectly sane! what i have come to realize or epiphanize if you will; that i can not fix everything! but favors that are dealt should be repaid, it should’t always have to be about it, it is replaceable. under the right circumstances it can easily be replaced. even though you are not here in my presence i hope you realize now that the world doesn’t all revolve around it. yes it helps, but for needs and not wants. i do hope that you get to understand this, i am telling you with my all, don’t jump because you want to, but jump because you have too. i know it is a huge leap in your life and i am very happy for you, i have never said this out loud but i do miss you. you are my best friend. and I LOVE YOU. just be careful. yeah i want to see you succeed just like everyone else but you better follow with what you said you were going to do. in the end, do what you love and love what you do.

to a new mountain O_o

school went very well began learning new things like how to use synthetic division. was let out a bit early and 3 minutes later the rain came, I was soaked and so were my chucks. got home to dry off before heading to the bank to make a deposit. did that and had my little brother with me because he wanted to change his gym account, seems like were opening up to each other as brothers now. before we used to be distant, it kind of sucked that i had no best friend and he is family, what I don’t need right now is negativity, but I will take caring and all the positivity anyone will give. i am open for that or encouragement or advice too. these 6 weeks will be tough because of so much information crammed into them, I was told it would be a at-your-own-pace kind of class, it is in a way but need to get started on the homework but in order to start have to buy the code, quite expensive just to use a database, in my opinion, but I guess that is life! went to the library to check out some books on juvenile crimes and the book I really needed was reference, looks like I will be spending time doing some reading and work at the library, a first for me. here I go! wish me luck, diving right in!

to re-re-learning school O_o

my summer has come to a halt for the next next 6 weeks. I start summer school tomorrow, I am stoked and super nervous, it has been about a year that I have not been in school, everyone who says “once leaving you never return” is a crock, it all depends on the person who wants to get closer to reaching a set goal. I have been taught to “aim for the moon because if I miss I will end up in the stars.” I want to personally thank you for showing me that you can do anything when you put mind, body and soul (dedication) into the task at hand. Much THANK YOUS. I am prepping everything right now, taking a few moments to  write this out because I found a lot of things that made me remember what you have done and I have always said it is my turn, which it is, it is my turn to prove everyone who didn’t believe I could do this. here is to you. PEACE. I hope I still do have everyones help, push and motivation to get through this class to make an A – B and NO LESS. in conclusion, I know you did it everyday and saw what you did and in a way the tables have turned (in a good way) that it is my turn to bust my brain until my head almost explodes. here we go!

nervous and happy O_o