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i first off have to say happy new years everyone, twenty-ten was good to me and i hope twenty-eleven will grant me all the wishes i have ever asked for in the past. i need to thank everyone for inviting me and making the masquerade baller happen. it is early and i am already awake. i was surprised as most people were during the party, i was nervous for the whole day and was in need of some help, with a simple conversation i was finally able to calm down, thank for your help. going to head to breakfast and enjoy the new year. i meant everything i told you. have a great day. =)

O_o

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what a day, i was totally surprised by my dream before waking up, it was good but not really sure what it meant or what was the message the other person was trying to tell me. party silently. as i awoke i was awake before the alarm had gone off, i got up and started getting ready for work, it was still early and made some pancakes and coffee, while i waited i tried getting ready, was a slow process. i finally was done cooking and got to eating, finished changing and headed out the door to the car. started up the car and drove, arrived to work and met up with all my co-workers for a slight meeting, got some useful information. got in my group and got to work, had to get after a kid for acting up today. wasn’t fun getting after them but had to be done, they were very disrespectful and if most people know me that does not fly with me. i give respect to have it returned back to me. finished there and headed home, i was suppose to do homework but took a nap instead and after a few minutes i was energized and my family arrived. decided to have a little fun with them and talk. we went on for a few hours and began making bar-b-q outside and the neighbors joined us; they are related but distantly. after being stuffed on chicken i went inside to grab tumbler and ran after something he thought he saw and broke his collar. had to make a quick run to the store and buy a new one. today was productive but more social. i tried writting and have finished up two more reports, still have three left and and to tired to write. hope all had a good day. good night, be safe, sleep well and sweet dreams.

O_o

what a spiraling day, it all started last night while dreaming; i was able to some how control the dream and what i did. it was as if my thought had a thought, i know it is hard to explain but it kind of reminded me of inception the movie, where they went into a dream state and in that dream state they had gone into another. i was thinking of what to do and my body would do just as i thought it. it was as if i could control my world. before i could get to controlling my dream i was woken up by my alarm. it was time for me to get up and get ready for school. after getting ready had some time and tried out the new coffee i had bought yesterday. it was really good. took off for school and learned a little bit more on the what was going on before the depression. i was awake, alert, excited to learn and what felt like a good mood. after leaving school to work i was early and decided to take some time and drive. made it to work and after heading inside is when the spiral of events began. everything went from good to bad to good to bad to good. by the time i knew it it was already time to go home. even though everything was spiraling out of control i remembered my dream and how i was controlling the dream, i did just that, i took the time to enjoy the slow traffic, in a sense that i was able to think in peace, without being distracted like usual when i get home. i had a lot to catch up on from school and work. i am taking time to get a really good grade, i am tired of failing. i don’t want to be a failure anymore. even though writing in my strong suit; i have too. i think i will be asking for help because i don’t know how to go about my research paper. i got the information but where do i sart; sort of thing. it is getting hard for me to think even though it is early. i just want to sleep. already ready for bed and going to sleep early. i hope all had a good day. good night and sweet dreams.

O_o

 

what an awakening dream, how true can it be? most dreams are brought on by waking life. but i couldn’t distinguish if it was a dream or a premonition; it was very real. i could touch, feel and smell. i didn’t quite understand what was happening i the background but once you know something you can’t un-know it and as far as the other dream. it was awesome, every moment of it. i really hope that one does come true.

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what a quick day today was. everything from waking up early to even getting ready and heading to school. staying after to finish a test and heading to work. even at work they asked me what was wrong with me because i looked like a speed demon. i was hitting everything and knocking it out with unbearable speeds. it was as if i had eyes in every direction and a hundred arms. it was awesome. i have never finished work so fast before. and ti top it off i asked for more work to do. who asks for more work?! well i did and i was looked at as a person who was insane. with many little things to do i was able to knock those out. stayed a little after work talking to some coworkers. i was only able to hear a short brief of their life stories because i had to run to the stores. friday came up faster then i was expecting it. i am heading to the camp grounds tomorrow after work. no technology. which means a back draft of my post for that day. my first one ever. i will just be me and nature for a day to relax. relaxing is all i am doing oh and of course writing and documenting everything. from what i have looked up some adventure are in my midst. i am excited. as i write this right now i am sipping on some tea and getting drowsy. it is looking like a way early night for me. i am officially done with my tea and soon to be done writing. i love you. i love you. i love you. i am grateful to have each and everyone of you in my life, no matter the circumstances. i know you may never hear it from my mouth but i mean it with all of my heart. thank you. well folks, i hope y’all had a great day. it is time for some sleep. good night and sweet dreams.

dance O_o

today was just another day just like any other, except for the part where our professor dropped the research bomb on us and it is due in twenty days. i have to write a five page paper on my topic on a canyon. in the americas dated way back in time. on top of that i need a cover, map, five pictures and a works cited page. she is expecting us to turn in a book. lol. went to work after class. i was surprised because i woke up really early and got everything i needed without being in a slight rush. i also had a few minutes that i added some quotes i stumbled upon from checking out some books the other day. i have three that i need to get started on but might have to wait since i will have to write my own book. while at work everyone is starting to getting to know me better, they more people are asking me; since i am young, if there are tips to get things done faster on the computer, it is fun talking but it is strange that they don’t know when i try to explain. looks like not just when your young you need help, it apparently ranges from all ages. after work i took a power nap, was rejuvenated enough to begin searching on some of the research. it is a lot of information for on just one topic. i sort of am already trying to figure out what i will say when i present. that part will be fun. i will have a slideshow and other stuff that will blow everyone out the water, i hope. i think i have handled just about enough of my research for one day. got some good information and some not so good. sorting begins soon. i hope all had a better day. good night and sweet dreams.

sueno O_o

today was my test day. i was woken up at six in the morning by tumbler who needed to do his business outside. come to discover that it was freezing outside, i was just in my sweats and shirtless and it didn’t hit me until i was down the stairs. ran back inside and put a jacket on. got ready for school as prepared as i was. i produced answers that i didn’t even know i could ever think of, the seventy-five multiple choice took longer then expected. i had to stay a little extra to finish up but the answers that i produced were on the written portion. there was six of them but with four answers to each one. finished that and went to work. work was work. until lunch, went to grab a bite to eat at an old restaurant that used to be by my old house and is now near my work. as much as my stomach craved fried food my brain said no. i got a grilled chicken burger and a water. it is getting difficult to find places near me that just don’t serve red meat. on my way out a coworker complimented me on my haircut. i had done a few things to it and don’t want to get into it, it was an awkward feeling. while home took my dog outside to find an old family friend next door. got to having some fun with the kids and tumbler while their mom was chatting it with my parents. am now here typing this out and about to get ready for bed. tomorrow is a long day too. i do wish all my friends a good night and sweet dreams. love you folks.

O_o

today was one of those days for me, a missing in action kind of day. so much to do and so much to see. was up early in the morning running around like a chicken with it’s head chopped off. tried to get everything turned in and tried to talk to everyone i needed too to not be left behind, i still need a few more things. this is the hard part, i feel as if i have to sell myself, but in a way it is for a good cause. well a future cause at that. now i am learning more and being more intrigued into another department but am still following my main goal…for now! like i told my parents at dinner today, i can not focus on just one thing, i want to do everything or at least be informed on lots because not just one subject intrest me. i’ll admit many many moons ago i never wanted to go to class because nothing ever caught my attention until these past few years towards the end of my high school. i have learn to be open about a lot and learned to adapt to what may be going on around my life at the time, but i think right now, this moment of my life i am awake, in a sense that i want to keep learning and never stop. i know with what i am considering may be dangerous but if i could change one thing in a person, i think i can be more helpful to others. and not to mention with my background, i would be able help out others. here is to step number one of many to come. but at the same time i am also afraid of what may happen. i just hope i can get this.

fingers crossed O_o

today i was woken up really, really early by my parents at six in the morning to be exact just for them to tell me that they were here to pick up my aunt to go see my uncle in mexico because he had a surgery or a clinical test or something of that nature, i would have joined them but i don’t have my passport yet, when i last tried to get it i was late by four minutes and the next day it would cost way too much to afford at the time. any who, i picked up a friend of mine and took tumbler for a swim. spent some time trying to teach tumbler (my dog) how to swim, he picked it up really fast and stayed in the water for a good amount of time. i got my feet wet too. while there there was people, well a guy leering at us for trying to teach my dog how to swim, i was just waiting for him to say something but what i assume he was afraid of the dog, maybe had a bad experience, like i did, where i nearly got my arms ripped off a long time ago by my cousins dog. i survived and just have some nerve damage but i still have full function in my hands and arms. the crazy thing about that day is the i never shed a tear, could have been that i was in shock, but i was fascinated by the cuts and blood, ever since then not much has bothered me physically. it felt good just to finally do something with my summer, i have been cooped up all summer in the house concentrating on my studies. got back home and no one was home and took a nap with tumbler after dropping my friend off. in conclusion i know it might be too late to start anything new because summer is coming to an end really quick and school is just around the bend, which i am very excited for. =)

to summers eve O_o

i was woken up by a know it all, wasn’t a great morning. had to rant but enough of that; it is over and done with. with some delay i was able to get just enough rest to recover but still have some pain. as the day progressed it did just that. we worked hard and it paid off, literally. out of the blue my friend asked me if i would join him to see a movie and said sure, even though i was dead tired; but it is rare this happens and when it does i know there is a deeper meaning to just hanging out. sure enough i was right, we got to talking while i munched down on my bbq buffalo wings, everything spilled out, the movie wasn’t until midnight, well ten minutes before so we had a little time to spare. on our way to the theater more and more information was released, because all he needed was just a second opinion. while at the theaters a fight almost broke out, we were two rows behind it and saw everything, i did miss a small portion of the movie  because of them arguing because the second party was on the phone; i mean hello who does that?! step outside and take your call but not while the movie has already started. don’t want to spoil the movie but it involves dreaming. there was much hype on the movie and it turned out to be a great summer movie; i recommend everyone to see it. what they do in the movie has happen to me before but in real life, not by being hooked up to a machine. in conclusion, in a way i need to get out, needed to clear up the old noggin, everything at work, home  and brother moving away is all too much for one day. thanks but it is now time to rest. i hope you can figure out what you need to do.

to dreaming big O_o

to sleep or not to sleep? that is the question, i now understand a bit more of my math work and all i had to do was ask questions after class, i have always felt embarrassed to ask, for one it was something so simple that i could probably have easily spent some time and browse through the book to find it and second because i have always felt that asking questions and getting help means i am incompetent and unable to get understand thoroughly. but today, for the first time in forever, i put my pride aside and stayed after class to ask the professor some questions because i needed help and that help would come in handy for tomorrows test. even with doing homework and notes it is still a bit difficult to understand so many formulas and steps that need to be followed before coming up with the simple answer. while i was running in the park trying to clear my brain of all the work i have been putting into my school work i felt that i needed to turn my attention my pain away from my bran and distract it for the time being before diving right in again. i still need a bit more help, if there is anyone out there that would like to scratch off a good deed of their list, i would really like some help! i saw this today and couldn’t help but write it down. “i am the master of my fate & i am the captain of my soul.” – Nelson Mandela (from the movie Invictus) was a great inspirational quote and was a great movie. i would like to one day say something that would be inspirational and would be used by others after i am gone. in conclusion i think i want to stay up and study like i have never studied before to get an “A” on my test tomorrow, should i or should i get rest and try my best?!

knowledge is power O_o